last night

kekek^^:d:P well just say that i didn't go home till 9.

yeah....9's my curfew on a school night, but that's really acceptable to my standards. i still want to come home and have time to like study so yeah. plus, nine is like the time my daddy always wants me home even though it's weekends. blah. he was never this uptight with my sister when she was my age, what the hell makes me sooo different from my sister when it comes to curfews?!?!?

args args. rather hate my daddy sometimes. but that's normal i suppose. but that's only cause we always have our disagreements all the time. because he thinks i should be more "traditional" like my sister. args....my ass, my sister's traditional? "yao been yut fut hai zing tong ar?!?!?" fucking aye. everyone's out to get me.

meh.....stupid school....stupid dreams.....stupid me. args args.

i think i know why i like to listen to my music all the time. cause when i'm listening to music, i can forget about everything else around me and just sit there and thinka bout me. everyone needs their outputs of course. people need to be alone sometimes. people sometimes haveta be selfish and think only about themself.

i do love myself. but i still think my friends or those in my life worth more than myself. but then again, that's cause i don't really think highly of myself, but that doesn't mean i don't love myself, nor does it mean i love myself less than others. i love everyone that's in my life equal. even an acquaintance....but people just don't see it my way and they think my way of thinking is "wrong".....but i'm stubborn, and i don't really think it's wrong as long as i can live with it myself.

my dad thinks i'm useless. am i a good for nothing brat????

every time...

kekek^^:D:P still haven't gotten over that song seriously!!!!

i mean, i don't know, but i really don't like bs, but her songs are almost 80% lovely to listen to. meh.....must be that there's some hidden message. i should play these songs backwards. keke^^:D:P j/ks j/ks. but then again.....i have never been one to joke much. and when i am joking around, most people know because they can tell.

i rarely say just joking just joking in person. unless someone really didn't get my joke would i say that. but then again, normally when people say just joking to meh, i'd get rather upset because like 85% of the people who say just joking actually mean it. so yeah.

i've never really taken people's words lightly. and that's probably due to the way i was mistreated by peers. oh wellz. i hold grudges, not to people, but normally to situations. rather sad i know. but meh.

i need wings to fly and clouds to cover so i won't be seen.

loneliness

no one is as lonely as they think they may be. no one is as they seem to be surrounded with people. remember, not everything can be taken in by face value. blah, remember, one by one, if things kept coming and hitting you and your friends, one by one, you may see your friends leave. but at the same time, if these things keep coming at you, you may find that there are more people to stand with you or stand to defend you. you find that these people may be difficult or different, but it doesn't mean that you can repell or should repell. by understanding differences, you understand things about yourself. by understanding differences, you become more mentally mature. by understanding differences, you become more prepared for things to hit you face on. then, when that time comes to hit you in the face, you can stand up right and hit right back. not necessarily the case when everything keeps hitting you sooo many times, but what doesn't kill you can and only will make you stronger. but sometimes, seeming weak can be used to an advantage, so meh.....there's always a twist at every bend. duh! that's why it's called a bend!

more translations of crapiness.....

one of these days, he will meet me, and everything will change. i will find this one person. does he like me or not? i love you, but you don't. single person loving can still cause breaking of hearts. i love you, but you her. it's because of you, that i feel the feeling of broken heartedness. it's because of you that i couldn't fly away.

one of these days you will meet me. and after three minutes, everything will go wrong. but even after all that, a stroll fixes everything and we are under the street lamps and everything is perfect again.

more ewwing!!!

args......well i would really wouldn't want to go to this concert.... but i like their lyrics....and it's a sad fast song......keke^^:D:P well not sooo much sad as to gloomy. keke^^:D:P

it's such a waste of energy to have a crush on you. even if i got you, what's the point? it's not going to be serious with you anyways, so what's the point? it's just tooo easy.

yeah, from the same song.....keke^^:D:P been on repeat for the longest time even though their singin is very disgusting.....

oh wellz

....a song.....

i remember looking at you that day when you walked past. inside, my heart was smiling and everyone thought i was foolish. from day to night i think of the look on your face while carrying your school bag. i can see it clearly. if only i can just look at you more closely, then i will see nothing imperfect. then again, even closer this time, then my heartbeat would be changing.

well yeah....that's all i feel like translating at this time. blah...and plus, the song is in chinese, and it's live. ewwww.....i hate live music because chinese singers live just sing sooo horribly. well most do, not all. some actually practice and make their voice sound decent. keke^^:d:P

yeah, it's a two person group, and they can't sing live because their voices just clash with each other. it's harmony while trying to sing the same note!!! and that's not harmoneous!!!!! blah...me no spell englishie ga la....oh wellz...keke^^:D:P

hope to talkie to vals tonight!

back to the old days!

well i'm bored. keke^^:D:P so yeah, gots nothing to do, so i'm going to go and like do some surveys and crap. blah. how fun aye?!?!? trying to consume my time with stupid things. oh wellz....








^egh....how the heck is that quizzie me ar?!?!? hm....crappers ga la.....i don't get it....oh wellz.....





^huh?!?!?!? yellow again?!?!? what the heck is this all about ga la?!?!?! crappers......even media's book said i'm one of those people that should wear yellow cause it shows off who i am on the inside!!!! args args......two quizzes in a row.......blah....


^wow....i'm more devious than i thought i was....oh wellz.....i'm seeeepecial!!! keke^^:D:P


^egh.....some how contridictory, but meh....oh wells...how yummy....i'm rasberry icecream!!!! yum yum!!!!


^blah...this results a fake....noe it's not gonna happen cause i just noe!!!

weirded....

oh wow....weird. completely strange. when did i get on the pc yesterday?!?!? crappers man....when the hell?!?!? how?!?!?

args args.

well i'll be going into stupid mode now. blah...n e plans this weekend?!?!? n e parties ma?!?!? blah blah....and no, i ain't going to drive cause i can't....at least not legally n e ways.

well i have no school tom....but, i'll be going with val to chill tom. keke^^:D:P

YA!!!! i'm gonna be with my val!!! SHE'S ALL MINE TOM!!! ALL MINE I SAY!!! LAY OFF!!!! keke^^:D:P j/ks j/ks j/ks ga la. keke^^:D:P

egh, i've become a total spoiled rotten bitch dese days.....=.= args args. sighs.

well for a school project, the main idea is to try to stay away from the pc (basically the internet) and the tv for a lil while. i wonder if i will succeed though. for now, it's seeing how long i'm actually on the pc. i haveta record a normal day thing first. blah blah.

my life is sooo boring. it revolves around this think i know as bloggin. blah blah blah.