yaya!!

so i called bri on his cell phone. keke^^:D:P do i sound that diff on a cell phone ma?!?!? or is it just because my voice has like changed?!?!? hm. oh wellz. i'm a happy lil kid in a happy lil world.

keke^^:D:P got to go to br. keke^^:d:P got to go to sq1. keke^^:D:P left me being happy. had a lil chit chat with ray. and for some reason....i don't know why....everytime i end up talking to her....there's this sadness i feel. it's not like pity....but it's genuine sorrow. like i can feel how much she hurts. i hope i didn't ask her q's that offended her. hope she honestly feels sooo muchie betta. keke^^:D:P her b-day's coming up....and the only thing i gave her was a drink?!?! args....must do betta den dat next year. but it's the thought that counts. had a great time. me mostly doing window shopping and judging how hot ray looks. which she always does! keke^^:D:P bought a pair of pants....keke^^:d:P totally MY STYLE. keke^^:D:P

yaya!!! bri's coming tom!!!! yeah yeah!!!! don't know why.....but i feel sooo giddy to see him after like sooo long. normally i get to see him every other week during the summer....at least that was how it was last summer....but this summer.....this year......i've only seen him twice......including tom. so yeah. i hope i ain't late....and i hope he ain't late iehter. but one person is bound to be on time.....while the other one is later than them.

egh......i hope cat is having a great time tonight with ken and din din. i honestly wanted to come cause ken invited me, but i couldn't go cause i can't stay out past 11. my parents would have freaked. sighs sighs. so i hope nothing bad happened! hope you had a great plane travel and it was the bestest of travels! keke^^:D:P hope you don't have too much jet lag. so yeah. hope all goes well. oh yeah.....u of t is inviting all of it's students to go to wonderland on september 11. u of t wrapped up the whole park just for u of t students. so yeah......i'm just telling you cause i don't know if you know.

oh saw lilian and steve today at like bubble republic. keke^^:D:P oh wellz. i have no clue who steve is. and i am definately not stalking lillian....if n e thing....i would be stalking her brother....but i just never have that luck of running into him. but oh wellz. haven't talked to willy for sooo long. wonder how he's doing. meh. well gotsta go for the night now. mommy getting a bit pissed at me. so me going. l8a l8a world.....

miss ya all and love you all. at least most people that read my blog and who i know do, i love.......

what?????

wow....seems to me that bri's sex- crazed friends have like rubbed off on him aye?!?!? keke^^:D:P wow.....oh wellz. people change. he's human. keke^^:D:P oh wellz. he's seeepecial. hm. i think i'll go to br tom.....like at 1:30 tom.....so i'll hope to see someone there. plus i'll be at home till like about 11.....cause i haveta go to registration....so if someone wants to call me, call me. if someone wants to go out....sure. don't know my plans tom........but bri......i'm for sure going to be there at br at like 1:30. give or take a few mins cause i may be late arguing with my mommy. which i hope doesn't happen. hope to see you there. and if i don't.....i'll walk home....or at least to jeans....and then home.......

sighs sighs....val's sick. hope she gets better soon.

Hope To Go Out Tonight

well rache like told me that she may be going out to like shop for school again. keke^^:d:P she's a sweet lil girl with her own lil problems. sighs sighs. i really like don't like the fact that i've written a blog to her......i didn't mean to sound so mean. when i was writing those thoughts.....i really didn't see how they could affect n e one.....i was more like....oh....no one cares aboutme.....see my point kind of thing. blah. but i know there are those that care. the pc is like all i do all day now because summer is about to end and no one has plan to go n e where. blah. not everyone will have the time to sit in front of a pc and wait for someone to invite them somewhere. the problem with me is when someone invites me sumwhere, i don't really want to go. but once the date is passed, i really wished i could have gone and didn't say no. but it's because i honestly didn't feel like doing n e thing at the time that makes me upset. args args.

i think i shall go to the gym again today. honestly, i am way tooo bored at home. eveyrone's like, why don't you just go out? and i will always ask them.....if not yell at them.....with whom am i going to go out with? with whom will ask me to go out with them? with whom would actually go out with me so that well.....i won't be alone? no one.....they don't get the hint. args.

blah....cat's coming home in about like 2 to 3 hours time! keke^^:D:P sighs......this sux......i have nohting to do.....args.....i miss school, but i hate school.

why do i feel sooo unloved even though my mother's like......see, i work afternoons, but i ain't sooo bored with you around, but once school starts....i'll be depressed. i mean...it's not sumthing to be happy about....but she said it....and it should make me feel special even if time being....but it doesn't. i'm like feeling like trash today. sighs sighs. i'm bored beyond my witts. no one's called me. no one's messaged me. but at least i know if i call someone, they'll talk.. when i message someone, they message me back at least. blah. i'm bored....saving me from this living nightmare!

