sighs sighs. i just don't understand. sighs sighs. it's not that i don't understand. it's just more of me that i just egh....sighs sighs. i want to see you smile. i want you to be happy. sigh sighs. i want the world for you. but then again, the world isn't for me to give. sighs sighs. some people wish away their lives, and then there are those that just walk it away. they live only once and they waste it thinking that real living is taking drugs and getting high and killing themselves slowly. sighs sighs. the best way and only way in living is well......basically it's living for what you believe in. and then....if you live life by what you believe, you live with meaning. i mean, it's better to live as if there is a GOD than to do everything wrong and then find out that there was one. some people thinkie that i'm strange. but the truth is, i'm just very realistic. i am afraid of speking the truth. but i still do it because i feel that t is the only way to live. i have alot of problems lying even if i needed to. i don't know if that is a good quality or if it's a bad quality. people call me a nark, but seriously, does it matter if i feel good about it? i mean, i don't feel happy when people tease me, but i feel great that i did the right thing. why does self-confidence seemed to be lowered every time i know i'm doing something right? i just don't get it. it doesn't make sense to me. sighs sighs. well i'm going...sighs sighs....