i've just noticed dat well, most people always forget meh. i never forget a face, nor a name....if i care to rememba, but everyone...no matta how close we used to be....will forget meh.
sighs....am i dat annoying? is there sumthing wrong with meh? sighs sighs ar. grrr.... lyphe is sumtimes unfair to those who try to be the most fair. hahahaha=>:D meh at jean's house tonite....all da good times, but at the same time, everything is not the same time. i am no longer the same person. i have changed in many ways. i am more severe and meaner. i am more critical. i am unable to let go still, but i am still happy to move on. hehehe=>:D i dunno.
everyone says i just smile alot....and i seem to be happy or very happy now......but u noe what i found out???? when u are drunk, most times, that shows da deep side of da person. for example, if dey were drunk......either they would be very hyper and happy, or they could be etremely unhappy and depressed. as i wuz sooo called drunk last nite....which i totally disagree with being drunk because i wuz totally conscious of all my actions....but either way......i drnk way too much champaign. whateva....wish i never drank, but i wun regret that i did.....i did drink...so whateva. hahaha=>:D
bak to last nite....as i wuz "drunk" i noticed dat i had super split personalities......i wuz super happy.....and then......i wuz super unhappy. sighs. wha da heck??? den i wuz super mad and den super happy again. i suppose each and every single time of each of these emotions were even more stressed than normal. i have no clue. what may i say that could give an excuse for all my actions? i didn't say many things that made meh seem drunk.....but i have no clue why people say i wuz drunk. but then to meh, drunk means sumthing else. i'd rather be drunk on lyphe. hahaha=>:D
why be drunk on substance when ur body can produce a natural high....a high better than any substance can. u just haveta get intact with ur inner being. but i have no clue. sighs sighs. hehehe=>:D
as i write these thoughts....i get more upset. i get more disappointed. but there is nothing i can do about this feeling that is overtaking my thoughts. why am i so upset??? but whateva......i'm gonna stop writin gnow...l8a people.....and as i just relaly wanna go bak and press rewind, i am and forever unable to so i just must move on and live on with my mistakes or others mistakes... well i'm going now...l8a