reality is a bitch...but there's nothing we can do. the only thing we can do is to enjoy what we have now and don't regret what we cannot have.

but then that sounds very hypocritical. i always regret. one thing or the other...but meh...could be worst couldn't it? i mean....i don't consciously regret ne thing...but then i do sometimes not knowing or not thinking that i did. hm. meh. as long as i know i live in the present and not the past....it's all good.

okayz....so here's the list.....so far....i like too many people starting with "w". or at least the two that sound soo funnay cause i say it soo quickly that it sounds like one person. or so everyone says..... and then there's something wrong with me and people named "ken" cause it just never works out. nor will it ever work out with people named ken. weird aye? keke^^ okayz....then there are those that start with b....that all sound like brian, bryan, byron, ben, and so on.... then there are the matt's the mikes, and the marks. hm.... then there are the chris', christian, caleb...yadee yadee yada.....sooo weird.....

not my fault that most of these people are asian...keke^^ too bad.....i'm just not into white boys like everyone believes i should be. keke^^ yupz yupz.

i dont' know what i should do....i really want to go to that party on saturday...it's like the highlight of my weekend. since it starts at eight...then i'll be studying the whole da till like 7:30ish...maybe i should make a deal with my mommy. hm....yeah...okayz. i will do that. and i'm pretty sure my mommy won't say no. so yeah.

uncommon to popular believe, just because i write about thoughts of loneliness does not mean i am afraid to love. if you say i am afraid to love, what do you think i have between you and i? a bond of friendship is still a bond of love. jsut because friendship does not come in the same box as a boyfriend girlfriend relationship does not mean it is not the samething. do you not have compassion on a friend? do you not have simpathy on a friend? do you not want a friend to be happy? in the same way....is that not how any relationship is? every relationship is based on love.....when you have love in a relationship...everything else just follows.