wow....tony's finally awake!!!! yayay.....john's finally awake too!!!! hehehe=>:D:P yes.....i haveta go now......gotsta find some games......args.....

let's see. well people say that from tragic incidence or like misfortunes, what you survive will make you stronger, is that true? if you say that, who would be the stronger one? the one who gets beaten everyday or the one that is neglected by everyone at skool everyday? what would make you stronger? what makes meh mad is when people believe that there is no like racism in the world. yeah, maybe to me, i outplay the word in daily speech. what???? you think i'd forget what people did to meh when i was young? you'd think that i'd forget that people neglected meh when i wuz young because i was different? you think i'd forget? you think someone wouldn't become bitter? wow......if you think that i have forgotten or that i am not bitter....wow......u are miserably mistaken ar. GOD makes up for much of who i am. luckily for that, i have not gone too far in destroying my life. yeah, think of this......i hate this world. everyday i hate living, but now, i have no choice but to love it. well, shall i say i have a choice to see it's true face, but instead of hating it, i must enjoy it because this is only temperary. yeah. i will not say that christianity or being a protestant is a religion. yeah, but what do you define religion? well religion isn't always fake.....most of it is just based on morals....but what i call my belief is simply that.....a belief a faith. something that you can't see, but still has an impact in your life. you'd say i'm being a hypocrite, but who cares? are you not a hypocrite yourself? if you call meh a hypocrite, i must say this.....how can you see the splinter in my eye and miss the plank in your own? yeah, using bible verses to diss people up. not diss, just enlighten. yeah, simply just that. wow....getting kinda late...why are soo many thoughts arrousing in my head....wow.....amazing. hm....gotsta sto thinking....this clock of though must stop ticking......

hm...hey internet. wuz up with everyone la? hehehe=>:D:P everyone always gives me compliments. hm.....but do i actually deserve em? it's funnay, i understand like cantonese and mandarin....i can speak both. fluently if i actually wanted, but my mother tongue shall forever be cantonese. muhahaha=>:D:P very very bored. oh wellz. at tony's tonight, but it's like meh being at home n e ways....on the pc typing away....because tony's asleep. i didn't know that john like lives at their house.....it's somewhat amazing if you ask meh. i hope he feels alright. hm. i just wonder. hm.....whack. well i hope everything is going well for him. i'm sooo completely tired. hm.....wo bu zhi dao ba....sighs sighs....ni zhi bu zhi dao wo shou she me? hm.....did i even type it right? hm....my ping ying is sooo crappy at times. ren ren dao wen wo ru gou wo ke yi shou de. wo ke yi de, dan shi wo bu shi huan. wo bu zhi dao wei she me wo bu shi huan shou. arg...maybe it's cause i sound like a total cbc when i try speaking it. hm....don't know...

yeah, Geoff wuz right......did i even spell his name right? well yeah, he wuz right. i just have way too muchie time on my hands. i take my time to take online language courses. and yet i will never know if i improve or not. yeah, learning korean and like japanese is sooo hard when you only have audio files to listen to. args. wow....what i life i have aye??? hehehe=>:D:P don't u just admire meh? hahaha=>:D:P it's somewhat funnay, i always say i don't have enuff time, but i always have more time then i actually need. i just do useless things in the time that is soooo very precious. hehehe=>:D:P wo zhen de shi lei ba....sighs sighs. no one's gonna bother to read my stupid entries. i dont' know. this world is sooo completely on line if you ask meh. i talk alot.....but much about nothing. i have no clue. i really don't kow


hm.....if you havecomments on my language skills and such.....hm.....tell meh....ur opinion to meh is important...depending on who you are.

oh yeah.....it's important......you know....the person i want to read this.....well bri boi, u know the night when i told you i wuz just feeling crummy, and well when you said that you still love meh when things aren't doing well. well it really did mean alot to meh. you don't say that alot. and u are one of those people i know that don't just say it unless you actually mean it. i know how much u despise using those words in a sentence because you feel it's overused. hehehe=>:D:P thanx. i don;'t know, it just made my day. ehehehe=>:D:P it put smiles on my face. hehehe=>:D:P it's all good. hehehe=>:D:P yupz yupz......but meh gotsta go n e ways....so yes.....hehehe=>:D:P

when things are down, u notice those around you. when you are upset there are more things that get you more upset. the world can only get smarter. in a sense, that is true, because more and more things are being figured out for people and not for themselves to think of. you can think i'm wrong, but i think i've seen enuff in my days to get meh peeved. yeah, there is nothing new under the sun. everytime i'm upset or just way tooo happy, those words come to my head. what has happened before will happen again. history repeats itself even though you try to make it not happen. the inevitable can only be prolonged, never stopped. what must happen will happen. if you are happy or not, that's just the way it is....are you happy because you don't accept that there are those that are upset. or are you upset because you accept that there is unhappiness in the world? i don't know, i really could care less what you think. but i can't help it. i just think alot.....