Thursday, August 21, 2003

hehehehe=>:D soo funnay..

took a walk through my memories. literally, took a walk through memories. all my lyphe, i've grown up in the same time. it's kinda funnay, no one in my area seems to know who i am n e more. maybe it's because i'm always sitting at home. hahhahaha=>:d oh wellz, it's not too bad. i dunno, ate too muchie today, hahahaha=>:D haven't ate such good food for a long time now. hehehe=>:d power failure ma?
thoughts of hope, thoughts of hopelessness, there almost always the same. both are just mere thoughts of the mind. hahaha=>:D well dat's all i have to say, not much of meh today. i dunno.....normally at dis time, i would be sleeping cause da heat has got to meh, but today, i feel kinda fine. i wanna go out!!!! need to get out!!! arg!!!! oh wellz, having fellowship tom. who wants to come ar? well it's at like mca la. so yeah., it's all good. not really, but heck, beats staying at home. well i'm going now....one two three.......i'm gone....
well u'd expect an illiterate gurl like meh to be unable to actually read chinese. muhahaha=>:d through current technology, at least i can write simple sentences....hehehe=>:D:P hehehehe=>:D are u happy ma? hehehehe=>:D well i am, but well......eitha way....i can still read alot more den what i can write....so heck, dat's all good. hehehe=>:D yupz yupz.....i dunno....hehehehe=>:D

hope dis mood lasts, cause i really dun wanna become pissed off again. hehehehe=>:D

current thoughts at da present moment....none dat i can say aren't happy thoughts, so yeah.....let's say i have none. let's talk bout you and meh. how ya doing lately aye? i hope ur feeling great. i wouldn't want u feeling sick or n e thing u noe. hey.....u noe what movie i wanna see dat's coming out on da first week of skool? i wanna go wath the order. do you wanna come watch it with meh? hehehe=>:D well, i wouldn't wanna bug you or n e thing if skool works toooo hectic you noe. so if you're not allowed or n e thing, don't bother, i don't want people yelling at ya la. hehehehe=.:D so, are u going to be doing n e thing on da sixth? if not, do you want to come and watch da movie with meh? hehehehe=>:D yupz yupz, i dunno, movies, are fun, not tooo bad i suppose. hehehehe=>:D just hope dat da electricity doesn't go off by den, which i totally doubt will, so yeah.....hehehe=>:d it'll be fun. okayz, i sound stupid, i'm gonna stop now.....hehehehehe=.:D

^being stupid, just look at meh, i wuz talking to myself!

bak to just stated my thoughts. yeah. well lately no one calls meh to work, and when they do, they call meh at the last minute, do they think i'm gonna actually walk there? i don't think so. yeah, i mite need the money, but dey dun pay enuff for da labour we do, and plus, well, da people are nice, da boss ain't. so yeah....it's alritez. but when skool starts....i'll be working. i hope. hehehe=>:D meh and relationships with people seem to be fading. i've lost most skills for talking on da phone now days. i find no interest in n e thing. when people talk to meh, i would prolly just answer one or two word answers. i dunno. i really want to stop, but sumwhere, i like to be quiet, i like to stay in da dark corners, but it's nice to have someone take you outta ur lil dark corner once a while, it would be betta to even be taken away forever. but in the lil corner i shall stay. yeah, GOD's always dere with meh, but da place i choose to stay in at the moment is the corner, by myself. dere are times when u are supposed to be out having fun, and others, when u should be sad, but happy u have time for urself. maybe da void isn't because i feel lonely, maybe it's what i cause myself to feel. relationships are always a two way thing, dere hasta be choices and sacrifices for both to work out. doesn't n e one see dat? is everyone so selfish and greedy dat well, all dey want is everything for themselves and is unwilling to allow n e one close in???......well dat's all i got to say for today, all my thoughts.....dat's it people.....normally i write two in da morn, but i have no more thoughts dat wun take away dis peace and joy as i'm reading and writing my own thought. so enjoy all you can.....l8a