Blah

feeling ultimately crummy today for some weird odd reason. sighs sighs. args args. val's phone call didn't like cheer me up at all. args args.

for some reason....on a sheet, it has my writing on it.....which has three names on it. janice yu, iris yu, and hannah yu. hm. yeah, i know exactly who they are. i once knew where they lived. they are all sisters. blah. but they have no clue who i am. so i shouldn't even bother to say hey to them. blah.

feeling sick. rought with the feeling of going downhill and lonely. args args. it's 3:30......daddy should be coming home in about exactly egh like 40 mins.......sighs sighs. but me and my daddy never end up doing n e thing n e ways. blah. feeling crappy. feeling lonely. even though yesterday was spent with jean ann and pat......i still feel lonely. args args.

nothing changes the fact that i am lonely constantly. nothing changes the fact that well....no matter who i have in my life i always feel this way eventually. blah. emotions brought by someone's fever. oh wellz. it's not their fault. it just sooo happens that after our brief phone convo i feel like shit. blah!

Fill In The Blanks

Psssst......i know i've done a lot of like survey's recently.........and most of these are just taken out of surveys ......blh..

[Me]

• Full Name:
  
• What You Call Me:
  
• Age:
  
• Birthday:
  
• Nationality:
  
• Eye Colour
  
• Worst Fear:
  

[Favourites]

• Colours:
  
• Food:
  
• Store:
  
• Flower:
  
• Season(s):
  
• Ice-Cream Flavour:
  

Ergs.....What else can i ask other people that is quite obvious?!?! args args.

[Which Kind of Person Am i?]

• Talker or a Listener:
  
• Serious or Joker:
  
• Singo or Taken:
  
• Tic Tacs Or Mints:
  
• Nice or Mean:
  
• Giver or Taker:
  
• Optimistic or Pessimistic:
  
• Vanilla or Chocolate:
  
• Cat or Dog
  
• T.V or Activity:
  
• Good or Bad Friend:
  

[Things I May Say/ Fill in the Sentence]

• Love is a:
  
• Thorns are on Roses Because:
  
• There's always more than one way to:
  
• Laughter is the:
  
• Smiling is better than:
  
• Whatever you Do, just remember to be able to:
  
• I LOVE:
  

okie......i think those are all the q's i think i can ask. but i doubt n e one's gonna fill in this survey n e ways. plus....what i say....i left them vague.....i wanted to see what you people would think i'd say. keke^^:D:P kekek^^:D:P well....me going now......and yeah....l8a l8a.....

Lost

well been on deviant art and like been reading alot of poetry looking at alot of pics. and then i figure out something. i'm lost in a world of dreams. wishing it were fine, but the dreams don't ever fade. everyone dreams of something. their style of writing demonstrates this very clearly. some people can write poeticaly in styles of paragraphs. others write better in styles of stanzas. some of these poems are lyrical and repetitive. some of the poems are pure random, but display something. meh, i neither fit in the world of genius, creative, or anywhere for that matter. i am neither right brained or left brained. i am simply right in the middle. both sides barely used.......whereas most people have a dominant side. sighs sighs. i belong no where except to where i am i suppose. sighs sighs.

to the ultimate chinese, i am super cbc. but to the ultimate white boy, i am super chinese. maybe that's what it means to be a cbc, it means that i am to fit in no where except to be where i am and always need a constance source of reassurance for who i am because i feel like i belong no where. maybe that's what it means to be a cbc, someone who doesn't fit with the super chinese. but i know this isn't true, because i know that many cbc's have like tons of fob friends. sighs sighs. args args. i suppose i'm just sabina and i can't be defined. sighs sighs. if i write a survey for others so fill out......i wonder who would do it? well i'll post a survey up for people to fill about me then i suppose

Being Singo

one phrase to my title......i don't like it. but hey....it let's me see the greater parts of life. i have family and friends that love me much without a boyfriend.

