for some reason......i'm getting really tired now. but i like slept the whole afternoon away though. wow....i suppose i'm running on another deprived sleep. wowwie. i know how my sister feels now. keke^^
*i know i am good, everyone knows this too. but no one wants me. i can only wait so that one day you will know*
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Sunday, August 08, 2004
i know that this song that i am about to post is super old. but if you've never listened to it....i really suggest you listening to it because i think it's really sweet.
Savage Garden Lyrics
Two Beds and A Coffee
And she takes another step
Slowly she opens the door
Check that he is sleeping
Pick up all the broken glass and furniture on the floor
Been up half the night screaming now it's time to get away
Pack up the kids in the car
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through
And there are children to think of
Baby's asleep in the backseat
Wonder how they'll ever make it through this living nightmare
But the mind is an amazing thing
Full of candy dreams and new toys and another cheap hotel
Two beds and a coffee machine
But there are groceries to buy
And she knows she'll have to go home
Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another lonely highway in the black of night
But there's hope in the darkness
You know you're going to make it
Another ditch in the road
Keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Silent fortress built to last
Wonder how I ever made it
Savage Garden Lyrics
Two Beds and A Coffee
And she takes another step
Slowly she opens the door
Check that he is sleeping
Pick up all the broken glass and furniture on the floor
Been up half the night screaming now it's time to get away
Pack up the kids in the car
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through
And there are children to think of
Baby's asleep in the backseat
Wonder how they'll ever make it through this living nightmare
But the mind is an amazing thing
Full of candy dreams and new toys and another cheap hotel
Two beds and a coffee machine
But there are groceries to buy
And she knows she'll have to go home
Another ditch in the road
You keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Wonder how I ever made it through
Another bruise to try and hide
Another alibi to write
Another lonely highway in the black of night
But there's hope in the darkness
You know you're going to make it
Another ditch in the road
Keep moving
Another stop sign
You keep moving on
And the years go by so fast
Silent fortress built to last
Wonder how I ever made it
well....one of these days.....
sighs.....do i really not live in fear or is it just an image i hide behind....
sighs sighs.
i just can't understand why people want to avoid every place that "those people" could be. just because they haven't said that they'd rape me doesn't mean that they won't. just because they said it doesn't mean that they'd do it. so what's the point of being in fear all of your life? args. if you crash into them....you have defenses too. sighs sighs. if you live in fear your whole life, then you may as well not live at all. honestly. people only see it their way and they never want to listen to the words that come out of my mouth. i mean...there are alot of vile things that come out of my mouth so i understand if people odn't want to listen to me.
i also know that i say alot of trash alot. i make alot of annoying "sabby" sounds. i know i laugh really loud and i sneeze really funny. i really do understand if people won't listen to me.....so yeah....
sighs.....do i really not live in fear or is it just an image i hide behind....
sighs sighs.
i just can't understand why people want to avoid every place that "those people" could be. just because they haven't said that they'd rape me doesn't mean that they won't. just because they said it doesn't mean that they'd do it. so what's the point of being in fear all of your life? args. if you crash into them....you have defenses too. sighs sighs. if you live in fear your whole life, then you may as well not live at all. honestly. people only see it their way and they never want to listen to the words that come out of my mouth. i mean...there are alot of vile things that come out of my mouth so i understand if people odn't want to listen to me.
i also know that i say alot of trash alot. i make alot of annoying "sabby" sounds. i know i laugh really loud and i sneeze really funny. i really do understand if people won't listen to me.....so yeah....
args....the only university that my parents want me to go to is guelph.....i just pray that i will make it to more than just guelph. i hope i either make it to utm or mac or sumthing. i mean whatever GOD's will is, but i really just can't stand guelph. even before my sister went there i never like it. sighs sighs.
