sadness.
tears swell my eyes
drip by drip a puddle forms on the floor
nothing i say can be heard
nothing i do will be seen
no path i walk is straight
you can say you understand, but really, you don't
you say that you care, but obviously not enough
change is what you think is good
change is what you want from me
change is something i cannot
how i wish it were so simple
how i wish it was so pleasant
how i wish things would be better,
but obviously they are not

wishing for better days
hoping to see the light
waiting for my dream to come true
all i can do is have faith

i'm tired....gonna sleep soon......YOU ARE ALL FUCKING ASSHOLES YOU KNOW THAT?!?!?!?

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when i take something...at least i ask if i could borrow it....asses!!!!man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?man, didn't yo momma teach you not to steal?!?!?!?

ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!ASSHOLES!!!!!!

WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE now DAYS SUCH ASSES THAT ALL THEY DO IS STEAL WHATEVER IS IN FRONT OF EM?!?!?!?

angry......sighs sighs...but i feel sooo worthless....sighs sighs....

why do i always get yelled at? sighs sighs. is it my fault that parents don't teach their children now days to not steal? is it my fault that the system is corrupt? yeha....people can go fuck themselves. going insane...don't fucking talk to meh....

can someone give me a hug?!?

sighs sighs.....i lost my pencil case today. and my parents are like extremely angry. yeah val, when you lost it, you were devastated because of the notes that you lost.....i'm devastated because i'm afraid of the reaction my parents give meh. my parents are furious....not just with meh, but because of the darnded people in the darnded skool. sighs sighs. i have lost like all my skool like. yeah ken, i'm sooo sorry that i lost ur pencil...but it's not like you'll read my thoughts.....so yeah......sighs sighs. i didn't mean for this to happen, it just did. my parents are blowing gas in my face....sighs sighs...and also the skool
sighs sighs. i'm upset...yes...very upset...sighs sighs...can't stop crying......all i hear them say is it's ur fault...why are you soo useless....voices in my head...they just won't stop....why?!?!? sighs sighs. report to the office...sure...like that's gonna do n e good....but i still haveta go do it any ways.....args.....pissed off beyond believe.....stupid applied course.....i hate grade 10's.....args......

can someone give meh a hug?!?!?!?