well just say lately, i've been screaming while i've been sleeping. and these mornings that i wake up, i'm rather flushed and i'm in pain all over.
in my dreams, i'm always screaming the same thing. i only remember one part of this dream.
and the dream goes like this:
someone takes my pencil case. i go bezerk and scream at that person to give it back. it becomes a taunting game and they won't give it back because they think it's funny for me to be the "monkey" in the middle. then suddenly, i have people running after me . so i begin running down the halls of school. there are people behind me. it seems that everyone is out to get me. they have evil grimmaces that just make me want to cry. i have no where to go no where to run nor hide. so i obey and be abused knowing that if i retaliated as a person, none of those people would see that i am a human and they'd just hurt me more.
and that's all i can remember.
i know that everytime i feel like shit before i fall asleep i have this dream and i'm always screeming. and yeah, sometimes i actually sleep walk and start crying in a corner so i'm told by my parents. sighs sighs.
i wish i would just stop dreaming forever....sighs sighs. but that's just the easy way out, so yeah.....i suppose dreaming and going on is the harder way to go to the end of the race, but hey.....when have i taken the easy way out of doing something?!?!? keke^^:D:P
....laughing without truly being happy....
...nothing about me really matters n e more....
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