my heart goes out to those that feel the way i do at the present moment. but i must say i do not know how i feel at the present moment. i suppose i'm pain stricken at someone's pain that they do not feel. sighs sighs. why do i always heppen to feel this way? it's sooo weird. hm. i know at the present moment if one of the people i scorn reads this.....he will laugh his pants off. he'll be laughing at my idiodicy. hm...laugh all you want. laugh. sighs sighs. my humaity is GOD given. my humanity is still sinful; full of lust. sighs. if you laugh at my humanity, then you shall laugh at all mankind. you shall even be laughing at yourself. and above all, you will be laughing at GOD. sighs sighs. yeah, i've come to christ. and my faith remains. and as i say again. your actions will be judged in heaven. you have not repented what you've done. sighs sighs. i will not say i shall not care. i instead say, i will care as much as i possibly can.
i will allow you to laugh and scorn me. and even if i don't allow you to laugh at me, go ahead and laugh. i will endure your torment. i will endure the pain you cause me and the pain you feel for yourself. i am who i am. i and superficial as like everyone else. but there IS more than just skin deep. sighs sighs....
for all those that i've known in my life......and i may still say i hate you now...but the truth is.....
i've forgiven you
(not that you think you need my fogiveness)
....and
I LOVE YOU