oh yes....don't promise what you will not do.......people hate that....and i hate being disappointed. i waited for you....

oh yeah.....i finally know that i was never in love. it's a sad fact to admit. i mean, if loving is a feeling like treating a friend, i have loved, but if you define love as being romantic, i have then never loved. love to me is a choice that is made because of a feeling. but love does not make you blind to all that is around you. love is blind, but it does not blind. love makes you see more clearly the person you are and what should be done to be improved.

well i can remember that i was thinking about love before i slept. and i can remember now that i said that love is a feeling, but if it's not a two way feeling, it is not true love. or sumthing to that extent. all i can remember is saying how everything is a feeling, if you like it or not, it still is a feeling. so basically, everything is a choice based on a feeling.

well this morning before i slept, i was actually thinking about quite alot of stuff....but now....i can't remember what it was....all i can remember is that i had another weird dream. and this time, i know it will never happen. oh wellz. at least i didn't die in my dream this time. why are my dreams always about running away, being trapped, or like alone in the dark? what the heck? is it because those are my worst fears and that's what i do the most so that's why i have those sorts of dreams? or do dreams simply tell you what type of person you are? hm...don't know....don't care.....bored, tired, and becoming sick again....args....