keke^^ so it's great. yupz yupz. it's alrights. keke^^:D:P singo life is fine for the while being. i hate winter being singo doe. so yeah. keke^^:D:P and most of all i hate being in march being singo. args. oh wellz. keke^^:D:P can't avoid it......can't hide from it....so meh....may as well try to embrace the truth. keke^^:D:P

oh no!!!!

okie....val is still sleeping. and well args.......party on wednesday!!! i don't even know if it's still on cause people haven't told me n e thing about it yet. args.......bum bum and a half should definately message me tonight....or i'll be mad! keke^^ maybe i'll see her tom n e ways...keke^^:D:P

sighs sighs. val won't wake up till like about like 2ish. holy crap....she has bad sleeping habits. oh wellz. arg sargs. l8a l8a everyone. my thumb hurts really realy badly.....

Staff Changes to OTHS

oh my goodness!!!! args args......as i was reading my oths newsletter, i come to like read a few funny things.

• mrs. brown has retired......who the hell is going to teach me f and n then??!?1 holy crap!!! no....i hope i don't get another teacher like mrs. gibson. she was a teacher that gave us an assignment and never even told us it was our Final Assesment task!!! holy crap!
  
• Mr. Finlayson is retiring too!!! man, i hated that teacher, but he was one of the best i ever had. i mean, he was really strict, he didn't like me much because i just couldn't focus hard on history, but he was a great teacher. his methods were all quite different than most teachers, but history isn't an easy subject to teach. he did a good job.....he isn't that old is he? he still has alot of life in him! i never thought he would retire....
  
• Mr. Skilleter. oh my goodness....i never had this teacher ever!!!! and i totally hate it too!!!! so i've heard he's like a really hard marker, but he's like one of the best teachers any one would have!!! args args. i loved walking by mr. skilleter's classroom every morning listening to him hum his classical music with it blasting in the background. it always put a lil smile on my face.....he was always a pretty jolly fellow
  
• Mrs. Kumagai. i've heard of her.....but i've never had her. i've never even heard other people talk about her.....meh......
  
• Mrs. Muller. hm.....for some reason, this name comes to me to be supa supa familiar. but i can't remember n e momory of her.....args....
  

Staff who are leaving OT.....sighs sighs

• Mr. Adams, i've never really had him talk to me or anything. but i liked him walking down the hall looking friendly yet serious all the time. i've had alot worst principals in my life....and he was one of those that i felt were one of the better ones. i'll miss having a guy like him as my principal. i can only pray that the new principal won't be much more strict than Mr. Adams. Mr. Adams was quite like lenient on many matters. i liked the guy. always friendly when you did need a chit chat with him.
  
• Mr. Boelhouwer, he's such a great guy. keke^^:D:P he's sooo funny though. he never got quite over the fact that i wasn't sarah cheung. keke^^:D:P it's sooo funny. keke^^:D:P everytime down the hall, he'd always say, hey SARAH. and i'd be like....no no no Mr. Boelhouwer, i'm SABINA!!!! not SARAH!!!! keke^^:D:P i don't think Sarah or I look much like each other!!! blah.....meh.....
  
• Mr. Rees, i don't know what this guy does....so i have nothing to say about him. prolly janitorial staff or main office. i don't know many people working in those areas....so yeah....
  
• Mr. Ullah.......egh? who's he?
  
• Mrs. Holbrook. oh i think i know who she is. keke^^:D:P she's one of our "friendlier" office staff. i must say, i don't much like our office staff. they are all soo "cool" more like "cold" they never quite smile at the kids that come to the office.
  
• Ms. McDonald, okay.....now this name is soooo familiar......i know i've heard it somewhere. i think i even had her teach me once or twice......but i don't really remember....args......
  

Staff who are returning to OT

• Mr. Ruf, okay, this guy is our new principal!!! i really hope he is as nice as Mr. Adams. he's had alot of principal experience, so i can only hope that he is kind to the students of his schoool. man. i can only pray that he is as kind or even kinder than Mr. Adams.....
  
• Mrs. Apostolopoulos.....oh my goodness......i can't never spell her name.....i always call her mrs. a. she's coming back from maternity leave!!! oh my goodness......she's always smiling down the hall. and i always like thought she looked much like the students she taught. she sure dresses like us. keke^^:D:P she's a great teacher......most times....
  