honestly, some people think that i'm super gross. but i don't find n e thing wrong with it. well i don't cut my nails n e more. whenever i have the time, ex: in front of the tv, i will be like filing my nails. and my nails are always super short because whenever i sit in front of the tv, i just sit there and file my nails. but that's my fault because i think tv and movies are boring....unless it's and action flick.......and some chick flicks like princess diaries.
well yeah....can't wait for bbt for some reason....keke^^ but gonna haveta try a black forest milk tea first. keke^^ supposedly it taste like oreo cookies? keke^^ that's funny.
i really don't have a preference for bbt. i like milk teas....but i also like regular teas. whack. keke^^ but drinking bbt is going to get me sooo fat. oh wellz....that's what the gym's for. keke^^
well yeah....can't wait for bbt for some reason....keke^^ but gonna haveta try a black forest milk tea first. keke^^ supposedly it taste like oreo cookies? keke^^ that's funny.
i really don't have a preference for bbt. i like milk teas....but i also like regular teas. whack. keke^^ but drinking bbt is going to get me sooo fat. oh wellz....that's what the gym's for. keke^^
sad how many things work out to be the way that they do.
hm. i don't know....but some reason.....i think i am not doing n e thing for my birthday
autie esther is coming back from malaysia on like wednesday or thursday. honestly......aunti esther is like a second mother. most friendly parent besides my own mother and father that i listen to. i mean, i listen to every other elder out of respect, but i really do take auntie esther's words to my heart because she's one of those people that take nothing from you and always give as much as she can offer. it's sad how many people have turned against her for this very reason. people of this world can't really understand the effects of love. out of all parents, auntie esther is one of those adults i understand alot. yes, she's almost like a half century older than i, but i still understand her. it's weird, but i think it's just because i've grown up in a loving family that i understand her mentality.
weird how people in this world mistake genuine love for hidden motives. funny how this world uses everyone and everything for it's own better achievement. it's strange how many people want love, but when it's at their door they cannot accept it because they don't understand it.
all this is not new. all this is the truth of this world, but luckily, my place does not reside here.
hm. i don't know....but some reason.....i think i am not doing n e thing for my birthday
autie esther is coming back from malaysia on like wednesday or thursday. honestly......aunti esther is like a second mother. most friendly parent besides my own mother and father that i listen to. i mean, i listen to every other elder out of respect, but i really do take auntie esther's words to my heart because she's one of those people that take nothing from you and always give as much as she can offer. it's sad how many people have turned against her for this very reason. people of this world can't really understand the effects of love. out of all parents, auntie esther is one of those adults i understand alot. yes, she's almost like a half century older than i, but i still understand her. it's weird, but i think it's just because i've grown up in a loving family that i understand her mentality.
weird how people in this world mistake genuine love for hidden motives. funny how this world uses everyone and everything for it's own better achievement. it's strange how many people want love, but when it's at their door they cannot accept it because they don't understand it.
all this is not new. all this is the truth of this world, but luckily, my place does not reside here.
well....
hm....
i see the stars tonight,
yet there are piles and piles of clouds tonight.
i can see your smiles,
yet there are tons and tons of tears in your eyes
hm...don't know why those words are in my mind....really really weird. haven't read that or heard that said to me in a while.....
but i never really got it...how can you see smiles through tears? is it a metephorical sense of happiness that the writer is trying to state? is the writer trying to state the yearning of happiness? hm. i just never really got it. i thought the words were sweet...but never really understood them...well gotsta go to bed now....good night...l8a l8a....niteeroo. love ya'lls....
hm....
i see the stars tonight,
yet there are piles and piles of clouds tonight.
i can see your smiles,
yet there are tons and tons of tears in your eyes
hm...don't know why those words are in my mind....really really weird. haven't read that or heard that said to me in a while.....
but i never really got it...how can you see smiles through tears? is it a metephorical sense of happiness that the writer is trying to state? is the writer trying to state the yearning of happiness? hm. i just never really got it. i thought the words were sweet...but never really understood them...well gotsta go to bed now....good night...l8a l8a....niteeroo. love ya'lls....
