hm.....so velly tired....now ell...i gotsta go now...l8z l8z....nitez to the world or at least my hemisphere of the earth....

kekek^^ wow......i post on average about 11 posts a week....that's kinda funny....hm....keke^^ so very very fun.

you can always make some one smile...but for how long would it last?
bugging people is what all people do....you can't help that...
people can't like you better...they can only like you the way you are...and if they don't....it's not meant to be.....
humans are meant to mess things up all the time. it's because we are not perfect and that is why we mess up. sighs sighs. i know you don't read my thoughts....but i hope that you will...
well the skool part i can't help. skool sux ass no matter how you look at it. so yeah.....
i can't make that dumb fuck talk to you unless he wants to. maybe he's feeling guilty...or maybe there's just sumthing on his mind every time he looks at you....
sighs....not everyone will snap at you. there are honestly alot of people who care...don't worry about it....there will be someonefor you....don't worry....someone better....
you are not a burden to anyone....
people re happy with me.....to hear you like this makes me cry....and to not hear you like this would also make me cry.... please...don't feel so bad.....you know...when i said i'd be there....i really meant it....please....you are my friend....and to me...you are the sunshine that cheers up my day. not in a lezbo way...but you know what i mean....
i can't change that second best thing....but i can say...anyone that treats you second best besides afer family is not good enough...
you were meant to have emotions.....if you didn't....then well..why do you have them?
you and your mouth is not pointless.....sighs.....no one ever pointless....you are special....and even to one person...you can mean the world...
some people don't and wont ever realize that they changed.....people just don't see into themselves like that. sighs sighs. i wish i could change the world...but i can't even cheer up one soul....
sighs....some people do understand unhappiness isn't your fault...but you can force yourself to be happy in ways you prolly thought weren't possible...
don't you dare fade away!!! if you do.....i don't know what i'd do....

args...i miss my chinese music....haven't listened to it for sooo long!!! sighs sighs. i can't wait for my sister to come back....i honestly like miss her presence in the house.... it's as if the house is less gloomy when she is here. or maybe it's cause it's all gloomy outside that it feels all gloomy inside? but then again...with my sister....no matter what she does....how she yells at me....it's still like nice and cozy feeling.....so basically...does that mean that well...she is the sunshine of our house? whack.

i want to change my email....but then again...i've always been one of those people that resisted change until i knew i absolutely had to. sighs sighs...going to take a shower soon. my hair dries so darnded quickly now....i can wait if i honestly wanted to. sighs sighs......

hm......maybe i should go see a shrink....but maybe i'm not chronically depressed. i know i don't have an iron deficiency.....i'm actually pretty healthy....but then why do i always feel faint all the time? why am i always tired? hm...mono??? do you really think so? your body has a lack of sleep so all it wants is to sleep...i see i see.....meh. me no noe. i don't think i'll succeed in n e thing that i do. i feel like i just want to go dump mself in a pit and bury myself alive.....

maybe i'm weird and i'm a freak...meh.....i have no choice but to love myself....or do i?

each day these past two weeks...i have posted on average about 5 to 6 entries a day.....i wonder why i waste soo much of my time doing this. am i sincerely that troubled?

i want to be that hand that you reach for when you need help.

hm....do i think all that muchie?? or is it simply because i choose to just allow myself to let my thoughts wonder? hm.....meh....my mouth hurts...args args....sighs sighs....but meh no noe....sighs sighs....i crashed into a curb...sighs sighs...why do i such at driving soo much?

hm...tired...hm....args...gotsta like fix my pc again..args args....

so if your day was bad or good...would you tell me anyways?

hm...okayz....i think i shall sleep at 8 tonight....i can barely keep my eyes open.....sighs....i can't drive...and i doubt i ever will drive...sighs sighs....

wanna go to bed...think i'll sleep early tonight....args.....i will start studying chem tom at lunch....sighs sighs.....i miss that feeling. hm....but i will be content and satisfied at what GOD has given me. hm.....if the only way to make them believe is for them to see a big miracle....i hope that they will never see a miracle because they cannot enjoy the simplicity of what they call life now. i want them to be saved and i don't want them to go to hell....but simply....they do not want to understand and the only way for them to understand is to first accept.....args....is it acceptance before acknowledging or knowing before accepting? hm....or maybe its diff in diff cases...args args..tired..and hungee....but maybe i'm not hungee at all....hm....