i type thoughts soo regularly, it's kinda funnay sumtimes. hahaha=>:D

i dunno, i think too muchie, but at the same time, it's summer, what is there to think about? hehehe>:D it's summer, i shouldn't care soo muchie. hahaha=>:d

i remember a few years ago, i needed to change my image, and instead, my whole personality changed with that design and taste change. i noticed i began to listen to more rock or hard music.....i dressed in more darker colors......i noticed one thing, even though i may have looked better......i had a lack of self confidence and self respect. hahaha=>:d it's kinda funnay. now....as i become more familiar with my own limits, i learn to know myself more. hahaha=>:d funny isn't it. hahaha=>:d everyone knows meh as one who does stupid stuff.....for instance....purposely give myself scars it's funnay....really funnay in a way...u'd say....why do you hurt urself so, but yet you know so much of urself.....at least i noe my limits. hahah=>:D

now.....i've always wanted to go help people....and everytime sumone asks meh to go do sumthing for em....i am always very willing to help.....but is my help always wanted even though they asked? i don't care....being appreciated sometimes makes the person feel better, but u noe.....why should you always be appreciated, ur not perfect.....yes....i mean...u can be admired, looked up upon....and well u can be a role model, but everyone hasta keep in mind dat no one is perfect, no matter how they seem to be....their actions all has a motive..........

i don't know...it's funnay to think of it this way....but i have written a will, a last request, a final statement. hahaha=>:d i'm only 16.....am i being to realistic, too paranoid, too caring, want to be too prepared??? i don't know......neither do i really care......

in my statement...i've stated this.....i've never really been afraid to die....just how, and afraid of the people i'm leaving behind....so in a sense....meh being prepared in this sense leaves meh conquering my fear, but in a sense, it only causes more doubts....these fears can only ever subside if i trust GOD full heartedly. i shouldn't be afraid of those i leave behind, for they may come and join meh......i do not know.....but even if so....i hope all goes well...cause i'm getting colder and more tired now...l8a people....chillax it yo.....