*note* right now, this is really how i feel. well if i were to put my words into an eloquent flow of music, this is probably the song that most relates to me. kinda role reversal i suppose...but, it really makes me think.....*
晴天
Qing tian
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Jay Chou (周杰倫)
故事的小黃花
gu shi de xiao huang hua
從出生那年就飄著
cong chu sheng na nian jiu piao zhe
童年的盪鞦韆
tong nian de dang qiu qian
隨記憶一直晃到現在
sui ji yi yi zhi huang dao xian zai
ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
ruay sou sou si dou si
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la si si si si la si la sou
吹著前奏望著天空我想起花瓣試著掉落
chui zhe qian zou wang zhe tian kong wo xiang qi hua ban shi zhe diao luo
為妳翹課的那一天
wei ni qiao ke de na yi tian
花落的那一天
hua luo de na yi tian
教室的那一間
jiao shi de na yi jian
我怎麼看不見
wo zen me kan bu jian
消失的下雨天
xiao shi de xia yu tian
我好想再淋一遍
wo hao xiang zai lin yi bian
沒想到失去的勇氣我還留著
mei xiang dao shi qu de yong qi wo hai liu zhe
好想再問一遍
hao xiang zai wen yi bian
妳會等待還是離開
ni hui deng dai hai shi li kai
颳風這天
gua feng zhe tian
我試過握著妳手
wo shi guo wo zhe ni shou
但偏偏
dan pian pian
雨漸漸
yu jian jian
大到我看妳不見
da dao wo kan ni bu jian
還要多久
hai yao duo jiu
我才能在妳身邊
wo cai neng zai ni shen bian
等待放晴的那天
deng dai fang qing de na tian
也許我會比較好一點
ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian
從前從前
cong qian cong qian
有個人愛妳很久
you ge ren ai ni hen jiu
但偏偏
dan pian pian
風漸漸
feng jian jian
把距離吹得好遠
ba ju li chui de hao yuan
好不容易
hao bu rong yi
又能再多愛一天
you neng zai duo ai yi tian
但故事的最後妳好像還是說了拜拜
dan gu shi de zui hou ni hao xiang hai shi shuo liao bai bai
Fine Day
The spring flower of the story
Floats from that year when it was born
Swinging on a swing in childhood
Following memories always swaying till now
ruay sou sou si dou si
la sou la si si si si la si la sou
Playing the prelude, watching the sky, I remember the petal trying to flop
That day when I skipped class for you
That day when flowers fall
That classroom
How come I couldn’t see
The disappeared rainy sky?
I really want to be drenched again
Never thought that I still keep the courage that I have lost
Really want to ask again
Will you wait or leave?
This day of the typhoon
I tried to hold onto your hand
But yet
Rain gradually
Heavy to the point that I cannot see you
How much longer
Before I can be at your side?
Waiting for that day when it clears up
Maybe I will be a bit better
In the past, in the past
There was someone who loved you for a long time
But yet
Wind gradually
Blows the distance really far apart
Not very easily
Once again be able to love a day more
But the end of the story it seems like you still said bye-bye
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
愛是最大權利
可不可與你放膽嬉戲
忘掉日與夜那些限期
不管身邊幾多無聊道理
手拖手與你演齣好戲
遊行直到夜晚多淒美
爭取這一次走幾千百里
沿途留心 掌心的知覺也著緊
我認我認我愛得太過份
人群漸近 想改寫你我命運
任天塌下亦前行 哪怕你說我天真
＊憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大 我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾 花光一切在乎你
沒有想過太多 我只需要你＊
路到盡頭也置之不理
寧願為愛著你不捨棄
爭取多一次我身邊有你
沿途祈禱 始終一天我會望到
你是你是我的所有態度
無從預告 多曲折每段路
路中幾多的勸告 我怕我會聽不到
憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大 我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾 花光一切別嫌棄
若已想過太多 我只知愛你
REPEAT＊
忘掉日與夜那些限期
不管身邊幾多無聊道理
手拖手與你演齣好戲
遊行直到夜晚多淒美
爭取這一次走幾千百里
沿途留心 掌心的知覺也著緊
我認我認我愛得太過份
人群漸近 想改寫你我命運
任天塌下亦前行 哪怕你說我天真
＊憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大 我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾 花光一切在乎你
沒有想過太多 我只需要你＊
路到盡頭也置之不理
寧願為愛著你不捨棄
爭取多一次我身邊有你
沿途祈禱 始終一天我會望到
你是你是我的所有態度
無從預告 多曲折每段路
路中幾多的勸告 我怕我會聽不到
憑我徹底的勇氣 愛是最大權利
不理場面不偉大 我共你始終同遊生死
還有哪一種結尾 花光一切別嫌棄
若已想過太多 我只知愛你
REPEAT＊
degredation
yeah......i was exhausted today. i slept from when i got home till like about 5:20ish...wow.....i took a really quickie showa ar....wow. i'm amazed....but the quickest shower is still 5 mins....yeah....every time i take a shower....i wash my hair.....and i condition....so wow. muhahahaha....feeling like i didn't need to share that. hahaha.
