given to all was my heart. i learned to love a year and a half ago. i learned to apply into all that i do. finally once i learnt to love, i'm extremely hurt. i now am no longer able to open myself. i've become self-preserved. i've become selfish. i am once again hidden behind the wall i once shattered. life for me has never ended, and never will as long as my spirit lives on. but as life moves, i stand still. i am not willing to move for my legs do not. i wish for once that i would understand myself. for once i wish i wasn't myself. how can one love others when they love not themselves? no one really understands unless they are in your situation or are u. this week i suppose has been made of full of depression situations because i myself no longer see brightness in the situations that i face. there are those who supposedely do and those that care only cause they see sumthing dey can get in return. there are those like meh, that help and care because dey do, but in return only face hurt. i really hate myself, but i love myself for i cannot hate myself. i have no endurance for life n e more. i just wanna leave....leave here forever....i'd rather live off the street. sighs.....i dun care to face the elements of nature. i dun give, but being a gurl makes running away even more difficult. i have a splendid life, i shouldn't be wanting more. i see happiness all around meh, but why do i feel so miserable??? sighs.....arg.....lyphe never ends. miracles never cease. feeling crumby....but i always feel betta sooner or laters....arg....

hahaha=>:D laughing or weeping.....hahahah byron boi.....it's kinda funnay la....muhahahahaha.....i do dat all da time....
lately, i haven't been happy. all i want is to be happy and show it and mean it. now....i laugh all da time an cry on the inside. i may think tooo much, but for what??? i do not noe. oh wellz....i'm confused...i feel unwanted...i am unhappy....but dat's my problem...not like n e one cares....oh wellz...l8a.....arg!!!!.....

hahahaha.....dis is my story....a story.....dat i wrote from other songs.....i like it.....why??? cause when i made it.....it really described alot of things dat i thought and such.......oh wellz...........but now as i read dis.....it has no meaning to meh...nothing at all......but here....enjoy......i noe...brian's already posted it before...but oh wellz...i haven't.....muhahahahah

this is a story of a gurl
she's so lucky, she's a star
she's a gennie in a bottle
she's beatiful, that's for sure
she'll never ever fade.
she's lovely, but that's not for sure
she's beatiful, words can't bring her down
she took a walk around the world
To Ease her troubled mind
she left her body laying somewhere In the sands of time
Secretly sending, tender kisses casually Across this crowded room
Her dreams are so real
Her body so appealing
HEAVEN'S MISSING AN ANGEL
crazy, crazy, crazy, does she drive some guyz insane
she's all that I've ever needed
But she's gone away, maybe she'd stay
If she only knew
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look her in the eye and tell her I don't love you
She's been good to me, and she deserves better than that
I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon
Away from the sun that shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down away from the sun again
She says she's got something to say
She knows what she says will change everything
She's laid through too many sleepless nights
She's cryin, She's cryin', She's cryin'
You got me really feelin' you
The hit maker
The playas gon' play
Them haters gonna hate
Them callers gonna call
Them ballers gonna ball
oops she did it again
she played wit my heart, got lost in the game
she made me believe we're more than just friends
to loose all her sense
that is just so typically her
she's dreaming away
Wishing that heroes, they truly exist
she's stronger than yesterday
lonliness ain't killing her no more
sweet baby
she drives me crazy
i just can't sleep
Come and hold my hand
When the stars are falling
I'll keep calling
I will still love you
And when your dreams are fading
I'll be waiting
I will still love you