hm.....same verse, i don't wanna run away, but i can't take it, i don't understand. arg, one of these days, someone will let meh go and i will just loose my mind. yeah joy, jean and ann, i will have problems, i will have a heart attack one of these days.

i don't care if you honestly got sick of my chatting or raving about depressing crap about the same thigns over and over again. i don't care. well maybe i do. sighs sighs. grade 11 now. sighs sighs. i am in another grade, another year in skool. sighs sighs. will it be the same? or will it be different? will i see the rainbows as i saw from october till febuary? or will all i see is gloom and storms this year? i cannot predict what is before me to walk. no one is able to predict what is infront, only can see what is behind and past. sighs sighs. i miss more of last skool year than you will ever be able to imagine. sighs sighs. i feel lonely, knowing that i am not, and hoping and thinking that i am not. sighs sighs. yeah, loneliness, loneliness isn't what i long for.

will you be there to hold me? will you be there to provide me comfort? will you be there to support me? will you be there? can you be there for me?will you ever be willing to be there for me?

sighs sighs. yeah, loneliness isn't what people are made for.

skool starts soon. i'm gonna be blow drying my hair and sleeping soon la. maybe make a call or two because i haven't talked on da phone for a long long time. so it's alritez. well i just made da call, seems to me that the person i wanna talk to is either out or just unwilling to pick up my phone. which is not likely da case, because dat person'll pick up, unless he's in deep convo with another person. sighs sighs. i feel neglected, i feel regected, i feel like nothing. sighs sighs

my world has turned from a rainbow to a freak storm for a long long time now. what the hell is wrong with meh? won't n e one come and fill my world with happiness before i leave it forever to be in the mist of a storm? can they not see that i will not survive much longer? hehehe=>:d

i will miss you guys for days to come. sighs sighs. i will no longer be able to see you people day in and day out. maybe it's better for me this way. maybe i am to be sad for a few more moments in my lyphe. crap, breaking down and crying, as usual la. why won't the torture within myself be eased off. why won't i let my troubles go. why won't the wind pick up my troubles and leave me troubleless? sighs sighs

hm, some things you say are left best unsaid. but dat's just not true. hm. as long as you noe it's true, and it's right, maybe you should say. hm. selfishness should sumtimes share la. oh wellz. whateva. no body really cares, but do you think so? so yeah. i have no clue. if you never tell n e one what's wrong with you, then no one will ever actually get to know you. some problems aren't let to like only let you think by yourself. there are many things that you just shouldn't have by urself. but whateva. i have no thought about n e thing at the same time. so yeah. whateva. i'm tired. well yupz yupz, good morning people. l8a