Tuesday, September 28, 2004

bitch!!!

keke^^:D:P yeah....i suck with songs. when jordan reads this......i'm hoping that she'll send me this song....keke^^:D:P

Bitch by* Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today
You're so good to me,
I
know but I can't change
Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe
I'm an
angel underneath innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I
can understand how you'd be so confused
I
don't envy you
I'm a
little bit of everything all rolled into one

I'm a
bitch
I'm a
lover
I'm a
child
I'm a
mother
I'm a
sinner
I'm a
saint
I do
not feel ashamed
I'm
your hell
I'm
you dream
I'm
nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So
take me as I am

This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing

I'm a
bitch
I'm a
lover
I'm a
child
I'm a
mother
I'm a
sinner
I'm a
saint
I do
not feel ashamed
I'm
your hell
I'm
you dream
I'm
nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you got me figured out

The season's already changin'
I
think it's cool you do whatcha do and don't try to save me

I'm a
bitch
I'm a
lover
I'm a
child
I'm a
mother
I'm a
sinner
I'm a
saint
I do
not feel ashamed
I'm
your hell
I'm
you dream
I'm
nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a
bitch
I'm a
tease
I'm a
goddess on my knees
When you're hurt
When you suffer
I'm
your angel undercover
I've
been numb
I'm
revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it ANY other way


hopes

i really hope i don't cry. i really hope i can be strong and just hold it all in. i mean, these tears aren't for me or my situation. really, for myself, i haven't been much happier. i mean, i have....but that's because i was put on the top of the world because of some now jerkass. cat, don't worry, not all guys are jerks. it's just that you have met two exctionally great jerkasses one after another. but don't worry, i'm sure GOD has planned out for someone to be sooo much greater in your life that you will totally forget about them!!!

args......hope i can be strong.

it's getting worst!

it's getting more frequent!!!

it's getting more damaging every time!!!!

please, let this all pass!!!!

studying

should be studying. sighs....

i think i'm fine for calc. i'll prolly prove myself wrong though. as usual, it's rather sad. yeah, everyone thinks i'm rather pessimistic when it comes to school. that's because i feel like such a failure. yeah, i complain about school sooo much, and really, it's the only place that's keeping me safe really.

sighs sighs. i really must pray for pat.....his broken arm is like breaking my heart. sighs sighs.

gotsta pray that i will actually pass my calc test. i don't understand why i can do all the hmwk, but when the test comes i suck sooo bad. sighs sighs. i prolly just need to try alot harder so i won't break my tutor's heart. and importantly, break my parent's heart for pouring money into this investment, but for me to be unable to achieve it would be worst! sighs....i don't understand why i do sooo horribly.

sighs....worrying for pat now. hope he's safe....hope his arm heals properly. sighs....

study time!!

well came home from a fun day at school!!!! yeah yeah. so yeah....means that i'll be leaving the pc soon. so yeah......

let's see.....
today....jordan (a girl friend) took me out again. keke^^:D:P she paid for everything!!! i feel sooo bad. sighs....i really need to get a job. i feel sooo indebted. is that the word or or is some other one?!?! well n e ways....she paid for everything.....and i feel sooo bad cause she's like, "don't worry about it." args. and i can't even pay her back cause i don't have muchie mula. args.....if at all n e. dont worry....i'll scrounge enough change to go dim sum with you!!! keke^^:D:P

let's count all the places we went today. keke^^:D:P

so yeah, we went first to like wal-mart cause she needed to get some sweat pants!!! keke^^:D:P dragging her to the gym...since i can't drag val n e more. since well...more like she drag me cause val's the one with her lovely black getta!!!! keke^^:D:P that car's a sexy bitch i swear....and the person (val) who drives it is even sexier.......*whistles and shouts* keke^^:D:P jokes jokes okie?!?! i'm not type of person. i mean...val's car is sexie and so is she....but i don't dig cars and i definately don't dig girls.....at least not in that sexual sense. keke^^:D:P

well, yeah...back to my day....was going to call cat when i woke up.....didn't....cause i thought i would have woken her up....i slept for over like 12 hours! man....how is it going to be when i reach university?!?!? @.@ will i sleep through the whole weekend?!?! well n e ways....yeah...

went to school....had last class, well teacher let us out...keke^^:D:P sooo very great. upz yupz. so yeah, jo and i went to walmart.....unsuccessful...at least we saw this really cute asian or at least someone there. pretty cute. keke^^:D:P had the cutest smile. it's that lil smirky like smile...but cute none-the-less. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz....yeah.....she paid for mickie dees......args...again i feel bad and i haveta get a job!!!!! *shakes fist at self* yeah......after that....we went to like oakville place.....unsuccessful there too. blah....yeah....wanted to go to like sq1 or sumthing...then i remembered i had tutor. man.....jo was a sweetie....she picked me up from tutor too!!!!! sucha sweetie pie. keke^^:D:P love that chic to death!!! yupz yupz. yupz....and then let's see......she asked me where else we wanted to go......i said....hey....you've never had bbt before....let's go there. i would have gone to forever tea house.....maybe i could have bumped into cat.....but, i didn't cause i didn't know where it is. *boo whooooo* yeah...we had bbt, i bumped into david xu again la. keke^^:D:P hey cat, do you know david xu?!?! i think he goes to utm or went there too!!! keke^^:D:P yeah, i knew david since i was like 4 so yeah....he knew me in the worst of moments when i was still sucha lil brat. keke^^:D:P but meh, he doesn't talkie to me muchie. meh. so yeah.....when we were done jordan was hungee and we just stopped by like "ming sing" the star place. and i was like, okie.....well that's chinese fast food.....are you hungry? do you want that?!?! yeah.....she ordered a "gwong dong chow meen" keke^^:D:P yupz.....and after that...went to timmy's and got rachee to come too!!! rachee's a sweetie too!!! keke^^:D:P she's like...sabina, don't you know you have two tests tomorrow?!?!? see....she's concerned about my academics. keke^^:D:P well yeah....then we bought cookies for raychee's and my wedding tom. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. then jo drove me home. keke^^:D:P

my jacket now smells like smoke. oh wellz. my rents know jo smokes....no biggie. plus, i know i don't....just second hand smoke...that's all. but that's what going to the gym is for. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.