sighs

i can only be your friend. you will be happy. there will be no fights. don't want to be your friend,

here's lyrics to a happier song...

Everything's gonna be alright

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be alright

Whoever thought the sun would come crashing down
My life in flames, my tears concrete the pain
Me feel the end, the darkest, deepest riverbed
My book of life ain't complete without you here
Alone I sit and reminisce, sometimes
I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile
And meanwhile you know I never cry
Cuz deep down inside
You know our love will never ever die

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Take your time, and I'll be here when you wake up

I never thought my heart would miss a single beat
Caress your hands, as I watch you while you sleep
So sweet, I weep as I search within
To find a cure, just to bring you back again
And the sun will rise, open up your eyes
Surprise, just a blink of an eye
I tried, I tried to be positive
You're a fighter, so fight, wake up and live

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

Everything's gonna be alright

I'd give my life to only see you breathe again
Hand in hand as we walk in the white sands
To hear your voice, rejoice as you rise and say
This is the day that I wait, and pray, okay
Tears in silence, as time just moves on
You can't hear it but I'm playin' my favorite songs
I miss you much, I wish you'd come back to me
You see I'd wait a lifetime, cuz you're my destiny

Everything's gonna be alright
Everything's gonna be okay
Everything's gonna be alright
Together we can take this one day at a time
Can you take my breath away?
Can you give him life today?
Is everything gonna be okay?
I'll be your strength
I'll be here when you wake up

你懂嗎

每次為了他吵架　然後冷戰不說話
我的沉默　你懂嗎
是否你沒有辦法　偶而還是會想他
我的埋怨　你懂嗎

＊只能做你的朋友
　陪你快樂陪你憂愁
　不想只做個朋友
　想要給你我的所有＊

還能要求些甚麼

相信你給的回答　總有一天忘記他
我的等待　你懂嗎
就算那只是謊話　還是愛你不變化
我的感覺　你懂嗎

REPEAT＊

說不出口的溫柔

當你為了他傷痛　為甚麼我只能說
天氣不錯要不要出去走一走

是否你沒有辦法　偶而還是會想他
就算那只是謊話　還是愛你不變化
我的感覺
相信你給的回答　總有一天忘記他

once again, i am crying=.=

my eyes are swollen. i look like a goldfish. i suppose it's time to fold my 1000th crane now. since there is nothing between us now except for friendship, it's a new phase in my life. sighs sighs. but why can't i stop crying?

why do i feel sooo miserable? why can't i just accept all the things that have happened? why must i always feel sooo bad. sighs sighs.

i feel sooo alone. i feel sooo unwanted. i feel so.....sooo.....numb from all this sadness. why do i overact to situations? sighs sighs.

why do people say things that they don't mean? why do some people torture me like that. sighs sighs. why? sighs sighs.

feelings of loneliness come flooding back. feelings of rejection comes back. feelings of being unwanted tower over my dedication for love.

i want all of these feelings gone!!!! ahhhhh!!!!! I WANT THEM GONE!!!!! I WANT THEM GONE NOW!!!!!

you want me, but you don't want me enough to forget your doubts. sighs sighs. i'm just not worth it to you. ahhhhh.

I WANT THESE FEELINGS GONE!!!! I WANT THEM GONE NOW!!!!

in a corner crying

sighs sighs. i feel really bad. i feel like crying. i feel like crap. sighs sighs.

my words are no longer eloquent. my words have run dry. i just hope someone will listen to me. yeah, you and i weren't n e thing except friends, but why do i hurt soooo bad now? sighs sighs. maybe it's because i wanted us to be more. it's because i know the truth and that you do like me, but do you anymore? you don't think i am worth it. and i suppose that hurts me the most, you don't think i am worth it. sighs sighs....gonna go out....be back soon...sighs sighs....

Like Me Real Hard

We've had such a great time
In these past two months
I never laughed so much
In my life
It's been all about us
Since that time we had
That intimate talk
Suddenly your actin' strange
Plus your conversation
Just upped and changed
Is it because your afraid
What you feelin' for me
Is the beginning of a
New heart break?
Hear me when I say

You ain't gotta
Give me your love
You ain't gotta
Say I'm your one
You ain't gotta
Tell me where you be
'Cause you ain't
Obligated to me

I'm not sayin' that
You should just
Rush and give me
Your heart
I'm just askin' that you
Like me real hard
Just like me real hard

You know just like I know
We've been broken by love
We both need time to heal
That's why
In this short amount of time
We've grown so close
'Cause you relate to
Everything I feel
So let's not complicate things
By placing titles on you and I
But what we can do
Before we make the next move
We gotta find the perfect
Reason why
So believe me when I say

You ain't gotta
Give me your love
You ain't gotta
Say I'm your one
You ain't gotta
Tell me where you be
'Cause you ain't
Obligated to me

I'm not sayin' that
You should just
Rush and give me
Your heart
I'm just askin' that you
Like me real hard
Just like me real hard

You ain't ready To fall in love
And I ain't ready to Care so much
We ain't ready for commitment
Right now
But together we can
Work something out

When the time is right
Cause we will feel it in our hearts
It will be written in the stars
But for now
Just like me real hard

You ain't gotta
Give me your love
You ain't gotta
Say I'm your one
You ain't gotta
Tell me where you be
'Cause you ain't
Obligated to me

I'm not sayin' that
You should just
Rush and give me
Your heart
I'm just askin' that you
Like me real hard
Just like me real hard

You ain't gotta
Give me your love
You ain't gotta
Say I'm your one
You ain't gotta
Tell me where you be
'Cause you ain't
Obligated to me

I'm not sayin' that
You should just
Rush and give me
Your heart
I'm just askin' that you
Like me real hard
Just like me real hard

feeling like shit=.=

well today, i woke up feeling good. but then, on the way to school, i became sooo annoyed and just plain p.o-ed with my own life. args......

i don't know how i'm supposed to feel n e more. i can't hide, and the only way i can, is avoidance. i wonder if i start pulling away and being distant if he'd understand. i feel like shit because of all this. i can't stand liking him and him knowing and him unwilling to do n e thing. i am giving up. there's no reason why i shouldn't n e more. i am feeling like shit and there's no way around it. sighs sighs.

i want to just scream at him and slap him and say, what the hell do you want me to do? ahhhhh. do you think i can pretend that everythign is alright within me? because i clearly do not feel alright. i feel like crap and blah, it's not like anyone gives a fuck.

i get people upset because i openly say i am upset. ahhh.....

my next move, it's pulling away and avoidance. i am changing seats. no text messages. no talking on the phone. not talking on msn. why? because it's taunting me and killing me softly on the inside. him being soooo close and yet so far is eating away at my emotional being.

sighs sighs. feeling like shit......