thanx byron for a great verse......i guess i shall forever keep it wit meh....
yeah bri boi....u should read it too
for with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.
- ecclesiastes 1:18
yes....indeed dis is true. hahaha=>:D but u noe, ecclesiastes is one of da most depressing books of the whole bible. it makes everything sooo meaningless. it sure does. really it does. we all noe dis. but u noe......it's also one of da most happiest books?? it tells u dat it's only meaningless without GOD. wisdom used for nothing is pointless isn't it? hahaha=.:d so therefore....if u use it for GOD, thing will be alritez. i guess i've just neglected these things for the past few weeks, months, years. i've never been a very good christian. this verse made meh cry. does it make u depressed? hahaha=.:d well i guess some peeps just see things way too deeply. oh wellz. and i'm one dat does. everyone blames meh for thinking dis way, but i can't help it. if dat's da way i wuz born, how can i change it? if it wuz a gift given to meh and received, why should i reject??? i can't....i've already received it.
how is emotion bad?? everyone says dat crying....is a sign of weakness. but u noe what??? dis is what i say.....being unable to show emotion is a weakness above all. why do u want to hide everything? if dat's how u feel...dat's how u feel no matta what. yeah....i noe turning bad energy into good is alritez....but den again...what happens when one something really hits u.....u will no longer be able to change all dat bad energy to good. isn't it at da same time ur just ignoring everything?? yeah...i noe....if u show too much emotion it's very stupid. u should keep an equal balance between everything. yeah yeah.....i noe.....well dere's nothing i can say......i'll just simply state, emotion ain't weakness....now sabby gurl signing off....

my thoughts.....hm....am i thinking about n e thing??? am i thinking about n e one? am i even thinking at all??? well i am. hahaha=>:D
last nite, concert.....a few words.....awesome.....but boring. totally kid infested. i will never go again.
2 on the way bak to churchie.....walk....what a walk....got abandonned by a few of my guy friends...how great aye??? i guess i'm used to being abandonned....in lyphe...i've been ditched enuff times to be used to it. everyone thinks i'm mad because dey ditched meh, but u noe what???i wuzn't.....i wuz mad at da thought dat i abandonned myself.....i've let all my dreams, all my hopes....all my lyphe fade away into da scenery.... i no longer am myself for i've just blended into the bakdrop. yeah....i'm kinda pathetic, i noe dat.....am i happy now?? is dis da way i wanna live??? this is just a stage.....just a stage.....i must not prolong it. it is just a stage.
right now....i just need a new beginning....one without memories, nothing of the past. yeah....very unrealistic....i just haveta learn to live wit it. yeah yeah...like i haven't been told dat a few times. stupid. oh wellz. whatever. hahaha=>:D lyphe goes on with or without acknowledgement of the past. if others can walk through all their memories and live, den i think i should be able to live through it rite? wellz.....trying to be optimistic, but of course....my futile attempts just fail.....because dat's what futile means. useless. yeah....i'm useless....but i am constantly being used. used as a friend....used as a daughter....used as a student.....used
u want meh happy??? dere's no way dat's gonna happen....i set myself up for a fall....and now i'm falling....falling constantly.....maybe a here and there where i'm able to grasp something, but not for long.....my strength is not enuff.
i love lyphe....yet i hate it.....it gives meh stregnth, but it also makes meh weak. i am constantly just a weak image of a gurl dat i used to be. i'm just an image. dat's all dat i just am. i'm just a bag of carbon wrapped in what u would call skin. depressing aye? well i am depressing....live wit it.....yeah...l8a