egh?!?^o)

xiang gang ren you she me de hao?

i don't think i can justify that question with an answer. every person no matter where they are from have the same abilities to hurt, to love, to hate, to cry, to laugh, to smile, to kill, to steal, to cheat.

ke nen wo shi yi ge xiang gang ren....wo bu zhi dao....

yes whatever. eveyrone is different. just because you think a certain type of person is ugly isn't necessarily what the next person thinks. but i don't know. everyone has something good inside them. all differences can always put aside to look at the better side of things. if EVERYONE were to be pessimistic at ALL times, then there wouldn't be n e one left because during adolescence if not adolescence then mid-life crises, everyone would have killed themselves if that was the case.

self- image issues. self-confliction issues. self- portrayal issues. self- goal orientation issues. they'll always be there whenever it involves someone else understanding yourself. it's just not possible for there to no problems when it deals with two different people being together. even people of the same blood line and family have fights and arguments. no, i am not just talking about bf/gf relations, i'm saying strictly speaking in n e type of relationship.

but i dunno. there's nothing i can do about it.

finding reality

stolen off of someone else's xanga pagie. wasn't really mine to copy. so i'll just copy and correct grammar than i suppose

All people are living in a deep deep cave. They are living with shadows. They all live with fear. How is it possible that they reach reality? This is how; they need to pass through walls, fire and a very long, rocky, and steep road. Why is it that people don't go for reality? It's because they feel comfortable while they are living in the shadows. Is it possible that anyone will ever reach reality? The answer is YES. How does it looks like? In reality, it is like being at the mouth of the cave; you will find the sun, the most wonderful of gardens and the most magnificant of flying birds.
This is reality. Do you want go there?

well the rest of the person's post i like, but just doesn't apply to my life n e more. it's all philisophical and the stuff that i don't really use n e more because i have no need to think in terms like that n e more. but with this reality being a cave, i just suppose i've never thought of living in reality like that. just something i wanted to share with all of you.

wowwie

the previous song...sighs sighs....a memory of happier times pops into my mind.

and then looking at the song, thinking about valentine's day....and thinking about everything i am thinking now...the song seems soo appropriate. but i don't like n e one, just the current mood and it really puts me in a happy dreamy mood.

dunno, how could things go soooo wrong but end up feeling like nothing is wrong at all? i don't know....what did i do wrong? i suppose it's a utterly misunderstanding on both sides. but well what can i do? i can't take back the words i said and you heard, because you've already heard them. but you aren't me. you don't know my motive for saying it. you can't jump to conclusions about what i said. well not that you can't, you shouldn't. but then again, what is it that i'm supposed to say so you'd listen to me? i suppose there isn't much of n e thing.

can't help it...

thinking about everything....thinking about all the ways i've "changed". thinking about all the ways that people think i've "changed". and then comparing it...some people really just don't know me n e more. maybe that's totally my fault, but then again a problem starts with one person in the beginning and it always escalates to being more than one person at fault. but that's alrights. i understand how things are now. i understand and i accept because i am unwilling to change the situation.

listened to that pretty boi song for like hours so far.

started crying=.=

but i suppose it's a "happy" crying i suppose. keke^^:D:P

feeling a tad bit hollow....

Pretty Boi

Verse 1
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

Verse 2
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

CHORUS
Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

Verse 3
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometimes I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall

Verse 4
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Oh pretty boy
Say you love me too

CHORUS