• Mrs. Cummings. oh i do not know this teacher. or whatever she is doing. i just hope that she's a good teacher......and i can only pray the best for my education at OT
  
• Mrs. Griffiths. oh my goodness!!! everyone in my class hated this teacher sooo much, i must say that i didn't hate her. i actually liked her, of course, it was hard to follow after Mrs. Calvert because Mrs. Calvert is one of the best. but if people didn't compare her to Mrs Calvert, she was a pretty good teacher. she was really friendly. i liked her......i just never understood why people where sooo mean to her and everything....
  
• Ms. Lee.....oh.....her names sounds like chinese, or like korean. hm.......i wonder......what is she going to teach??? will it be math or business?!?!? or am i just being stereotypical again? keke^^:D:P because the oriental teachers that we have in our school do teach like business and math.....so just wonder what she would be teaching........hope she's friendly.....
  
• Ms Shleifer.....hm.......egh.......her name sounds familiar.....but i haven't heard n e thing about her.....hm......oh wellz.....hope she's a good teacher.....
  

sighs.

well i'm feeling sick.....jean never came back on line. but meh....i assumed she might not. i'm used to it. i'm used to being disappointed with people saying things that they won't do. meh. totally used to it. maybe not since i'm like complaining about it. meh. keke^^:D:P

listening to my chinese music...
keke^^:D:P
chinese music makes me happy. i finally don't feel sooo white. oh yeah.....some reason....i don't like listening to jap/korean/foreign music ne more. i find it very annoying because i only understand bits and parts of it. blah. i'd rather only listen to what i understand. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.

feeling tired......

just feling a bit tired. keke^^:D:P feeling kinda sick too. well planning to meet up with bri one of these days. if like val wants to come........i'll ask her.....but so far......she hasn't even talked to me like a full convo because her mommy's home. and it quite pisses me off though. but i love her mommy, so i shouldn't be hating n e bit. blah. all my friends wake up soooo darnded late.

well bri is off today with his sister to rick hansen to do registration i think. so i'll have no one to talk to for a while......plus.....he's trying to get off of msn. so basically, i won't be talking to him for quite some time. and most likely, if he wanted to talk to me on msn, i'll prolly not be on line. so it's sooo sad. sighs sighs. oh wellz. if he really wants to talk....he'd call; he always does. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.

my thumb's joint is like totally swollen now. args args. and it hurts really really badly now. blah. it is totally killing me, but oh wellz, there's nothing i can do.

think i'll be going to the gym later on today. i like going to the gym in the morning before lunch, it's just sooo fun. keke^^:D:P there are people there, but not enough people to bug me when i'm doing cardio or lifting weights. meh. i've been eating less now, and doing more exercise....but yet i still gain weight.....why?!?! args. i will not resort to what my sister does to loose weight. i just think it's not healthy. blah. from like 120 sumthing......she dropped to like 108! holy crap. she like didn't eat.....and when she did eat....it ould be like bird sized. args args. and then when she thought she ate tooo muchie....she'd just like go and regurgitate what she ate. args args. sooo foul. and she totally denies that that's what she does. blah. as a sister.....i know because i've always been sneaky. you can't do sneaky things behind my back without me knowing ga la. well maybe once or twice because i trust people tooo easily, but hey......why be sooo uptight over everything right? well that's not the point. she used to go to the downstairs washroom to do all this, but after i told her that i can hear what she does, she goes to the upstairs one. blah. and she always locks the door. never once after meals has she not locked the door. blah. there are always other ways in without forced entry in my house. sooo seeetupid. plus....since the walls are sooo thin, i can practially hear what she is doing in my room n e ways. what a numb nut. args args.

plus i say......moodiness like runs in my family. my mommy has always been one that gets pissed off and then happy, then sad and then happy very quickly. but now, after she has like hit menopause and such, she's even moodier. sighs sighs. knowing that i would prolly end up being like my mother, it's kinda scary. i just hope i don't bicker, yell and scream at my kids as often as she does with daddy and i (because sister is off to uni). then my sister, well she's even moodier than my mommy. halfly i say it's her boyfriend's fault. args args. her fault inflicted to reasons of her own because of her bf. args. i sometimes really ahte my sister, cause she always ruins my good mod. she can turn from happy to pissed of in instants....but her foul mood takes days on end to cure. the only time i've seeen her happy for the whole day or weekened was when her bf was home. args args. she loves her bf more than she even loves her own family! args args. she gives him the respect to be happy when she's around him, but she's all mean and crap when it's only the family. what the hell? sighs sighs.