it's funnay how the things i say comes bak through ur mouth or ur fingers or bak through u. it's funnay to see dat sumone actually listens to da teachings which at times maybe useless. it's funnay. dey mean more kinda coming from a person den actually listening to myself. i suppose it's just becuase den i noe dat sumone else noes da lesson dat i've gone through and it cheers meh up.

i dunno....sumhow....i think i cause people to have like three feelings towards meh.....either they get to know meh a very tiny bit and stay friends or dey stick to meh and become good good friends....or well dey hate meh cause dey just dun wanna get to noe meh.....it's not dat i'm unwilling to give trust.....dat's a thing i have....i give my trust out easily and in return i get hurt easily....but the fact is....i continue to give my trust no matter how damaged i may feel. maybe in a sense.....couldn't people be more accepting, concerned and more loving towards everyone? if everyone were at least a bit more concerned dere would be less people like meh. less of those who are angry all da time. one less of who is never happy or at least fully happy. u would have one less one who is so pessimistic if only dere were more people who cared. where were people for meh when i wuz young? where i ask, i ask where!?!? oh wellz...da past is da past.....anger still wells up, but guess i'll just haveta bottle it up and one day find an even larger bottle if i continue feeling angry.

hahaha=>:D thanx for ur devotional sharing....hehehe=>:D it actually did meh alot of good. so far i'm just studing da book of romans...but i'm only on chapta 6.......hehehehe=>:D yupz...thanx for dat.....

hm....feeling crummy again....maybe it's just da lack of sleep or sumthing....grrr.....soo annoyed.....grrr.....tired....grrrr....but i can't even sleep arg!!!! i dunno....i feel kinda well outta it again...grrrr.....

i've become a drone......sleeping, knitting, talking or muttering as some people call it, and den well eating and sleeping sum more. yeah...what a lyphe. at least i haven't gained much weight.. just about like well hm....6 pounds?!?!?!? arg!!! gotta loose weight....gotsta loose weight!!!! getting fatter!!!! not good....gotsta do sum excercise and drink more water and eat lesss!!!!! arg!!!! well n e ways....have fun with lyphe...cause lyphe can be a bytch sumtimes. but eitha way....u can still enjoy it....l8a yo

i'm not saying dat memories will hurt.....i am saying they can hurt.....hahaha=>:D my point is......to move on and think it is past well....for meh.....dat's another case.......i can move on....but each and every step hurts just as much as the very moment of disaster. but that's just my lyphe.....it's different in other people's yeah i noe......sometimes i'm just insane. hehehe=>:D oh wellz....have fun. hehehe=>:D

well the fruits of the spirit are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. i dunno.....i just felt that it wuz important to say, cause most people normally tend to forget. yeah.....i normally don't see all of em in meh....just a few....i lack patience for certain.....i have a low tolerance for stupid behaviour......and meh.....well i am stupid sum of da times...and i get on peeps nerves, but mostely only cause i'm loud....hehehe=>:D but u must noe....the most important of these nine fruits is love, without love, u cannot complete or accomplish in learning to make a certain fruit betta. so in a sense.....all is derived from love.

hm.....dere are dose dat care, and dere are dose dat don't. dat's just lyphe. hm.....i dunno....it's kinda just an excuse so dat u dun haveta care what other's opinions are. maybe it's not....but hearing u say it like da way you did.....it does kinda sound like dat. ain't da point. da point here is dat well....sometimes u should care what others are trying to say. GOD sends people to be messengers to other people too. he can't always send angels and come into ur dreams. so yeah. all i haveta say is....u must listen to others...even when u think they are wrong. u must listen even if u dun give a darn....u just haveta listen. there is no other choice. if you do not listen, u do not improve what mite be a huge mistake. people tell you to help u avoid certain things, but if you need to be in that situation, GOD'll still put u dere.....he just sent a messenger to help you through. yeah....i dunno. dat's all i see. so yeah.....short thought today....l8a yo