keke^^:D:P well now....i wanna start a band...sighs....but it's no fun when you only know that you yourself want to start a band...and none of the friends you have no are interested at all....plus....it just wouldn't work....going to uni....just wouldn't work i suppose....
but....i suppose....a dream of mine is to write some worship song that people around the world could sing. wouldn't that just be sooo magnificant? but i mean....of course the praise doesn't go to me....all the glory goes back to GOD. but....i'm not musically inclined enough to actually write my own music even if i could write my own lyrics. sighs.....
it sucks that in this world....i have searched over and over again to find something that i am good at. sighs sighs. and apparently.....everyone has a gift that they are more talented in the things that they do....but for me....why can't i find this? i feel sooo odd and different than everyone. everyone has something that they are good at. and to me....i just seem to get by life being average all my life. sighs sighs. it's really really sad....i mean....i have qualities that i know most people don't have or just not as strong in...but maybe that just comes with the way i am....when i set my mind to something...i am stubborn, but still listening for you to disprove my opinion. but possessing qualities isn't a skill...or a talent for that matter. possessing qualities is simply just what it is.....quality and characteristics...sighs sighs. but...there's nothing to be sad about this i suppose...it's just what i will use to shine and demonstrate the glory of GOD....yupz yupz. since i still haven't found what i am gifted in....i simply am just gonna be and continue being. and along the lines of being, shining a light into the dark. whether or not i will be understood or not....i can only shine. i cannot let the darkness overcome me.
life can only be understood by looking forward and above.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Friday, June 03, 2005
sick
args...feeling a tad bit sick. ewwww...ewwww....i am having a really big headache=.= args args. eww eww.....
ate tooomuchie today....gonna get sooo fat...gonna go to the gym tomorrow i suppose. probably around noonish....after lunch gua....or maybe in the morning...cause then well...i have the rest of the day to sleep. sighs sighs.
feeling really sick...args.....
and i am getting a headache....a massive headache...args args....
ahhhhh....headache....ahhhh=.= and my tummy hurts=.= sighs sighs. :( boooo...
sighs....
ate tooomuchie today....gonna get sooo fat...gonna go to the gym tomorrow i suppose. probably around noonish....after lunch gua....or maybe in the morning...cause then well...i have the rest of the day to sleep. sighs sighs.
feeling really sick...args.....
and i am getting a headache....a massive headache...args args....
ahhhhh....headache....ahhhh=.= and my tummy hurts=.= sighs sighs. :( boooo...
sighs....
recharging
muhahaha....i never write the same way on my blog and my msn or my lj or my xanga....or my friendster blog. muhahaha...everyone always asks me why i have sooo many accounts...and if i possibly have that many thoughts to write about...hahaha...actually no....
but yes....my life...has been on the backburner for 2 weeks now. and well now....i am actually satisfied. i woudln't say i'm happy or n e thing....but i am most certainly not upset. well technically...that's kinda a lie....i'm disappointed...but i'm not all that upset...
but yes....in less than a month...school is officially over...yeah yeah!!!! muhahaha. and then....there is at present...officially 27 days till prom!!!! i just can't wait. i mean...even though things just won't be the same....AHHHHH!!!! just can't wait....muhahaha...but i don't dance. muhahaha....
well yuppie....gonna go.....
my life is on the charger.....getting re-energized. getting re-organized.
.hack/sign is on.....muhahahaha......
but yes....my life...has been on the backburner for 2 weeks now. and well now....i am actually satisfied. i woudln't say i'm happy or n e thing....but i am most certainly not upset. well technically...that's kinda a lie....i'm disappointed...but i'm not all that upset...
but yes....in less than a month...school is officially over...yeah yeah!!!! muhahaha. and then....there is at present...officially 27 days till prom!!!! i just can't wait. i mean...even though things just won't be the same....AHHHHH!!!! just can't wait....muhahaha...but i don't dance. muhahaha....
well yuppie....gonna go.....
my life is on the charger.....getting re-energized. getting re-organized.
.hack/sign is on.....muhahahaha......
stupid
it is sooo stupid to be in class right now. matt oh is not here...and i don't know what to put on each slide. args args. i am frustrated...because i dunno what to put on what slide=.=
yeah....i kinda gave up....
next week is gonna be hell=.= yeah...all these rats....all these tests...all these assignments due=.= args
sighs sighs....not going to do n e thing this weekend again. no one wants to do n e thing with me. they are all busy. sighs sighs. i think i shall go home and catch up on my z's=.= how boring is that? sighs sighs.
gonna sit at home depressing my ass off because i have nothing to do. sighs sighs.
yeah....i kinda gave up....
next week is gonna be hell=.= yeah...all these rats....all these tests...all these assignments due=.= args
sighs sighs....not going to do n e thing this weekend again. no one wants to do n e thing with me. they are all busy. sighs sighs. i think i shall go home and catch up on my z's=.= how boring is that? sighs sighs.
gonna sit at home depressing my ass off because i have nothing to do. sighs sighs.
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