hehehe

i have as many blog entries as i do hits?....wow...rather sad...heh...

but then again...when blogger.com used to be me first and primary source of blogging, i used to get alot more hits per day...

but that's not the case n e more...i have switched into msn space...cause i thought it would be easier to write on it since i'm pretty much constantly on msn n e ways...heh...

i miss this place....i dunno why....i really do...

i miss looking at the simplicity of this layout...it's sooo clean...sometimes it's laggy...but overall i think i like this best....

have you tried sooo many places and found that the very first place where you started was right for you all along?....yeah....this is kinda what blogger is for me...

maybe cause i'm a blogging fanatic...

i kinda don't like the word verification stuff cause it's rather annoying....sighs...but....it could be fun? heh....

why can't i go to my page?:(

is blogger having some sort of funniness happening?:(

boooo:(

it's been a long time

it's been a long time....i shouldn't have left you?

heh.....don't ask...those lines from a song is in my head....

hoping to be able to come home?

well yeah...i was just going through old entries....heh....not mine...but bri's....heh

wow.....those times....sure are...egh....wow.....

i don't like reading the old entries in my blogger.com account...cause they simply have tooo many unhappy moments...when i'm completely devastated and depressed....

but....heh....it's been a long time...he never writes on his account n e more...but somehow...even though those events that were written about were all filled with gloom, somehow....it still makes me smile. maybe it's cause reading his entries....i know...that we have all been through some sort of crapped and endured...

i think i'll be taking people off my block list soon.....maybe in another 2 months or so? dunno...

it's been a long day....

but....reading bri's entries of those of a 2003.....i think that's right...because he talked about my baptism....sadly though....i don't see how that baptism changed my life....it was done out of pure submission to other people, but not my own will to submit to GOD....dunno.....it's just totally one of those days...what can i say....

but i'm gonna go do some psych reading...maybe a lil nap cause i'm overly exhausted...stupid soc...we never did n e thing in stupid sociology....sighs....i hate short answers...there are gonna be SHORT ANSWERS ON THIS THING?!?!?!?! ARGS!!!!!

but i think i'm ready for my soc exam.....BRING IT!!!

something has changed....and i can;t describe it, but something has changed....maybe it's the way i'm feeling and how it's affecting the way i see everything....but....something has changed....this feeling is weird....hm.....
here's a song i should have posted a while ago....but....

it's time to know
the air was cold,
the leaves began to fall,
the greyness of winter started to softely call.
the birds have left their homes,
and the streets are all alone
nothing by emptiness,
a feeling of distress.

looking around,
no one seems to care, standing alone just wanting some love to share.
but GOD reached down to me,
touched my heart and set me free,
nothing by happiness,
a feeling of thankfulness.

*it's time to know,
if you didn't know.
GOD wanted to show
that he loved us so.
He gave me peace in my heart,
He'll give your life a new start,
Just be a part.
It's time to know.*

so don't let go, it's time to know.

tired

what can i say?

there are those that like to roam around the internet...read people's blogs, and then call everyone names because they choose to write about themselves on the blog.

of course, most people would write about their day and how it made them feel. some even write the events and issues that are important to them.

of course what is important to one person isn't always as important to the next, but it doesn't make a person selfish for posting entries about their issues. it's much better to talk about self then to talk about others. for only trivial minds discuss people.

most times, people only write half of the story of what actually occured. this isn't to say that side isn't important but rather their attitudes make that certain side of the story more important to their minds. blogs are half the story, you can't simply judge someone only knowing half an issue. i am sure if you aked that certain someone what they knew about the situation and what they felt about a situation, it may actually be different.

so, blog is an impowerment to certain minds. but it is also a destructive force when someone chooses to simply judge a person by what they have read. some people just have nothing better to do except to make others feel like crap and ultimately making themselves happy after a long stressful day. it's alrights. just gotta learn to ocntrol my anger....i've just gotta learn to forgive.....i've just gotta see that not everyone in this world is working to be nice, but rather they pride themselves on being destructive.....

it's okay though....

hehehehe

my sweet sweet blogger....

here....in this place...is my very first blog...

and so i come back...because i like this place alot better.

i mean...it doesn't have as many functions and what not....but it's still best called as home.

here....people openly criticize me....but it's always rather constructive...not destructive....

i rant and i rave here.....and out of all my memory...i've only been dissed once here...by an absolute random...not someone i know pretending to be a random....

but i'm feeling better today.....alot better....

