my mommy was right....
and on soooo many levels......but i just dun feel like sharing how......
soooo very tired....wanting to go to bed.......but i can't.....sighs sighs....i think i'll just go study for bio......
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
love
this song.....is by kenny loggins.....i don't even remember how i got it on my list...but i have it.....and...it's slow....but i'm still sooo frustrated....frustrated about nothing i understand....after throwing three punches at my punching thingy.....i feel a little better.......gotsta continue to pray.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved
Love is you
You and me
Love is knowing
You can be
Love is free, free is love
Love is living, living, living love
Love is needing to be loved.
Love is you
You and me
Love is wanting
To be free
Love is knowing
You will be.
Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved
Love is you
You and me
Love is knowing
You can be
Love is free, free is love
Love is living, living, living love
Love is needing to be loved.
Love is you
You and me
Love is wanting
To be free
Love is knowing
You will be.
anger
ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I JUST WANT TO GO....AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all this frustration.....AH!!!!!!!!!!
i just broke out in fits of anger today....AH!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
all i can see is what my brain is thinking. the following will be what i see. i see sabina running around in the basement. she is pulling her hair and running in circles. she goes up to walls and bangs her head a few hundred times. she's screaming....running.....screaming....running....panting...more running and screaming....her head hurts like no tomorrow. she's tired. she's frustrated.....AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am refering to myself in the third person in my own blog....what the hell? AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
my dad said i should have pressed on the gas while i was making the turn....and i flipped, "the last time when i was in this situation, you told me to have just waited and not make the turn. i should have waited for all the cars to pass and turn....NOT PRESS THE GAS!!!! what is it that you want me to do? you should have just walked, i can't please you...i woke up early to drive you...and you think it was a mistake to have not pressed on the gas. the last time, i pressed on the gas you were like that was a shitty turn. and this time i made a really good and safe turn you are like, you should have pressed the gas so it would have still been a green light." ARGS!!!! I CAN'T FREAKING PLEASE MY OLD MAN!!!!=.= AHH!!!!!!!!!!! no matter what i do he doesn't think i'm good enough. he doesn't trust my decisions. he doesn't like my logic. AH!!!!!!!! i am the same as him in the only aspect that i think alot and i am his blood line.....ahhhhhhh........besides that....my sister will be the only person he will ever love....i don't understnad it....i just can't please him.....AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*banging brain against skull* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOING FREAKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
frustrated at what i feel for the people i shouldn't have feelings for!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything i do is a mistake.....i want to say i am a mistake....but i know this is not true.....i am still the clay within the Father's hands being molded and shaped to be the perfect masterpiece......but.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I JUST WANT TO GO....AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
all this frustration.....AH!!!!!!!!!!
i just broke out in fits of anger today....AH!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
all i can see is what my brain is thinking. the following will be what i see. i see sabina running around in the basement. she is pulling her hair and running in circles. she goes up to walls and bangs her head a few hundred times. she's screaming....running.....screaming....running....panting...more running and screaming....her head hurts like no tomorrow. she's tired. she's frustrated.....AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am refering to myself in the third person in my own blog....what the hell? AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
my dad said i should have pressed on the gas while i was making the turn....and i flipped, "the last time when i was in this situation, you told me to have just waited and not make the turn. i should have waited for all the cars to pass and turn....NOT PRESS THE GAS!!!! what is it that you want me to do? you should have just walked, i can't please you...i woke up early to drive you...and you think it was a mistake to have not pressed on the gas. the last time, i pressed on the gas you were like that was a shitty turn. and this time i made a really good and safe turn you are like, you should have pressed the gas so it would have still been a green light." ARGS!!!! I CAN'T FREAKING PLEASE MY OLD MAN!!!!=.= AHH!!!!!!!!!!! no matter what i do he doesn't think i'm good enough. he doesn't trust my decisions. he doesn't like my logic. AH!!!!!!!! i am the same as him in the only aspect that i think alot and i am his blood line.....ahhhhhhh........besides that....my sister will be the only person he will ever love....i don't understnad it....i just can't please him.....AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*banging brain against skull* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOING FREAKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
frustrated at what i feel for the people i shouldn't have feelings for!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
everything i do is a mistake.....i want to say i am a mistake....but i know this is not true.....i am still the clay within the Father's hands being molded and shaped to be the perfect masterpiece......but.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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