i am not afraid to suffer. i am not afriad to cry. i am afraid of the dark....you got a problem with that? with the darkness comes the fact that i feel alone. with loneliness comes the true dwelling that i am not worth anything. I know i matter, but why do i still feel worthless? i suppose it's just human to wish for happiness. hm. well then maybe we can suffer together.....for you know....two is better than one. pity the man that falls and has no one to pick him up. keke^^ i quote what i should not quote. i am not worthy of quoting anything. stuff that comes out of my mouth becomes trash and no one cares...

but the truth of the matter is still this....no one thinks that my answers are right. well there are a few people that treat my opinions like an equal if not more. sighs sighs. i am greatful for those people. without those people....i'd feel like trash most of the time. sighs sighs. should i go to the party or should i not? sighs sighs. i hope i don't get caught! sighs sighs. okayz...gotsta go...l8a l8a...

sighs...it's not that i don't believe....sighs sighs...it's not that i don't read. you just don't come up to me with your problems...there's nothign i can do if you don't come to me. i can't help you. sighs sighs. it's not my fault. keke^^ so yeah....blah to you to. but you know...i care...even though you don't think i should because i ain't all that close. i care....and it's not just cause you are my friend. i care because i genuinly think you matter. don't worry.....if you need someone....i'm here whether you like it or not...i'm here to stay...at least for the time being.,....so yeah...

sighs...i always go for the same type of guys...the ones that'll dissappoint me...meh....i'd rather just stay friend den....

all i asked for was someone like him....and then someone like him did come....not like the old one....but the new way he is. args....sighs...frustrating.....do i look easy? do i look like i have everything? do i look like i actually care? yeah, it's my fault. but i really can't stop thinking that you are my friend...even though i stopped talking to you because you stopped tlking to me. sighs sighs. you don't know what i'm talking about. you don't know who i'm refering to. but do you think i care?

sighs sighs. honestly....everyone thinks i'd be cold by now. everyone questions why i still care about people like that. people man......do i look like i'm cruel? sighs sighs. i don't want a player. i want someone who'll love me for who i am...not what i have to give...gotsta sleep now....good nights to all you people....

those who truly suffer strive to be happy....

i don't know why i feel this way...but i need to study more now...args args...