something i wrote

i'll leave you all with something that i just wrote recently....and it doesn't really make n e sense....

there's something that leaves me feeling
there's something about the atmosphere that you bring into the room
you bring in the clouds
you bring in the rain
there's something that you bring into my heart, my intuition, my essence
you bring the pain, the confusion
you bring the sadness, the tears
you bring the smiles, the laughter
there's something about time as it continues
forever it separates
forever it entraps us in a cycle
there's something the distance just doesn't explain
forever around each other, but apart
forever to be near, but yet so far
there's nothing we can do
there's nowhere we can go
we'll be the shooting stars of each others' lives
you leave an image in the mind
you leave nothing but memories
there's something about the past that is left unfathomable
you brought the smiles
you brought the anger
you brought the sadness
there's something that just can't be described
though confusion is abundant
though sadness and despair is ever-present
you will not walk alone
there's something about the way we choose to feel


yes i know....its badly written cause i have no skill in writing...but yeah.....heh....what is it that you see after reading that?

memories

this blog is pretty much filled with mainly upsetting thoughts....sad:(

oh wellz....whenever i come now...i try to type happier thoughts...heheheXD

smiles okie? cause ultimately...it'll make you feel better

why is it that now i haveta do word verification every time i type and entry now?!?!?! this sucks!!!

hehehe

looking at my little drop box linkie thingy...i see...that i've had this account since march 24 2003!!!! hehehehee......i update sooo many times per day...hehehee....i wish msn space could update it by day like it does here...but...nah...it doesn't:'(

this is another thing that i really love aobut my blog...it's cause i have the option to do it by day....XD

muah muah mauh!

blogger...oh sweet blogger...

muah muah muah....how can i abandon you like this for soooo long?

this used to be my primary source or online journal stuff aye? but...heh....nopes....but....i still love this....hehehehe...i think it's time for me to change my background...but i'm just tooo lazy to type up all my html source stuff all over again=.=" sighs...

i'll figure something out..hehehe...muah...

catch you later...

smiles

ergs....someone else is sleeping in my bed tonight.....so....i resort to sleeping on my chair.....or my desk....i'll figure out a way....kakakakakaka....it's all good....


he violated my stuffies...grr....and booo whoo...

he tried to stranggle my cute butterscotch

knitting a scarf tonight...woooo whooo...knitting!!! yayaya!!!!

have class tomorrow....i'll find some time to sleep...it's all good...heh....

he keeps asking me if i still like matt....but the answer is...i can't help it...sighs....i like him alot.....and i don't understand why...

i already know that joyce likes him too....sighs....and most chances are....he'll like her more...but it's alrightees...no biggie...he doesn't want me....and if he wants her...it's all good...i'm happy for him...hehehe...

sure, he'll break my heart once again...but as long as he's happy...i'll be happy for and with him...hehehe....

hehehe.....

the rasmus- in my life

Feel the heat below my feet
I have to go, no time to sleep
Can't believe the things you say
I turn my head and walk away
You make me sick, you make me nervous

Times are gone when you would say
This is the one and seize the day
Times are gone for honesty
"My victory is your defeat"
Oh can't you see you've been mistaken

In my life I decide and it turns me on
How I am, how I live, who I love
In my way I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life, I decide, I decide

All you do, you can't deny, it's waste of time [waste of life]
Can i suggest that you invest in something more than hopelessness
Before you know, the ride is over

In my life, I decide and it turns me on
How I am, How I live, Who I love
In my way, I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life, I decide, I decide

It's up to you if you give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop x2

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up,
It's up to you, it's up to you

The record shows that you're dead but you're still living
Every time you have died you have been given
Another chance to fix your bad attitude
And make a move, it's up to you

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up x3

it's up to you x2

give it up x8

oi

my post didn' post....i'm kinda mad now...how can my blogger do this to me?!?!?:(:( i am upset ar!!!1 booo

but n e whoo...i wanna write an on going research thingy here.....i think i can manage it...hehehehe....

oh yes..what type of music chick do you think i am?

leave your comments....leave your songs....and i'll listen to them all and see if i like it....hahahahah

i love you

i really really love you.....and every part of my can't help but to say it....you may ask who i'm saying it to...or you simply go to conclusions of who i am saying it to. but truly and sincerely, you aren't me. you don't know my heart. am i even saying it to anyone? or am i just simply overwhelmed with this feeling of love and needed to explode it all over the internet to add another way tooo oftenly said phrase?

