but besides that. i'm giving myself soo much stress. args. i don't try in skool anymore. and this friday, i will be taking the bus once more, the first time in a long time all by myself. again, i don't know what i should expect. i know a few too many people in hansen. oh wellz.....for my best friend.....it is worth it. hm...all my best friends are guys. i've just noticed that all the girls that i've called my best friend, none of them stayed with meh. i mean sure, they give meh a smile here and there, and then a tear when i tear.....but the connection feels different. you know what i'm talking about? i mean.....for every guy i've ever met, it's either been they've hated my guts or find meh annoying or just love the way i give them a smile and talk to them. args. maybe that's all i will ever be in the life of a guy, the girl that talks. yeah matt, i rampage through life. i bs through all my rampaging. keke^^ hehehe=>:D:P sooo funnay bah. you remember me as the girl at the age of 4 that rampages at everyone's thoughts. hahaha=>:D:P how i have not changed. muhahaha=>:D:P to someone else....i still love you just the way you are.....and yeah....to another...your life is having much trouble and dark clouds cover your way once again.....the storm seems so near and may already be in your life, but the fact is, there are many people caught in that cloud, or maybe have not survived the cloud and have become the victim of the storm. if you ever have the time, i believe you are a surviver. everyone is, no one that is older than a day can not say that they are not a surviver. before the 8th day, when a baby bleeds, they will not stop bleeding, and since you could have been cut, aren't you a surviver for living? every day is a new day, but each day has a plan, and that plan becomes your routine and schedule. is it your fault that you grow sick of it? well i think it is. you should enjoy a day at a time, and enjoy the fact that ur crummy teachers give ass biting homework. you should enjoy the fact that your parents fight and family lyphe sucks. what does not kill you can't unless you want it to. it's no longer what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.....everything makes you stronger...even if you die eventually.....my opinion.....my philosophy. what does not kill you won't....unless you want it to.

kill bill is awesome!! hehehe

args args....i am extremely upset. sighs sighs. brian, i will write you something....since you will not let me buy you a gift....args args. you are sooo depriving meh of what i feel best doing, wasting money and spending it on someone else!!!! sighs sighs. bitter much? sighs sighs. missie you muchie on this lil face or side of the earth. but then again...would you not get sick of meh? sighs sighs...

loving this song.....sooo feeling it....but i'm only posting the translation....since stupid blogger doesn't let meh post chinese...
Gui ji

Composer: Jay Chou
Lyricist: Huang Jun Lang


Orbit
How can I hide my sorrow?
The place I lost you
The scent of your hair
Scatters hastily
I already cannot follow it

Close my eyes
I can still see
The vestige of when you left
Under the moonlight
Always been searching for
That figure that I miss

If you said that break up is the starting point of pain
Then before the finish line
I am willing to love again
Want to say to you
The love I dare not say
Will there be someone who understands?

I will be staring blankly
Then forget you
Shortly after that I will tightly close my eyes
Thinking of which day
When there will be someone to be in your place
To make me not think about you anymore

I will be staring blankly
Then smile
Shortly after that I will tightly close my eyes
Think about it again
Your gentle face
Before I forget

The tears in my heart
Obscures my visual line
You already cannot see it soon