Saturday, September 13, 2003

well maybe i'll take bak some of my words, i will still be watching your bak, only because i still care. i won't show you the side of me that doesn't....because well even if so, you wouldn't care. but it's alritez. as time goes by, i'll just haveta see how long i can hold. for now, as long as i'm happy, i'm fine. are you not my friend n e more? u haven't blocked me from msn, but yet u are always angry when i talk to you. and when i come up to you for conversation u mouth to ur friend that i have no brain. what the hell is that all supposed to mean? WHAT NOW?!?! WHAT?!?!?

well my anger will subside. i will forgive. it coulda been a joke, maybe not, but whateva. i still care, and if it bugs you that i do, then dat's ur problem not mine. well i still love ya guyz. l8a yo
hm, i dunno. going shopping today i think. yupz yupz. all i need to buy is like 2 paris of pants for myself. so yupz yupz. everything'll be just fine. yupz yupz la. hehehe=.:d can't wait.

i think i'm actually finally happy now. i'm still very realistic, but reality doesn't bring me down n e more, because well, i'm not trying to fight the inevitable. i can't predict what may happen, but yet at the same time, u'll always be able to tell. so yeah, whateva. i have no clue. i'm tired, but i have to do my homework. hehehehe=>:d well i'm actually quite a stereotypical person. sooo funnay. but den again, maybe i'm not. just about like 7 and a half questions. hahahaha=>:D whateva. having fun. hm...

are you still my friend ma? why do you treat me soo badly then? u like talk to me as if you don't want me around. and you say things as if i can't understand what you're trying to say. yeah, in fact, i do have a brain, a brain that's more evident, apparently more so den yours. you ass. you make urself look bad. you talk to the guys, you talk to some of the gurls. but yet you don't talk to jean or i? what the hell is fricking wrong with you? oh wellz. if you don't wanna be my friends, it's sooo obvious that you have more important people on ur agenda, den well i don't really need to be on it den. just scratch me out because apparently you already have. don't care. just because i do, i wun n e more. you cause meh anger and u create hate towards yourself. watch your back because i no longer will because you don't watch mine.