you don't really look behind when you are changing lanes. you only look to the side where it is called the blind spot. this is a blind spot because you cannot see a car right beside you because it is tooo close to be in your side mirrors.
don't worry, i almost crashed a curb when i was driving. it is only easier to drive in america because this is where you learnt to drive. no big deal. your just not used to driving in a diff place. keke^^ don't wollie. everything'll be just fine. plus....good driving takes years and years of practicing.
don't worry, i almost crashed a curb when i was driving. it is only easier to drive in america because this is where you learnt to drive. no big deal. your just not used to driving in a diff place. keke^^ don't wollie. everything'll be just fine. plus....good driving takes years and years of practicing.
hey hey....guess what?!?! i can whisper now!!! yeah yeah!!! it's such an accomplishment for me. i mean.
"sai sang ha hai."<------canto i have never been able to do that before in my life. so yeah. i suppose all i haveta do now is work on my patience. yeah....i don't have much of it anymore because i got too fed up and got pissed off at everyone and everything. yeah. weird. but meh. not that bad i suppose.
hm.....i'm going to have to knock out my jaw....args args....sooo evil isn't it? i'm starting to get headaches every sooo often. i think it's because my lower jaw is starting to grow again. sighs sighs. i don't want my kids to go through what i'm going through now...
honestly, is there an age limit for love? i don't think there is a minimum....it just depends on how mature the person's mind set is.
sighs sighs. i don't know.....ken seems sooo lonely these days. he feels as if there is no one out there for him. sighs sighs. i hope he understands that i didn't lie to him about not having a website. i just don't think that my thought pagie is a website. i hope that he won't think that cat is lying. so yeah. because she called my thought pagie a website, it's just that i didn't think it was a website. stupid misunderstanding. hope he'll forgive me. hm. i'll take him to go sumwhere. he seems to feel as if he has no friends here. i suppose that's why he wants to go back. he wants to be where he knows and feels that he has friends. i suppose i'll take up swimming? if he likes swimming so much....i may as well learn to like it just so that he won't feel alone. args. but i'd rather stay on land.....i like volley ball and b-ball sooo much more than swimming. blah......don't know what to do with this kid. i can't help him unless he wants help. but i'll still try....
as of bri....i don't know what's going on in his mind anymore. i don't think i have the right to know n e more. i'm getting fed up of trying to talk to the fellow, but i know if i stop trying, everything'll just fall apart. and i'd rather have myself exhausted of trying than knowing that i didn't do enough.
sighs sighs....my heart is crying every night over this....but there are also still smiles there. and i still feel loved. i have a real issue of being alone.
honestly....i do. and i know this because i cannot live a day without calling someone. i can't live without a day without seeing one of my friends. i cannot live without a book or without the tv, or without the pc. i cannot live alone with just me in my world. but many people are like this i know. but it doesn't make it right just to go and find love because you don't want to be alone. you must honestly find love because you want to love someone and that you do love that someone you've found.
sorry val, but i think your friend marco is like a total anal ass. he doesn't understand why people have gfs/bfs.....i used to think the way he does....but honestly.....i find that sometimes, we are meant to find the wrong person so we'll find the right one and know how to treat him/her. i really haveta have a talking with this anal friend of yours. don't mean to sound harsh or rude, but he sound sooo anal about everything. he also seems to be that type to twist people's words and misinterpret what people say to what he wants to hear. but that's just my opinion of this guy i haven't met. maybe it would be diff if i meet him.