my ears no longer hurt.
but yeah....i woke up feeling totally degraded. it feels like i have become stipped of all my walls. i am feeling like all my walls have fallen apart and i'm kinda alone in the cold staring at my fallen, crumbled walls and going, why did i do that? i feel like i have lost all my pride. what have i done to myself in order that i allow people to know my feelings? i kinda got caught up in the rat race of liking someone. sighs. there is still hope, but is there? oh wells. all the problems in my life are self inflicted. it's like that wound i have on my arm, it's also self inflicted.
i punish myself because i feel like i deserve it. i punish myself because it feels wrong to indulge in the good all the time.
what's the use if the feelings i have are right, but because they are wrong at this point in life? you can't have a positive and a negative work out to be a positive. sighs. i wish i would stop thinking. i wish i would stop fantasizing. it's kinda more difficult now for me because i want to pretend that i'm not feeling the way i do. whether a person takes back their words or not, i still feel like crap. i know i shouldn't, but the consolation at this point still isn't much of a consolation. in a point in your life, you decide to move on, and in a way, i want to move on, but if i move on, it means that i must leave my current situation and never look back. but i know i will look back and ask myself what the hell have i done. so.....for now, i stand here miserable because my patience levels are low. for now, i stand here staring at a wall praying that whatever GOD has planned to happen. for a while, i had accepted what was said to me then......but the statement was retracted....and now.....i'm lingering in both worlds of disappoint and unutterable joy.
how am i supposed to feel? not everyone is ready to love me like i am ready to love them. hahaha, people say i'm mature, others say i'm immature....i say i am neither. i am in a point of my life where being "mature" or "immature" doesn't matter in my life. there's a part of my life that i have tried to supress. the side that is constantly angry, constantly hating, constantly bickering, constantly foul is supressed, because my other qualities are more dominating. the side that wants to love and be loved is greater than all the other qualities in my life. my life is filled with finding acceptance. dunno.....need to run away from myself and find myself without any of my friends for a little while. i haveta sort out my feelings and my logic. my mind and feelings are all contridictory.....*shivers* dun wanna know what could happen....
my ears no longer hurt.
but yeah....i woke up feeling totally degraded. it feels like i have become stipped of all my walls. i am feeling like all my walls have fallen apart and i'm kinda alone in the cold staring at my fallen, crumbled walls and going, why did i do that? i feel like i have lost all my pride. what have i done to myself in order that i allow people to know my feelings? i kinda got caught up in the rat race of liking someone. sighs. there is still hope, but is there? oh wells. all the problems in my life are self inflicted. it's like that wound i have on my arm, it's also self inflicted.
i punish myself because i feel like i deserve it. i punish myself because it feels wrong to indulge in the good all the time.
what's the use if the feelings i have are right, but because they are wrong at this point in life? you can't have a positive and a negative work out to be a positive. sighs. i wish i would stop thinking. i wish i would stop fantasizing. it's kinda more difficult now for me because i want to pretend that i'm not feeling the way i do. whether a person takes back their words or not, i still feel like crap. i know i shouldn't, but the consolation at this point still isn't much of a consolation. in a point in your life, you decide to move on, and in a way, i want to move on, but if i move on, it means that i must leave my current situation and never look back. but i know i will look back and ask myself what the hell have i done. so.....for now, i stand here miserable because my patience levels are low. for now, i stand here staring at a wall praying that whatever GOD has planned to happen. for a while, i had accepted what was said to me then......but the statement was retracted....and now.....i'm lingering in both worlds of disappoint and unutterable joy.