i can't help it....but heh...

if you look at me...what type of music chick am i? hehehehe.....

well....right now....punk rock>.< oi....do i look like a punk rock chick?>.< hahahaha.....more like punk rock, techno, chinese, japanese, and korean....kakakakaka.....

comments

oh oh.....lately, i;ve been having comment luck!!!! i just love it when people leave me comments...of course...they aren't comments that diss me....cause i'd hate those. i would never randomly diss someone up so why would n e one wanna do that to me?!?!?:( that's just mean!!!:( and i no like mean people....so for fun...dun come and randomly just diss me! cause i'll be mad at you....even though i don't know you...hehehe...

even though i have no idea who mr.(ms.) annonymous or what entry they are refering to.....hehehe...it's a comment none the less! and comments always make me happy!!!

GOOO PEOPLE GO!!!! ME LOVE COMMENTS!!!! THANKS FOR POSTING!!!! hehehehe

my dear blogger

i started to miss this account soooo much.....sighs.....i've missed you.....but i've betrayed this account to use msn space....i update my xanga more than i do this account:'(

eghs......going home for commencement today....i'm...tired....and i'm somewhat pissed....and i'm lacking energy...whatever....gonna go....l8a l8a

hmwk

seee....here in uni....it's not sooo much hmwk as in independent work....hehehehehe......there is tons of reading for me....bleh....i hate reading assigned reading....bleh....gonna go and buy that psych book>.< comes with that manual thingy too>.< there goes 106 dollars from my bank account....down to 400 sumthing.....i really need to get a job=.=" ewwwww=.=" well i'm going to go buy my antrhopology textbook for 40 dollars=.=" ewwie aye?? sighs sighs

hehehehe.....catch ya'll later:P:P

heheheh

well now....it's alll good.....i'm not really planning to do n e thing today...cause well...my sister is gonna be coming....so....they'd probably stop by my place either after or befor she is done unpacking....so.....i should stay in my dorm to prepare.....

my mommy was worried that i couldn't keep my room clean...hehehehe...I SHOWED HER!!!! heheheheheehe.....

welll....imma feeling a tad bit hungeee>.< sai la>.< but then at the same time....all i crave is a hotdog and bun>.< hehehehehehe....

food around the uni is EXPENNNNNNSIVVVVE>.< hehehehe....

yupz...bored....:P:P hehehehe....gotta go back to dorn now.....and probably eat something

feeling like a cheapie bum>.<

hehehehe....i don't have a print card....and printing is only 10cents....hahahahahahhahaha.....i don't buy food cause it's expensive.....hehehehehe....well maybe an occasional hotdog or hamburger if i walk by a bbq....hehehehehehe......don't talk to many ppl....and i seem to talk to ppl from rose more than i do the actual ppl on campus......hehehehe...

the longest convo i held was with someone from campus crusades......the funny part.....she never even told me her name.....hahahahahaha....but she was nice....hehehehe.....what can i say? hehehehe....

had like 2 or 3 bees after my cotton candy>.< ahhhhh>.< wonder if the glucose would kill em>.< meh.....

well i'm tooo cheap to actually print of my schedule...so....guess what? i'm drawing crappy lines with a crappy schedule.....hehehehehe

can't wait to get printer ink and my int connection up and running.....

hope i don't be a kal online fanatic>.< at least it's free forever so i don't feel bad for not playing...hehehehehehe....alll good....hehehehehe.....

gonna be looking for a job soon....>.< soooooooo in need of a job>.< but first....i must look at my schedule to see the times that i am free.....hehehehehe.....

i think there is a spinning class tomorrow around noonish or sumthing....maybe thursday....i dun remember....but yeah.....

i dunno if i should go home this weekend.....i don't think i will...even though it's awfully lonely in my dorm....this is why living in maritime single room sucks ass=.=" i'd much rather have double room>.< but whatever....can't complain...there are many ppl that want a single room....hehehehe...

i need to eat some more potassium>.< ewwww.....i can feel my reaction time is being delayed>.< ewwww=.=" oh yeah....i have vitamin c chewable nastiness......my mommy is getting me an exercise ball....it's cause i tell her it's better for my posture....since i have the worst posture ever in the family n e ways.....damn.....i really need more potasium in my system.....i'm getting muscle cramps from just sitting for 10 mins.....ewwwwwww.....

wow.....why is it on these journal thingies i can type forever and ever and ever....but when i'm in person on campus, i barely even say hi to n e one=.= what the hell is wrong with me....