"sai sang ha hai."<------canto i have never been able to do that before in my life. so yeah. i suppose all i haveta do now is work on my patience. yeah....i don't have much of it anymore because i got too fed up and got pissed off at everyone and everything. yeah. weird. but meh. not that bad i suppose.
hm.....i'm going to have to knock out my jaw....args args....sooo evil isn't it? i'm starting to get headaches every sooo often. i think it's because my lower jaw is starting to grow again. sighs sighs. i don't want my kids to go through what i'm going through now...
honestly, is there an age limit for love? i don't think there is a minimum....it just depends on how mature the person's mind set is.
sighs sighs. i don't know.....ken seems sooo lonely these days. he feels as if there is no one out there for him. sighs sighs. i hope he understands that i didn't lie to him about not having a website. i just don't think that my thought pagie is a website. i hope that he won't think that cat is lying. so yeah. because she called my thought pagie a website, it's just that i didn't think it was a website. stupid misunderstanding. hope he'll forgive me. hm. i'll take him to go sumwhere. he seems to feel as if he has no friends here. i suppose that's why he wants to go back. he wants to be where he knows and feels that he has friends. i suppose i'll take up swimming? if he likes swimming so much....i may as well learn to like it just so that he won't feel alone. args. but i'd rather stay on land.....i like volley ball and b-ball sooo much more than swimming. blah......don't know what to do with this kid. i can't help him unless he wants help. but i'll still try....
as of bri....i don't know what's going on in his mind anymore. i don't think i have the right to know n e more. i'm getting fed up of trying to talk to the fellow, but i know if i stop trying, everything'll just fall apart. and i'd rather have myself exhausted of trying than knowing that i didn't do enough.
sighs sighs....my heart is crying every night over this....but there are also still smiles there. and i still feel loved. i have a real issue of being alone.
honestly....i do. and i know this because i cannot live a day without calling someone. i can't live without a day without seeing one of my friends. i cannot live without a book or without the tv, or without the pc. i cannot live alone with just me in my world. but many people are like this i know. but it doesn't make it right just to go and find love because you don't want to be alone. you must honestly find love because you want to love someone and that you do love that someone you've found.
sorry val, but i think your friend marco is like a total anal ass. he doesn't understand why people have gfs/bfs.....i used to think the way he does....but honestly.....i find that sometimes, we are meant to find the wrong person so we'll find the right one and know how to treat him/her. i really haveta have a talking with this anal friend of yours. don't mean to sound harsh or rude, but he sound sooo anal about everything. he also seems to be that type to twist people's words and misinterpret what people say to what he wants to hear. but that's just my opinion of this guy i haven't met. maybe it would be diff if i meet him.
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I've been lying,
to keep you from this pain
Now your crying,
and to know that I'm to blame
And I'll miss you But its over now
I'm so sorry,
that it had to be this way
Please don't hate me,
but there's nothing you can say
To change my mind
I've got to go away
The guy that I fell for
He wanted more and more
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be o-n my way
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up,
Lay down and work
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Bye Bye pretty boy,
it's time to back it up Baby 'cause it's over now
Let me tell you how it was when we started off
The tattoo's and the leap years and right sound that you used to rock
Now baby everything you do and say is messed up
Things have changed, down is up we're outta luck
And Baby I'm sorry
That it had to be this way
Please don't hate me, but there's nothing you can say
To Change my mind
The guy that I fell for
He wanted more and more
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be o-n my way
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up,
Lay down and work
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Bye Bye pretty boy,
Time to pack it upBaby 'cause its over now
You never put the effort in to the things that really counted
A word here, and a kiss there
Could change the way its turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never really cared about
How hands work & fingers moving,
Eyes wide Shut And baby I'm lonely
Though your right in front of me
You controlled me
Tha was the girl I used to be
I'm not myself
Well its over now
The guy that I fell for
He wanted more and more
Bye Bye Boyfriend
It's time that I'd be o-n my way
Bye Bye Boyfriend
I used to like the way you said
Baby back it up,
Lay down and work
It was fun but it couldn't last forever
Bye Bye pretty boy,
It's time to pack it up Baby 'cause its over now I'm backin up,
Baby cause it's over now
Pretty pretty pretty pretty boyfriend,
C'mon c'mon c'mon c'mon Baby back it up
Lay down and work
It was fun but it couldnt last forever bye bye pretty boy
Baby 'cause it's over now
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