if you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

every so often

well now...every so often....i end up doing nothing....and well...even though i should be studying.....i dun....

every so often there this happiness inside of me. every so often, tehre is this energy that is inside me that just won't be held down.

then....there are those moments when i feel like absolute crap and in the damned dark pit. dunno.....

and then....every so often....i post this song......for some reason....this song always makes me want to cry no matter who i think about.....and i suppose i need to sleep soon...because this lil sabby over here is getting sad and moody and tearful.....so yeah......

i love the song above this entry....and well...it's probably like the fifteenth hundreth i've posted the song......i just really love this song....sighs....i dunno why....i just do......

wow...

testing....

me sooo very tired...but no problems.....i am just seeing if my email will mess up another entry....hm.....hope not....

ahhhh

my feet pretty much hurt.....blah.....grrrrr....

but...whateve....no problems....me tired....sighs sighs......

i wish i had someone's shoulder to just put my head on and someone's arm to wrap my arms around......sighs.....meh.....i want a hug......sighs....

today

let's see......completely like didn't go to school basically......

dun feel like giving the details....but i suppose i will....

i bought sharpie pens...muhahaha....i bought a nice necklace that is really simple....but i really like it because it's a simple silver chain with a zirconium pendant...would have been much sweeter if someone would have bought it for me.....but whatever....hahahaha.....

bought sharpie pens....yeah....needed to draw pictures on the back of my grad photo....so i decided it was time to buy em....since i only have a week to finish drawing the pics and everything.  muhahahaha. 

bought lunch today...muhahahaha...yum!!!!  japanese!!!!!  yum!!!!!!  beef teriyaki, and tempura.....yum!!!!!  muhahahahaha.  gonna get sooo fat....but...yum!!!!!  muhahahaha.  me love tempura....muhahahahha......

ddr....muhahaha...wanted to buy clear bra straps...but....stupid summer...they are all sold out....stupid....grrrrrrrr.....