one upper of the day....at least i'm becoming more familiar with the campus...hehehehehehe alll goood....

first official day of frosh week

well now, i don't know what to say.....i'm bored.....and i have nothing to do......and i don't have internet in my room>.<

pretty boring....haven't cleaned up my room yet=.=" but i'll get right on it after all this typing away on here.....

there are campus tours happening here....but i'm not in n e of them....why? cause i'd much rather take a tour for myself.....

last night my mother phoned me.....and i could tell by her voice that she'd been crying>.<

sighs sighs......i'm already homesick already>.<

all that hard work

hahahahaha......never playing maple story again=.= soooo wu lioa......was a good time waster yesterday...for about 5 mins before i got really really really bored....hahahahaha......

there were sooo many names from rose online that were my friends.....and were banned....well....i dunno...maybe it's a coincidence that there were a few ppl with the same name? hahahaha.....i know i don't like to change my nn....hahahaha.....but it's rather common and fairly simple......just my fave shape and number....hehehehe....and you get my nn.....

i was one of the oldest on that game....hehehehe......the char was cute....but what can i say? it's just egh....sooo..."dai lun".....hehehehe......

packing....

going to uni on sunday....then frosh week....oi>.< me a nervous bum bum.....

hehehehhe.....

no more rose....so i'mma reading, folding stars and knitting scarves for my lil stuffed animals...hehehehehe

imma weird aren't i? >.< hehehehehe

need to frame all the puzzles i made this summer>.< which was 3....>.<

hehehehe....

feeling a tad bit sick....>.<

ewwww

kai bu kai xin le?

so......another summer day passes.....

and so....i fully only have officially 2 days of summer left when 12 o'clock hits>.<

eeeeee>.<

didn't get to do n e thing with him alll summmer>.<

hehehehe....but....i'm excited for when he comes to visit me in res>.<

but......i know this is probably gonna be another broken promise......and that would make 3.....egh...soooo pathetic.....sighs.....

i will remember how horrible i felt when he broke the first one and i found out he refused to do the second....and if he refuses to do the third one.....i think imma just break down and cry my heart out....

but i know....the word of man is not reliable, and the only true word that is the most reliable source will always be the word of GOD....his promises are forever...and because he will never break a covenant he made with man, i should always be happy....he blesses me everyday with blessings.....i may not count them everyday like i should....but i know they are exsistant....>.<

i love GOD....but maybe there is truly a larger part of me that could love him more....

heheheh

and so....imma back....how could i leave this thing? but i have nothing to write here....

going to uni soon....ahhhh.....

at least i got someone promising me to come visit me:D:D

heheheheeh....yayayaya!!!!

but maybe i'm looking toooo forward about it all....hope i dun get disappointed>.<

long time no see

i have really really missed this...but i'm in no mood.....

the guessing game again...

ewwww....my english songs really need some modernization.....either it's just pure techno with no music or simply old=.= ewwwww....i would have better songs in chinese=.= but whateve.....here goes...

1. On your current playlist hit shuffle and pick the first twenty-five songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing).
2. Write down a line of the song. try to avoid putting the song title in the line.
3. Have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. (NO CHEATING! i.e. No looking up on google etc.)
4. When someone guesses correctly, strike out or bold the line and name the smart alec who guessed it.

1. You pull me like the moon pulls on the tide
2. And it seems like all is dying and would leave the world to mourn
3. Won't stop, before I find the cure for this cancer ~☆MATT☆~
4. I do believe that there's a love you wanna share
5. But in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind
6. You with the sad eyes, Don't be discouraged
7. I feel violent I feel alone
8. I'll never know how much it cost To see my sin upon that cross
9. I've kissed so many frogs but I never found a prince
10. Pour out Your power and love As we sing holy, holy, holy
11. Forget about the way that he held you tonight
12. Don't know much about the french I took But I do know that I love you
13. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies It’s compromise that moves us along
14. If you don't like it, man, you sniff glue.
15. I like you so much I'm acting stupid
16. I thought I lost you somewhere But you were never really ever there at all
17. Would you run away with me to a destination where we can be so free?
18. I'm worse at what I do best And for this gift I feel blessed
19. Even if romance ran out of rhyme, You would still have my heart until the end of time
20. See the man with the lonely eyes? Take his hand, you'll be suprised

MOVED

I HAVE MOVED!!!!!!!!