just because u made meh mad and i lost my temper, or u made meh sad and i shed a tear.....it's doesn't mean n e thing.....tempers come and dey go....tears get washed up by da morning sun. nothing comes and stays....cept GOD.....he comes and he neva leaves......so dun wollie.......for dere is nothing to wollie bout.....

yeah......too young to have a will aye???? hahaha=>:D dat's what most think.....hahhaa=>:D soo funnay.....

but den again......i wouldn't become famous....so no one would fight for my property....no one would fight for my wealth.....well let's see dis.....everything is meaningless......when u have no GOD. hehehe=>:D there is a time for everything......hahaha=>:D

but in today's society, i find dat people like to rush things.....well i walk fast....but it's not dat i wanna go n e where.....i just hate slow walking people....or at least da pace dat dey walk at....veggies.....sumtimes....dey inject it coloring and whatnot into da product, dat's speeding up a process....naturally, da fruit or veggie would turn color when it's ready, but no.....people just haveta make it ready when it's not. hm.....yeah....a good example of dis is american juniors....yeah....just look at dose lil kids...yeah, maybe a few of em can sing.....but for sakes.....look at em....dey are only ranging from like 6 to like 13......dey still have a lifelong of skooling to do....what shall dey do when da business fails em??? dey dun have enuff education because dey prolly wouldn't wanna work hard n e ways because they think dey have it all. it's quite pathetic.....but maybe i'm just thinking too much even on dere behalves.

oh yes......to da one who's msn is called "failure" at da present moment......i would like you to noe dat well.....no one is a failure...everyone makes mistakes.....saying sorry doesn't cut it.....but knowing dat u have a heart to make up for what u did is pleasing to hear....but u didn't damage meh much......it just hurt at dat time......dun wollie bout meh.....i'm happy.....well kinda.....well sorta....but whateva....point being...everything'll be just fine.....i prolly got you all sad and prolly a bit mad at urself, but da point being.....no need.....dere are just sum times in lyphe when it's not worth killing urself ova....well actually.....all times are not worth beating urself up for it.....dere are just some things u shouldn't regret much about.....but sumtimes u just can't help it. dun eva call urself a failure....yeah, u may have failed a class, which i noe u didn't.....doesn't mean ur a failure....not being dere for a friend.....u can't be dere for da whole world....i've learnt dat da hard way.....but even if so....u can only be at a certain place at a certain time with certain people......u can't be with everyone....

it's not just dat u changed.....i've changed too.......from an attitude colder den ice, den well....now....a bit ova sensitive at least......but i'd rather stay dis way......allowing meh to use a measure of what i think is more hurtful and more correct......yeah......dere are a few set things which are comepletely wrong in lyphe....but dere are dose times which well......u really dunno till u ask GOD.....or maybe dere is no rite or wrong....just a way which is betta for you......i don't like ur old you n e more den i like da new you......knowing the fact dat u change just helps you see dat ur growing in sum way....dat u no longer can handle da person you used to be. if you dun change in a way dat wuzn't rite for ya....u'll noe.....u'll find complications....u'll find frustrations.....u'll find stress.....it's not da peace of heart u'll recieve.....but if ur stubborn about it.....u will learn to grow cold, like meh......i noe i'm too sensitive at da moment.....but i haven't learnt not to be yet.....so only time can tell. i dunno....maybe it's just meh....but i'm very conscious of my every move......knowing where i'm going and where i shouldn't be going.....but along da way.....i still make mistakes.....

i think da saying about forgiving and forgetting is totally wrong.....becuase well u could not actually forget if you noe what i mean......i dun think da bible eva told you to forget what u forgave......so likewise....i will not forget what i forgave only being dat.....it's like history....it shouldn't be forgotten because well....u can benefit from it....so yeah......dat's just what i think......it's just weird.....i think sooo wrongly sumtimes and sooo weirdly too.....whack....

kinda funnay....very funnay......u answered all but da one about flirting....keke^^XD. soooo funnay.....hehehe=>:D well u always reply my entries and i reply to urs.....it's funnay sumhow....

well dere would neva haveta be sorry if everyone wuz perfect, but u ain't.....but u noe....da word sorry just because i's overused doesn't mean dat it doesn't come from da heart.....for meh.....if i wuzn't really sorry at all.....i wouldn't say it at all....even if i was in da principle's office and dey were forcing meh. i'm just dat type of person.....i dun like saying things i dun mean.....even doe i joke around saying stupid stuff all da time.....which i noe dey noe i'm just being stupid. hehehe=>:D but not everyone's like meh.....den no one would actually say sorry even if i do say sorry when i do things wrong. the word sorry kinda like gives comfort if you no what i mean....like da word or phrase, i love you.....i'll admit....it's overused..........rememba da qualities of love.....love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast. it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails....1 corinthians 13:4-8a. u noe......when u say i love you, many, not most actually mean it......but sum part in one another's lyphe....dey just dun feel as if dey should commit to one another. what pisses meh off isn't hearing it....but hearing it and being broken....yeah...it's happened tons of times with meh.....but yet.....i've kinda given up on da idea now....i'll just let people come to conclusions......sighs sighs. sure is a lonely path sumtimes....being alone....alone again for another time in my lyphe.....but i suppose it's only a fear dat i shall conquer because GOD is my strength....even doe sumtimes i wear it out plain through......sighs.

well let's see dis....if you started blaming GOD for one thing, u can just go and start blaming GOD for everything....but ultimately, da choice is urs......and ultimately, all da power of choice is with you and is urs, because dat is what and who GOD is, da one who creates those choices for you and allows you to choose for urself. we are like dose choose ur own adventure novels.....u wanna live at the very end knowing that sumwhere along da way u will die......but one thing is different....unlike da novel....in lyphe, u cannot go bak......u must move forward even doe u seem to have made a mistake....being brought closer isn't for him to make you become closer, but it's for you to choose to become closer.....really.....in lyphe.....i really believe everything's a choice....hasn't n e one eva told ya dat well.....da greatest power GOD gave us wuz da power of CHOICE?!?!?!? yeah....many people dun undastand dat......but to meh.....i do.....lookie here for an example......okayz.....dere dis lil kid da normally pisses da crap outta meh.....den well.....i choose not to loose my temper.....and lookie and beholdie......i'm not loosing my temper even doe he's pissing da crap outta meh. hehehehe=>:D stupid example....but it's a personal one......hehehe=>:D so like everything else....everything's just a choice.....ultimately GOD can try to alter ur choice, but if ur stubborn and unwilling to change...den well....u'll choose da wrong choice......but if ur sensitive to GOD's teaching and such....u will fall in no such of a pit....

yeah....let da dead worry for da dead....well u noe.....i wouldn't wanna rot sumwhere....but i would be dead n e ways....so basically i'm planning my own funeral....only being well.....i believe i should, and not sumone else.....i've written my will.....i've written my funeral arrangements....wuz gonna write what should be said at a funeral, but den i noticed...dat's going a bit ova board....i'll just write what i'll have on my grave stone....even doe i wanna be like made into ash....i think dat's da best way....lookie here......from dust u were made, and dust u shall return. hehehe=>:D