the greatest problems in this world arrouse because of acceptance issues. i'm serious. when u get mad at something, why do you get mad? is it because that someone said sumthing really offending or maybe because that they did something to you? but the fact is......if you understand why they said it to you, and why they did that, maybe then you wouldn't be so upset. yeah, that's what i said to bessie, and i made her cry more. i still remember that, and i still feel bad that i did it, but i don't feel guilty, because.....reality has to hit you some time, if not from meh, someone who is actually ur enemy.

it's not true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. i'm serious. it's not true at all. lyphe to me will never be the survival of fittest. if we were in battle, and all were suppose to be the "fittest" than should there not even be a battle? but men are not like that. i mean..men in the sense as all humans. so yeah. the fact is, if we were all fit, we should see that we are and there shall be no battle at all. world peace will never arrive. you can only dream, but in this world, u will never see it. you can see glimpses of it, but really, to see the full magnitude of peace, u think you would see it? u think u'd enjoy? i doubt you will. many people can't even find a lil bit of others to be happy. the more you care, the more fake people think you are. the more you try to be different, the more you are the same. sighs sighs. i don't now. muhahahah.

i don't even know what i';m saying....i'm just sooo tired.....sighs sighs....

everyone is a survivor of something. let's see. there are those that survive alcohol abuse. some survive drug abuse. some survive physical abuse. and some, they just survive and live on even though their problems may still exsist.

people don't think ur weak. people only see that you are weak because that is the image you portray. it's more of a clique and steoreotype than an actual culture. but it's good to know. sighs sighs.


it's only november, and i'm sooo lonely. sighs sighs

there's just sumthing about you that i don't understand. there's just sumthing about you that like causes meh to bubble. arg. why? i don't want this feeling. arg. media......that book thingy wuz right. my parents talked to meh today about fixing our house and moving. arg arg. muhahaha>:D:P finally, we have come the conclusion that we are not moving. brian, u still owe me a trip to p-mall, but i don't even noe why i wanna go n e more. muhahaha=>:D:P well maybe just spending time with my far away friend would be nice....even though u are only like 20-30 mins away....muhahaha=>:D:P

yupz yupz. maybe there will be a wedding in my family, but there was certainly a death...sighs sighs. i think my grandpa is like very sick or sumthing. he's having like heart problems...crap.......my family has a history of heart failure...arg!!!! not good!!! not good at all!!!! arg!!! but whateva GOD's will is, it shall be....so i can't regret and only shall i look forward and accept