hahaha=>:d everyone in this world is sooo selfcentered. it's all about the "my style", "my language", "i want", "i need". no one cares about you n e more? is dat what ur trying to say when u want everything for urself? haha=>:d u noe what i'm just tempted to do? i'm prepared to loose everything at this present moment. maybe den, i'd learn to cherish everything that i have and what i don't have, and then people could see something that they never saw.

yeah, i just wanna be with you, but in the same sense, it was never to be, october 26, it's in about or less then a month by now, it wouldda been a year. don't ask meh why i rememba dat day, but just noe dat u were sumthing to me. hahaha=>:d i don't really bother to what used to be, just know dat it still hurts, but hahaha=>:d da funnay part, u still put smiles on my face, u still light up my world. hahaha=>:D i don't want you bak, because i'd just haveta say no, and yet, i know i'd prolly say yes. sighs sighs. change ain't bad. hahaha=>:d i've been enuff places to know what to do and what i shouldn't do. hahha=>:D dere are enuff mistakes dat we shouldn't need to take history, but yet we still need to because we have no option but to. arg....i would neva be able to go into waterloo...arg! no fair. sighs sighs. but my university will still haveta be like mac. even though outta all universities dat i have been, mac is still my fave.

all you out there, i want you to know one thing.....i'm not a happier person. i'm not more upset. i'm just a person that has nothing good ahead, but everything ahead of her. i'm just a person that's living day to day, while planning ahead because i can only live ahead. hahha=>:D i'm not living n e more, but i'm not dead. i don't smile much n e more.

can you remember the time when i smiled even at nothing? hahhaha=>:D u noe what? i think i'll die as a psychopath. can you remember the time when i got soo mad that i started pulling out my hair? i don't think i've ever become so mad while people were arond me. hahaha=>:d the time when i start pulling out my hair while my friends or people are around meh will be the time that i've lost all my brains. sighs sighs.....

haven't u heard dat i'd be okay? hahaha=>:d u can act tuff if you wanna, but i'm alritez. hahahaha=>:d nothing ever changes, nothing in lyphe doesn't go in a cycle. hahaha=>:d everyone just wants to improve, but while everything else inproves, what is happening to mankind? hahaha=>:D:P

what a question, not that many people care, but what is happening to mankind? hahhaa=>:d think about it.....what happened when GOD got angry? he's always forgiving, and he always saves his children from harm, but listen up, ur choices are what u choose to do, he gave you that power. hahhaa=>:d He gave ADAM AND EVE the choice to eat that apple, knowing that they would, but he just wanted to see if dey could resist. hahaha=>:d i sound like a preacher. hahaha=>:D:P ur choice can destroy but yet it can build whatever it chooses to do. it ur choice to do or not do.

nothing in lyphe is simple, but it's just as simple as the choice rite ahead. notice, everything is the choice ahead. u never say the choice behind, just because u can't do n e thing to what already happened. hahahah=>:D:P sooo funnay ma? hahah=>:D:P

muhahaha=>:d i haven't like wrote soo much bs since da summa. hahhaa=>:D soo funnay...hahhaa=>:D:P

u noe what? i haven't changed, yeah, u got a problem with sensitivity? den go kiss my ass. i'm not gonna be like da rest of da world, uncaring and all cold as ice. yeah, just kiss my bum bum. hahaha=>:d

hahhaa=.:d i've generalized da world, sollie, i didn't mean to say dat. hahaha=>:D in a sense, maybe i did mean everything thta i said, but maybe i don't.

hahhaa=>:d confusing? not really....u noe meh well enuff. hgahahah=> just becuase u can't be perfect done mean dat things can't last forever. just because u just wanna change sumone don't mean dat u should. hahhaa=>:d what? do you hate me because i'm sooo opinionated? do you hate meh because i'm n ot perfect? do you hate me because it's too late to change the past? do you hate meh because u just don't wanna like me? whateva ur reason is, i should care, but rite now, if ur hurting meh, den i'll just turn my bak on ya. gahahaha=>:d

u think i don't understand. hahaha=>:d u think dat ur sooo special, but really, u can't be....nor can i, no one can, so why do you try so hard? hahaha=>:D we can't go bak to da way we used to be, we just can't.

