since skool's starting, i will not be like updating my thoughts very regularily la. sighs sighs. but not many people read it, so it's alritez n e ways. so yeah. it's alrites. as i always say, those i want to read my thoughts don't. muhahaha=>:d soo funnay, thinking soo much. all about the same thing. wishing and dreaming. hm. on second thought, maybe i'll just stick to myself. hahahaha=>:D

honestly and individuality is what makes meh feel like crap......maybe it's cause i don't accept myself as who i am. hm. is dat it? i think so. i don't have a style. but i noe i can be like n e thing like n e one n e day. so it's alritez. hm.

do i haveta remind ya dat i love ya? i think you people get the point that you are all important to meh, even doe i feel neglected and like outta da picture when i'm with you, but it doesn't mean i dun love you all in all. so yeah. it's alritez.

people say i am pretty, but really, it's nice to hear it alot. it cheers meh up. hehehehe=>:d yupz yupz.

i suppose i should thank you's i should say dat more often. so yes. it's alritez. hm. as da "real" world so to speak is totally diff from dat of our fantasies. oh wellz. dere is nothing we can possibly do dat for it. well yupz yupz. i'm gonna sleep soon. vause it's almost 11. and my mommy wants meh to sleep. plus i'm supa unhappy too. so yupz yupz. hehehe=>:d well l8a people.

i don't know what i feel lonely as. being by myself, or having people around meh, and feeling as if i don't fit it. hm. maybe i've just become more shut up and quiet now days. everyone thinks i'm just the happiest lil child, and i'm very pessimistic on the inside. really, u think i care much? hahaha=>:d well we had to writ one word that describes ourselves in peer support today. guess what word i wrote? i could have wrote sensitive, i could say loving, i could have written n e thing nice. hahaha=>:d u prolly already noe. i wrote opinionated. hahaha=>:D i suppose it can be negative, or it could be positive. the teacher took it as sumthing good, because she seemed soo interested in my being opinionated. but the truth is, if she knew the real way i wuz, i think she'd take it the wrong way. hahaha=>:D

no one from skool besides about one actually reads this like once every month. sooo funnay. most of those that i want them to read this don't n e more. the same thoughts get annoying. yeah i noe. i have no enlightenment. i like to help people. helping people cheers me up soo much. sighs sighs. but everyone thinks i have enuff troubles on my own. arg!!!! what a pain in the a to da double s. sighs sighs. whateva. hehehe=>:d well everyone thinks i'm annoying now. everyone at church just thinks i have an issue about being alone. but the truth is, i'd rather be alone....all alone. leave meh to my yarn, my books, my tv and my fruits, i would be fine. but no, people haveta neglect me in a group. i have my conclusions on the matter of student council and everything. so yeah, whateva. well i'm gonna leave now. l8a every one. l8a....