because i can't get over stupid stuff, i just end up posting it. is it rite? does n e one actually read dis? like i dunno n e one dat has read it unless i've asked em to. hahaha=>:d i think i depress da sh!t outta sum peeps. hahaha=.:d but den again, ain't it funnay to read sumone's mind?
sorta dangerous thing if u ask meh, like sumone is stalking meh through my own thoughts. kinda evil at da same time. i'm letting the whole world noe me, while those who actually noe me in person prolly dun even noe all dese stupid thoughts are going through my mind. funnay ma? i believe so. hahhaa=>:d i'm just j/king round. quite funnay if u think so. like i'm falling apart, but nobody would noe besides me. maybe besides GOD and all, for he is the creator. yes, i guess i am a half phony christian. or in a sense, a bad christian. i lie, i cheat, i steal, i swear, i'm a sinner. what can i say? i'm just very negative....these thoughts sorta getting worst ain't dey? i ain't making n e sense, ain't going n e where....and i'm just writing crap. oh wellz.....read....whatever......enjoy.....hahaha=>:d

today, i've tried to write like three entries, but each time, i messed up and posted da wrong thing, maybe it's better that way. everything is done for a reason. yes. all the good, AND the bad. there is a meaning behind lyphe. i guess i'm unhappy, but i'm happy at the same time. can i say i'm a optimistic person in a pessimistic world? well maybe not. maybe i just have both pessimistic and optimistic points of view. to meh, dat ain't really rite either. i'm more like.....when i can be happy, i pull myself down, and when i'm down, i pull myself up. so either way, i don't really stay in one mood for too long.

moods, what a funny thing. u noe how u always say dat a gurl has pms?!?!? well guyz have it too. but it's just called ims. i dun really remember what all dat stuff stands for, but ims is like da same thing as pms, but only for guyz. i ain't even gonna start to get into da details. hahaha=>:d i'll just say.....yeah....it's not just a gurl thing n e more. hahaha=>:D

well, bak to my true intentions. moods, not moodswings, but moods. what are they? can i say it's like a phase? a phase of a certain emotions? that is certainly what it is for meh. then to me, i guess i just live lyphe from phase to phase, never really truly feeling n e thing. can i say i'm cold? can anyone say i'm cold? am i cold? well, i can't say i'm cold, nor can u, cause most chances are, u prolly dunno meh and or u dun give a darn bout dis lil gurly here dat's just blabbing on. like what some people might say, i have way too big of a heart. i can almost forgive everything. and i can almost forget anything, but bring it up at n e time. i'm just the most random person sometimes. maybe in this sense, i just set myself up to get hurt a whole lot.....maybe i really truly do. which is better? living live and getting hurt because u care, or hating the world because u don't feel n e thing? i dun think neither choice should be an option. man, my darn mind just has way too many thoughts.....stupid meh. well chill outz yo.