Wednesday, November 24, 2004

meh=hideous

sighs. maybe it's because of my inside that i repell everyone i want to or is close to me. maybe i shall never know because the problem occurs around me and the way i think and then the way i act.

it's probably most likely the way i think. args args....i need some pills.

well i just feel sooo rejected now....booo

can't judge my own self worth because of people's opinion like that. args args.....

happiness shouldn't be judged upon such trivial matters. what matters here means nothing up above. what means everything up above means nothing here.

integrity or despair.....how will i be as an old woman sitting in a rocking chair knitting a wonderful scarf for my grandchildren. will i look back at theses years and think i wasted them or think about them and be proud that i lived through it???


args

hm...how fun aye?? i'm having major pains. args args. this is completely crappy. =.= frickin aye....i can't fricken go out to lunch today. i have a stupid guidance thingy cause i need to ask about something......oh how fun. muhaha^^

i feel very very sick. args args. hm.....sighs..... i haven't applied to uni yet. all i have done is fixed up my application. hm....i still haveta call university of waterloo, wilfred laurier uni, uni of guelph, and mac uni about some stuff regarding acceptance. how fun aye?

blah.... cell phone number......416-829-4567. muhahah. i love that number. how fun. oh yes, i have finally convinced my parents to switch me to a plan. muhahah^^ how great. muhahah^^ this is sooo great. muhahah^^ since i used up 10$ in less than a week...they hadda buy me another phone card, but then since i can't put in the card because my sister won't give me her damnded pin number code thingy.....i am stuck with having 1 dollar in my account...therefore, at max, only 3 mins. muhahaha^^ that would sooo not be happening.

yes, life goes on. sighs. i wish my feeling didn't go away sooo quickly. it's just sooo irrational. args. and now, i'm left feeling a tad empty cause i don't have that "feeling" n e more.

hm....i should really have one of those page hitter counters so i know who and when people go to my pagie....hm......