gots nothingto say for the past days....feeling kinda crumby....but feeling great all at da same time....i wanna smile with true happiness, but i am unable to.....what i need now is just peace at mind, stressed, but am not.
hm....1000 cranes.....means death to ya ma??? well if i give dat to ya.....it's cause i took to give it to ya so you could still see em when ur alive....not dead.....don't rememba...da lady washing jesus??? yeah.....a sign of great respect...but a sign for death too.....so in a sense.....i'm not saying you will die...but more like...ur going away.....far far away...
i wish you to find happiness.....
i wish you the greatness of the world...
i wish for you to have the peace and the joy that i may not have
if only i could grant wishes
but then i would have many wishes to grant....
oh ewllz....what may i say??? lyphe's never da way we want it.....u feeling very happy now....muhahaha
i suppose da whole world looks at meh in awe and curiosity considering dat well......i smile soo much but look soo hollow in de eyes...
i have no clue...what may i say???
lyphe's just lyphe.....it goes forwards...not bak....so yeah....
i wish to stay in one place forever and ever, but i noe i may not...
change is a constant struggle, so why am i resisting????
i suppose embracing change for in itself would give meh some peace that i wuz never able to achieve....sighs....
can't say i love n e more, because i use it as a loose term.
i cn't say i hate because that is too strong that relates too closely with loving someone....
but maybe, when i say i love you....maybe that's for real....maybe i'm speaking the truth....
maybe i do and u just take it as merely simple words spoken as a greeting and a parting.....
what can i do??? what must i say to prove to you dat i'm for real???
wait oh wait....if you were to see my love...i would not need to show you or intentionally show you...for you should noe that i do....
hahaha=>:D thinking too deep for you in simple words ma????
i hope i ain't hurting ur brain....i go in circles talking about the same thing over and over again...
hahaha=>:D but with each timne i think.....my brain hurts more....i'm more dizzy.....i cannot focus on the thoughts soo clear...
is there sumthing wrong with meh????
is my body weak and sick????
sighs.....i have no clue....what i want to know i will never find out.....what can i see??? what can i hear???
i can see it all and hear it all....only if i am willing...
now......the question is....are you willing to show meh?!?!?
if you are not willing, i will still be willing...
if you are willing....i am still here.....
if you are waiting.....then i will wait with you....
for we are one in the same, but different on each.....
i refere to you as the backside of my hand....but the thing is....i'll say dis....it's more dat you are the left hand to my right hand...or the right hand to my left.....
i say this because of few reason....
we are the same....but different...entirely different...
hope and dream wise....we are always going to be different...
understanding wise...we may always be different....
we don't live the same lyphe...but what i go through...u may understand...what u go through i may understand......u may not...i may not....
what i see in you is the fear of change.....u are constantly struggling with change.....
oh yeah.....as i wuz sittting on the bus on the way home from skool today, i notice dis......dose who say that they wish they do not want to feel pain are those who care the most. those are the people who go through lyphe caring....caring for others...caring for everything....maybe caring about everything and neglecting self, but care all the same. but i noe this much is true.....those who do not care do not say that they don't wanna feel the pain to what they are going through...they just live through day in and day out....trying just to be.....