ew ew.....feeling sick. args. my stomache hurts like a bitch!!!! args args!!!! think i'm going to take a bit of like cold medicine. args. plus....i think i'm going to go to bed early. meh. not like i have n e one to talk to n e ways.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
psychology
psychology is the study of personality develpment. if that's the case, do i need one? i have soooo many questions to ask. and i can't answer them for myself. maybe that's the reason i want to go into psychology. but the truth is, going into psychology would only make me more troubled. meh. there are those people who think i'm insensitive and not understanding, those are qualities that would make a horrible psychiatrist, so i just shouldn't go into psychiatry then i suppose. sighs sighs.
then if that's the case, what the hell am i made for? i don't help people and yet i just cause more problems n e ways.
but then going into psychiatry, i need to get a doctors and may need medicine practice...blah....
my tummy hurts like a bitch. sighs sighs. it hurts i tell you. maybe it's because i didn't eat dinner cause i ate lunch at like 3. meh. i'm not planning to eat din din....i'll just drink lots and lots of water. meh.
i've been having horrible headaches lately. but i know the reason. it's cause i don't get enough sleep and i don't get enough nutrients. mutli-vitamin supplements can only do sooooo much. so meh. whatever.
gotsta get back to studying ga la....sighs sighs....
then if that's the case, what the hell am i made for? i don't help people and yet i just cause more problems n e ways.
but then going into psychiatry, i need to get a doctors and may need medicine practice...blah....
my tummy hurts like a bitch. sighs sighs. it hurts i tell you. maybe it's because i didn't eat dinner cause i ate lunch at like 3. meh. i'm not planning to eat din din....i'll just drink lots and lots of water. meh.
i've been having horrible headaches lately. but i know the reason. it's cause i don't get enough sleep and i don't get enough nutrients. mutli-vitamin supplements can only do sooooo much. so meh. whatever.
gotsta get back to studying ga la....sighs sighs....
unpleasant dreams
well just say lately, i've been screaming while i've been sleeping. and these mornings that i wake up, i'm rather flushed and i'm in pain all over.
in my dreams, i'm always screaming the same thing. i only remember one part of this dream.
and the dream goes like this:
someone takes my pencil case. i go bezerk and scream at that person to give it back. it becomes a taunting game and they won't give it back because they think it's funny for me to be the "monkey" in the middle. then suddenly, i have people running after me . so i begin running down the halls of school. there are people behind me. it seems that everyone is out to get me. they have evil grimmaces that just make me want to cry. i have no where to go no where to run nor hide. so i obey and be abused knowing that if i retaliated as a person, none of those people would see that i am a human and they'd just hurt me more.
and that's all i can remember.
i know that everytime i feel like shit before i fall asleep i have this dream and i'm always screeming. and yeah, sometimes i actually sleep walk and start crying in a corner so i'm told by my parents. sighs sighs.
i wish i would just stop dreaming forever....sighs sighs. but that's just the easy way out, so yeah.....i suppose dreaming and going on is the harder way to go to the end of the race, but hey.....when have i taken the easy way out of doing something?!?!? keke^^:D:P
....laughing without truly being happy....
...nothing about me really matters n e more....
in my dreams, i'm always screaming the same thing. i only remember one part of this dream.
and the dream goes like this:
someone takes my pencil case. i go bezerk and scream at that person to give it back. it becomes a taunting game and they won't give it back because they think it's funny for me to be the "monkey" in the middle. then suddenly, i have people running after me . so i begin running down the halls of school. there are people behind me. it seems that everyone is out to get me. they have evil grimmaces that just make me want to cry. i have no where to go no where to run nor hide. so i obey and be abused knowing that if i retaliated as a person, none of those people would see that i am a human and they'd just hurt me more.
and that's all i can remember.
i know that everytime i feel like shit before i fall asleep i have this dream and i'm always screeming. and yeah, sometimes i actually sleep walk and start crying in a corner so i'm told by my parents. sighs sighs.
i wish i would just stop dreaming forever....sighs sighs. but that's just the easy way out, so yeah.....i suppose dreaming and going on is the harder way to go to the end of the race, but hey.....when have i taken the easy way out of doing something?!?!? keke^^:D:P
....laughing without truly being happy....
...nothing about me really matters n e more....
just not in the mood
unless you catch me at school, i probably just won't talk to anyone i suppose. i'm simply just not in that mood. feeling like a recluse like i ought to be. seemed to me that it was better that way since i would only bug myself when i was a kid and no one seemed to care now so it makes no difference.
i wish i was blind
i wish i was deaf
i wish i was mute
i wish i was unable to comprehend
i wish i was blind
i wish i was deaf
i wish i was mute
i wish i was unable to comprehend
fine then
okay. well if you just didn't want me to have the same link as your page you could have just said something, you didn't have to change the url. but whatever, i get the hint.
blahed out...
blah.....well i'm rather upset. meh. maybe i'm just thinking too muchie, that's how i always am. meh.
whatever......
gotsta go to the gym and release this tension i suppose. nothing better to do and studying is definately not helping. it just makes me feel more stupid and more depressed because i am. blah.
i'm bored as hell. i think i'm deciding not to go out friday i suppose, maybe spend most of my time wollowing in sorrow created by me at the gym. meh. plus, i don't go to the gym to check out guys n e ways, so they can look at me all they want, i won't be looking back. so yeah. meh.
need to get out of this foul storm cloud.......grrrrr. oh wellz, this is like one of my fave like seasons because of the colours, but this year, everything just seems even more gray then they already are. meh.
need to go and get a life besides sitting in front of pc and study and do hmwk. sighs sighs.
args args.....n e suggestions ma?
whatever......
gotsta go to the gym and release this tension i suppose. nothing better to do and studying is definately not helping. it just makes me feel more stupid and more depressed because i am. blah.
i'm bored as hell. i think i'm deciding not to go out friday i suppose, maybe spend most of my time wollowing in sorrow created by me at the gym. meh. plus, i don't go to the gym to check out guys n e ways, so they can look at me all they want, i won't be looking back. so yeah. meh.
need to get out of this foul storm cloud.......grrrrr. oh wellz, this is like one of my fave like seasons because of the colours, but this year, everything just seems even more gray then they already are. meh.
need to go and get a life besides sitting in front of pc and study and do hmwk. sighs sighs.
args args.....n e suggestions ma?
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