Wednesday, August 04, 2004

well i see.....i found my penguins....i know it's fake....but hey....it makes me laugh sooo hard!!!!!
omg!!!!!! i finally found what i've been looking for a super long time....

this has always put a smile on my face....always....it makes me laugh sooo hard....


well i'm not really good at translating n emore. haven't listend to music for sooo long that it has been forever since i have translated a song.

hm....want jay chou cd.......blah....i'll just burn it! keke^^ i've burn every other one so far...so it would just be wrong to have one actual legal cd if well.....all my other ones are fake.....keke^^
when you look at me, i'm unable to speak
i apologize and say i am wrong,
do you want to break up with me?
but you seem to not want to be with me
should i just let you go?
you know i really don't want to,
but i have no choice, do you understand?

looking back, being with you,
i have never had anything good happen to me
i've been through pain
i've been through fire
but who you do you care for?
if i stay, and be with you forever,
i think that i will not have much good any ways.
if you have no heart, let's not drag this on
oh my goodness, you should have let me go earlier
from the beginning i will start
but why must i always suffer so much?
should we continue or should we not?
until you admit you are wrong, we might be able to continue
there is nothing good for me
but for me, i have already got hurt sooo much

your heart is not content to forget
i ask you can you stand any more of this?
after all this i can see, it's not going to work,
but i am still just afraid

looking back, being with you,
i have never had anything good happen to mei've been through pain
i've been through fire
but who you do you care for?
if i stay, and be with you forever,
i think that i will not have much good any ways.
oh my goodness, you should have let me go earlier
from the beginning i will start
but why must i always suffer so much?
until you admit you are wrong, we might be able to continue
but i don't even know why we should.....

it's sooo hard to continue,
why drag this on?
oh my goodness, you should have let me go earlier!
i must begin from the very start
but every time i always suffer so much
continue or not to continue?
there is nothing good for me here
but i feel so bad, in the end it will end


hm...dont' know why....but i'm completely tired....
i'm sooo sollie....but i stole the song that was one your pagie.....i thought it was very nice song. i mean....i am not with someone.....but still.....it's a good song. it's a very sad song....but, i like the music. i suppose the song describes the way you feel now. so yeah. hm. hope all will go well with you. hope you will come home around 11 tonight.

hm.....maybe i will go to utm aye? keke^^ wouldn't it be great? keke^^ it's really weird......i have never met you, but i talk to you as if i know you really well. i don't think you read my thoughts.....but if you read like the past few days.....all my thoughts have been talking to you or saying sumthing about you. i suppose it's because i just feel that there's something sooo similar about us. kinda kool if you ask me. keke^^ well hope you enjoy your day knowing that i will enjoy mine.

going to wonderland tom!!! yeah yeah!!! what what?!?!? did someone say they heard me say i'm going?!?! yeah yeah!!! i'm going!!! keke^^ yeah yeah!!!!
see....i should actually get some more sleep before what's her face comes and talks to me/ picks me up. args....feeling sickly again.....args.....

eww.....i'm still like burping up what i ate from yesterday. args. my body can't handle sooo much meat at one time! args....and i think we're eating it again tonight.....holy shit....i'm going to die! :(

feeling totally sick to my stomache now.

first the cramps, then a headache. then my eyes start waterring excessively. my whole body is burning and i am just beginning to start cooling down after putting myself in ice cold water. th basement should be freezing....but i don't feel it.....even when i first came down here.....args....not good....not good at all....

must go to the gym to digest all that i ate. hm....when we are buying bread....i must tell val to buy some fruits....because i don't really want to eat ham sandwiches. i don't really like white bread all that muchie. it taste funny.

egh.....feeling sick.....but i hope i ain't. i think i could have a fever also because my wisdom teeth are coming out. so maybe it really doesn't have n e thing to do with eating sooo much korean bbq stuff. plus.....why all the sudden stomache cramps? blah....need to take my vitamins!!!

i accidently forgot to take one yesterday and i was all moody this morning. args. maybe it's cause i really only slept about 6 hours at max.......and the bare minimum is 4 hours. i mean.....i slept at 2:20 ish.....and i first woke up at 6:13......but......i was making myself drift in and out of sleep till 8. so i really don't know how long i slept for. args.......
i know your not supposed to believe this stuff.....but yeah.......astrology.....really i ain't supposed to....but args....

