music

keke^^:D:P music makes someone happy, sad, and everything in between. if it's so powerful, can music heal?

meh....

i suppose mood is very important....when you feel upset...it seems like everything is falling apart. but i suppose the truth isn't in this statement. everything is a waking disaster every day. it's just that when you wake up upset, you become even more realistic and aware and allow everything to affect you in a way that you wouldn't allow when you are happy. meh......and so i walk this little way in my life knowing that everything is always about to crumble and break....but for now....i have the strength to withstand it from killing me.

oh yes.....i found like a step counter in my sister's dorm room....and she gave it to me....and i tend to keep it....muhaha......rather fun i suppose.....i'm gonna count all the steps i walk a day now i suppose...and look like an idiot with a kellogg's step counter on my belt loop....but you know what?!?!? i've been teased enough over the time as a kid that i'm perfectly fine even though i'll still get angry.

i am patient to some extent. well maybe not patient....but have decency. i mean....i hear this white ass chick named mandy every day laugh at the way i am and the way i dress and the way everything in my life is "supposed" to be according to her......and well.....i hear this every day for one semester so far.....if i was n e crueler and unafraid of the consequences of disrupting the class.....i would have already turned around, and then started yelling at her not giving her n e face and loosing mine in the process. but i am human, and just because other's can't see what their words are doing on others.....i know how it feels and i will try not to tease and laugh unless it's a consentual joke.

dunno.....feels like everything in my life is about to go wrong.....maybe it's because of school and exams....no...it's not probably, it's most definately it.....but i'll be praying....nothing else i can do.....

if....

if someone were to throw themselves at you....what would you call it? would you call it being desparate? i mean.....it's alrights if i call myself that....but if someone else calls me that.....i just think that's a tad bit harsh...meh....

dunno ga la....weird....

i mean....is it not kinda a compliment if someone shows you their affection? i mean....it's sux because most times...when people are "chasing" after you....you probably don't like the person....and when you like a person....they are "chasing" someone else....meh....

blah blah blah

dunno....lately....posting alot of lyrics....why? dunno....just that i'm listening to a song...and i hear just one line in the whole song that relates to how i'm feeling or sumthing.....and then i just post the entire song when the entire song is super old or superly duperly sux. dunno.....weird.

yupz....school tomorrow...day 2.....so i get to sleep in late....dunno...how fun....booo whoo. i know i will not go far from home to go to post secondary education in us......first of all.....sat's.....me totally not ready to handle that...most people prepare for that test two years in advance....blah....so my parents can just wish that they could send me there.....5000$ us to send me there for one year......not tooo bad i suppose.....but still....no, i ain't going....meh....

feeling crappy.....booo.....but bought some chocolate milk....maybe that'll cheer me up...so yeah.....keke^^:D:PXDXDXDXD

Billy S.

Wake up tired, Monday mornings suck,
It's way too early to catch a bus,
Why conform without a fuss,
Daddy Daddy, no, I don't wanna go to school, woo!

I don't need to read Billy Shakespeare,
Meet Juliet or Malvolio,
Feel for once what it's like to rebel now,
I wanna break out, let's go!

Teachers treat us all like clones,
Sit up straight, take off your headphones,
I don't blame them, they get paid,
Money money, woo, lot's of money money, woo!

I don't need to read Billy Shakespeare,
Meet Juliet or Malvolio,
Feel for once what it's like to rebel now,
I wanna break out, let's go!

Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!
Get out, get out, get out, get out!
To skip or not to skip? that is the question.
Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!
Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out,
Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out!

I don't need to read Billy Shakespeare,
Meet Juliet or Malvolio,
Feel for once what it's like to rebel now,
I wanna break out, let's go!

I don't need to read Billy Shakespeare,
Meet Juliet or Malvolio,
Feel for once what it's like to rebel now,
I wanna break out, let's go!

Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!
Get out, get out, get out, get out, woo!
Feel for once what it's like to rebel now,
I wanna break out, let's go!

Get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out, get out!

Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Since You've Been Gone

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

egh?!?!? neh...

well let's just say that sabby's been having such weird weird convo's. meh....it's alrights. meh....

let's see....my sister's back at university....booo....now always gonna be sooo bored. sighs sighs. dunno...my sister's only been gone for like a few hours...and i feel sooo sad already. blah....oh wellz.....no worries:D she'll be back in two weeks...and then we can have our arguements and whatnot all over again. keke^^:D:P dunno....since my sister has gone to uni....i find that i have become closer to her and that i understand the value of family alot more. i mean....i even get jealous of her spending sooo much time away of the family when she spends the weekend with her boyfriend. dunno.....it's weird.

meh...

yeah....

back to the point of entry....

what is the meaning of a guy asking you whether or not you've been looking out for other boys ar?!?!? args args. but....this guy....i most definately will say no.....

i have two rules.....

1. i will rarely say no and give it a chance......and
2. i will not give you a second chance to be something more than just friends because being my friend was already my second chance to a guy....

so yeah....what does that say to you?!!?

but n e whoo....i find it weird that someone would ask you that. meh. maybe it's just plain curiousity. so yeah. it's all good. friends once should always remain friends forever....even if it's not forever....at least memories can last till you've grown old and have tooo many to remember. but meh...

another person that thought brian and i would end up or should end up together....what a laugh......can't a guy and a girl just be very good friends without being more than just friends? funny. oh wellz....the past is all in the past.....sabbys gonna need to grow up and see that there are more things in this world than just growing old with someone that i supposedly "love"...so yeah. meh....would be a nice thought growing up with someone instead of growing up all alone. booo whoo. oh wellz.

n e whoo....all good.....XDXDXD