everyone is being moody. but it's in human nature to be moody. it's normal. i won't get mad at you, but will you be mad at me?
everyone is individualistic. are you ready to face that? everyone needs some time alone. are you ready for that? we are an individualistic generation. do you admit to it? if not, you are in denial. everyone wants to have fun. do you already have enough of that?
i am me, and you are you. i had once needed people every mintute around the clock, but now i have learnt differently. i had once been mad at my friend, patrick, because i never got to chill with him and whatnot, and then he showed me that i had much learning to do. and then....a great thought came to my mind. "to be in a great relationship, not just romantically, there must be alone time and time spent with the person you are trying to pursue a relationship with." when these limits become unclear and you begin to cross over them, people start rejecting, people start walking away, people start having great disagreements. people have more than one group of friends. everyone has a split personality; when you are with different people, you behave differently, it's natural.
when a person says no, they don't want to chill, it does not mean that they don't want you as a friend. it's not supposed to be offensive if they don't wanna do something with you. first off, everyone is different, you must understand that. everyone has different likes and dislikes, but of course some of these likes and dislikes will be common ground, but all in all, percentile wise, most of them are different. everyone has a different fear, you must respect that. not everyone is able to conquer fear by just facing them, sometimes, by trying to face it a certain way causes the fear to become worst. you are not me, you will never fully comprehend how i feel unless you were me, but i can only try to describe my situation in hope that someone will understand the way i am. it's human to fight for acceptance, but sometimes, the fight can't be won. when this happens, to win we must give up.
i will not apologize because i have done nothing wrong. and if you think i did something wrong, tell me. i don't like these childish games that everyone plays. i try not to take part in any of these games, but sometimes, it's really hard not to go with the flow. again, this is an issue of human acceptance. but well, i think through all this that happens day in and day out, i have found myself again. i found a place where i can stick out my foot and know that the land i tread is not mud. talk behind my back, go ahead, but walls do have ears and they do have a mouth to speak. it's better that i find out everything from the source than finding out from some other way.
it's human nature to run away, and eventually, i'll start withering....but that doesn't mean that i will give in and conform to your thoughts.