Leo
Lucky Mars in Leo! You are overflowing with passion, love of life, and personal magnetism! Your flamboyance and grand nature is rarely matched, and you love the attention you attract. Love is fun, and appreciation of the bigger and better things in life will always be yours. Your energies are often organized and directed. You would make an excellent lover, as it gratifies you to see others enjoying themselves with the same intensity you do. You are creative and playful, and of course, passionate about it all! In matters of the heart, protect yourself from your own ego! It means well, but is so enthusiastic and powerful, it may begin to disrupt you and your partners' domestic bliss! You are willful, so just a little bit of effort will go a long way! You offer generosity to your lovers and are happiest when your love is reciprocated.

LEO July 23 - August 22
Your banner days in the realm of romance this week? Thursday and Friday, so make plans to do your favorite things -- or not, because you'll be able to have fun doing just about anything. Those already paired up could find thrills sneaking kisses at the laundromat or the library, given your fiery energy. Singles should find sparks while learning something new, so get yourself to a lecture, a museum or that yoga class you've been meaning to try. Then learn something new about somebody new -- like their phone number.

LEO
The start of a new year is generally a time of change, but you're holding steady and you're happy that way. Singles are especially wary of new relationships -- it might be for fear of new injury, or it might be reasonable caution. By the end of January, couples are going in search of new thrills. Make sure they're the sort that lead to greater closeness instead of jealousy. February through mid-March is one giant balancing act. You do a fine job of walking romantic tightropes, but rein in your inner clown and understand that behavior -- both good and bad -- always has consequences.
Your dignity makes a comeback around March 30th, leading you to explore sources of quiet happiness instead of the raucousness of previous weeks. In relationships, this leads to nesting; your friends might complain about your disappearance, but you're too busy smooching to care. April will find singles investing energy in unusual people. Sometimes, silk purses and sow ears are indistinguishable at first glance. The end of May brings sweetness and light all around. You've earned it, so celebrate in style.
Summer takes that sweetness and cranks it up on a hot grill. Lovers may be simply dazzled with their intense feelings, while those looking for love will be positively irresistible. Between June 30th and July 14th, let freedom ring. Singles shouldn't tie themselves down, and couples may want to explore independent interests. July 23rd is a showstopper, and you're headlining; your charms get rave reviews from all viewers. The last weeks of summer find you feeling unusually moody. Expect support from your loved ones, but don't demand unattainable perfection.
September has you looking for love in all the wrong places, and things may build to an unpleasant encounter in early October. Relationships will either sizzle or fizzle by October 25th, depending mainly on how much you have invested already and how seriously you take the whole 'for better for worse' concept. Whatever the results, November finds you in a nostalgic mood and ready to give plenty of heartfelt thanks. As winter kicks into high gear, so do your emotions. Channel them towards the greater good, and leave old issues behind as you move forward.
holy shit....for once....my body and skin is warm to the touch. frick....i'm sick! :( args args. not good. not good at all! oh wells...definately going to the gym today.....so i know that i will prolly get better after that. woke up to an unexplainable bad mood. but i'm getting better now. actually.....i'm pretty happy now.....just confused.....and my head is totally burning....i think i need to lie down again. sighs sighs.
keke^^ i like to put a laugh in your heart and a smile on your face. but i don't know if i could ever do that n e more. sighs sighs. growing more and more distant as the days go buy. and one of these days....our relationship with each other would just be simply thinner than a thread or maybe just gone....sighs.... i really don't wanna loose you......you've been there for me for sooo long! i hate for all this to end sooo abruptly. is it just my feeling or do you have this feeling too? sighs. when i talk to you....you never answer me....but our convos are always short now....they always end right after the question i ask. feel bad....
i'm just hoping all those people i have hurt will feel better. i really don't want people to feel bad because of me. hm. i sincerly apologize for every misery i have caused you.
had a good time! yaya!! great day today. it's very good. should have called home more often though. hm. but i did call home once. hm...next time....i will call at least twice if i stay later than 10.....but plus....whenever i'm at vals....my parents trust me because they expect her mommy to be there. and in most cases...this is true.

sighs sighs. i feel that well.....i have made some people upset at me...sighs sighs. i feel my world crashing before me. but yet i feel perfectly fine. maybe it is due to the vitamins that i have been taking lately. it's a good sign though. a very good sign if you ask me. that means i was very moody because of chemical imbalances. but then there are those times that i am just emotional over certain situations....