after so long, u haven't changed a bit, and maybe i have, and maybe i haven't. hahhaa=>:d but i don't really care, all i know is dat i love much more, i find satisfaction more now, i enjoy more, or at least, whenever i try hard enuff to enjoy. if you never try to see the good things in lyphe, u just won't. hahhaa=>:d stop living in ur unhappy lil bubble. u noe what u see ain't da rite reason, and ur just living simply because u don't wanna die. hahaha=>:d wuz wrong with this pic? hahhaa=>:d yeah, many people say, if you can't enjoy n e thing, wuz da meaning in lyphe. hahhaa=>:d in da same sense, i ask you the same q, but this time....noe dis, i don't want you dead, i'm a christian...yeah yeah....wanna save ur soul or whateva. hahaha=>:d

but i honestly care for the person you are. hahaha=>:d yeah, body, spirit, mind, i think u've all heard it enuff to get sick of hearing it again, but here goes, dere all interconnected!!! when ur body is hurt, ur mind is injured, and if ur mind is injured, ur spirit is scared. hahhaa=>:D scars can dissappear.

yeah, i harbour all those feelings that mean alot to me, but every now and then, my outburst of emotion is soo unpredicted. hahaha=>:d anger, anger, anger....i have been angry all my lyphe, asing the same questions as to why, and where did dat come from, and why did fate choose me. yeah....i'm christian don't get meh wrong, but i'm not a very good one at dat. hahaha=>:D:P

yeah, go ahead and judge, i'm being honest with myself, i will hide behind the image of a perfect christian gurl, even though i wish my faith was stronger. yeah, i believe that GOD will always deliver meh, but at the same time, maybe it's just too listtle to believe sometimes. hahaha=>:D:P

all my lyphe, i have asked the question why? and no matter what i think, i have not gotten my answer, no answer, but yet, in silence, all answers are present. hahaha=>:d i still say i'm everything you don't wanna be, and dat's why u despise meh so much. or maybe in fact, because i just remind you too much of people that you met, maybe even that i remind you soo much of the way you used to be. hahaha=>:D:P

i don't care. no matter what.....i noe i'm not all rite. maybe i brought on ur anger like i bring on all trouble in my lyphe. hahaha=>:d i noe what you mean, u may think i'm just being stupid, and dat maybe i am stupid....but in truth, it's dat i think and i care, that in a sense, gives meh an imange that i don't think. hahha=>:d a chaotic kinda truth. hahaha=>:D:P

my philosophies suck, not that they aren't right, but they suck, only reason because i draw every single one along the way of earth. hahaha=>:d yet, i am a christian, should i not be more christianly? yet, all my lyphe, i've been christian, or at least....i have known GOD all my lyphe, but i have nothing but words to grasp at. sighs sighs.

u noe dat feeling of love at first sight? yeah, u prolly dun believe it. hahaha=>:d but yet at the same time, i can say i've lied....because i do believe in love at first sight. not sight as in what the eyes see of physical attributes, but sight as in sight of what you see in the person. hahaha=>:d maybe i'm a sucker for fairy princess endings. hahaha=>:d but da truth is, it's not what who needs what, but what you can handle. hahahhaa=>:D:P

there's a place for me. there's still faith. there is always still hope. the smallest amount of faith plus hope can move the biggest of mountains, so do you have faith and hope in me? do you not believe that i can do it?

did you believe that it wouldn't matter? did you believe that nothing would work out? did you not even want to try? was it my fault? anger, anger, anger, it's all i have rite now. hate, hate hate, it's the way i don't wanna be. but i get angry easily, i get disappointed, i hope too much, i trust to easily. yeah, u hate me because i'm everything you don't wanna be. u hate me because i'm everything u can't handle. i'm everything the way you cannot control. hahaha=>:d i know why i love you as a friend, even though i harbou hate and anger at the present moment, u have already forgotten meh, and meh, i will never no matter how long my hate may last. hahaha=>:d i cut my hair hoping that it would change the way i look at lyphe, but i know this too is meaningless. meaningless, meaningless, there is nothing new under the sun. hahaha=>:d how familiar i am with that passage. hahaha=>:d i am just like everyone else, nothing special, but all special and unique at the same time.

what right did you have to yell at meh? i harbour hate, an unseen, and unheard of hate. unheard, being the meaning because i do not talk.....i hate because i am capable, not because it's right. i am supposed to forgive all, but yet, every scar i have is a thing that i do not forget even if i forgive. hahaha=>:D

i'm just that little gurl fighting the signs of growing older, i'm just that little gurl holding on to too much. i'm just a little gurl that's lost and confused in a world where it's full of confusion. hahaha=>:d yeah, u wanna hoook up with people, yeah, up to you. yeah, u wanna stay single because you don't wanna get hurt, or u dun wanna sacrifice n e thing in ur lyphe, yeah, good for you....selfish bum! oh wells. whateva. whateva u choose is ur choice, and i will not persuade you, why? becuase i noe i'd go insane if someone tried to persaude meh into sumthing i don't wanna do. hahaha=>:D