yeah, i harbour all those feelings that mean alot to me, but every now and then, my outburst of emotion is soo unpredicted. hahaha=>:d anger, anger, anger....i have been angry all my lyphe, asing the same questions as to why, and where did dat come from, and why did fate choose me. yeah....i'm christian don't get meh wrong, but i'm not a very good one at dat. hahaha=>:D:P

yeah, go ahead and judge, i'm being honest with myself, i will hide behind the image of a perfect christian gurl, even though i wish my faith was stronger. yeah, i believe that GOD will always deliver meh, but at the same time, maybe it's just too listtle to believe sometimes. hahaha=>:D:P

all my lyphe, i have asked the question why? and no matter what i think, i have not gotten my answer, no answer, but yet, in silence, all answers are present. hahaha=>:d i still say i'm everything you don't wanna be, and dat's why u despise meh so much. or maybe in fact, because i just remind you too much of people that you met, maybe even that i remind you soo much of the way you used to be. hahaha=>:D:P

i don't care. no matter what.....i noe i'm not all rite. maybe i brought on ur anger like i bring on all trouble in my lyphe. hahaha=>:d i noe what you mean, u may think i'm just being stupid, and dat maybe i am stupid....but in truth, it's dat i think and i care, that in a sense, gives meh an imange that i don't think. hahha=>:d a chaotic kinda truth. hahaha=>:D:P

my philosophies suck, not that they aren't right, but they suck, only reason because i draw every single one along the way of earth. hahaha=>:d yet, i am a christian, should i not be more christianly? yet, all my lyphe, i've been christian, or at least....i have known GOD all my lyphe, but i have nothing but words to grasp at. sighs sighs.

u noe dat feeling of love at first sight? yeah, u prolly dun believe it. hahaha=>:d but yet at the same time, i can say i've lied....because i do believe in love at first sight. not sight as in what the eyes see of physical attributes, but sight as in sight of what you see in the person. hahaha=>:d maybe i'm a sucker for fairy princess endings. hahaha=>:d but da truth is, it's not what who needs what, but what you can handle. hahahhaa=>:D:P