how am i supposed to feel? not everyone is ready to love me like i am ready to love them. hahaha, people say i'm mature, others say i'm immature....i say i am neither. i am in a point of my life where being "mature" or "immature" doesn't matter in my life. there's a part of my life that i have tried to supress. the side that is constantly angry, constantly hating, constantly bickering, constantly foul is supressed, because my other qualities are more dominating. the side that wants to love and be loved is greater than all the other qualities in my life. my life is filled with finding acceptance. dunno.....need to run away from myself and find myself without any of my friends for a little while. i haveta sort out my feelings and my logic. my mind and feelings are all contridictory.....*shivers* dun wanna know what could happen....
time to ease up the thinking
lately....all i have been doing is thinking. i feel like a drone, i walk around pretending to live, and deep down inside, i know i am not living since i hide myself under unreality.
i am really tired. super tired. sighs sighs. think i will sleep some. sighs sighs. lack of sleep does impair people's reactions of such.
being patient is hard.....but hey....muhahahah....patience is sumthing i must learn. muhhahaha. sighs sighs.....
i'm tired....ahhhh...boooo.....i'll sleep on my confy couch. muhahaha.
gonna go and be nerdy soon....after my nap...since it's not like i'm doing n e thing today....it really doesn't feel like a wednesday today=.=
....how long must i sit and wait?....
i am really tired. super tired. sighs sighs. think i will sleep some. sighs sighs. lack of sleep does impair people's reactions of such.
being patient is hard.....but hey....muhahahah....patience is sumthing i must learn. muhhahaha. sighs sighs.....
i'm tired....ahhhh...boooo.....i'll sleep on my confy couch. muhahaha.
gonna go and be nerdy soon....after my nap...since it's not like i'm doing n e thing today....it really doesn't feel like a wednesday today=.=
....how long must i sit and wait?....
daily horoscopes...
muhahaha....sometimes i think these things are sooo funnay...muhahaha
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
The Bottom Line
That little voice is trying to tell you something. Listen before you decide.
In Detail
Enough is enough. It's time to break your routine in a very big way. You're thinking that even if you have to look elsewhere, it might be worth it -- and 'elsewhere' might mean another city, state, coast or even country. If a long-distance move has been in the back of your mind for a while, then, start doing more than just thinking about it. Make sure your passport is current -- then figure out what to do with your plants.
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)
The Bottom LineDon't rush them. Not everyone's as fast as you are. And some things just take time.
In DetailLife is working out just fine at the moment, and you're ready to celebrate. Now, when things go along this well, it's usually because two particular areas are as close to perfect as possible, and those areas are love and money. If that's the case, how about letting everyone else in on your secret? The rest of the planet would just love to know how to get both those departments working smoothly at the same time.
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
The Bottom Line
Your nicely balanced routine goes out the window. Don't stress -- it's temporary.
In Detail
Throughout your life, pleasing the one you love has always been at the very top of your priority list. You need to find some time for yourself right now, however. There's a personal matter that you really need to tend to. And while it may end up being a balancing act -- not an easy one either -- if anyone can manage it, it's you. Now how about sharing your secret with the rest of the world?
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)
The Bottom Line
That little voice is trying to tell you something. Listen before you decide.
In Detail
Enough is enough. It's time to break your routine in a very big way. You're thinking that even if you have to look elsewhere, it might be worth it -- and 'elsewhere' might mean another city, state, coast or even country. If a long-distance move has been in the back of your mind for a while, then, start doing more than just thinking about it. Make sure your passport is current -- then figure out what to do with your plants.
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)
The Bottom LineDon't rush them. Not everyone's as fast as you are. And some things just take time.
In DetailLife is working out just fine at the moment, and you're ready to celebrate. Now, when things go along this well, it's usually because two particular areas are as close to perfect as possible, and those areas are love and money. If that's the case, how about letting everyone else in on your secret? The rest of the planet would just love to know how to get both those departments working smoothly at the same time.
Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
The Bottom Line
Your nicely balanced routine goes out the window. Don't stress -- it's temporary.
In Detail
Throughout your life, pleasing the one you love has always been at the very top of your priority list. You need to find some time for yourself right now, however. There's a personal matter that you really need to tend to. And while it may end up being a balancing act -- not an easy one either -- if anyone can manage it, it's you. Now how about sharing your secret with the rest of the world?
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