args..
tired...

hm...when i die...would people like make a memorial of it?? prolly not......

hm.....i don't know why......but for some reason..... i can't tolerate people who tell me they still have feelings for their ex's...so basically....i hate myself.....yet another reason....oh how very sad.....

oh i just finally found it....and i completly love this....it's sooo sweet...

Whatever your cross
Whatever your pain
There will always be sunshine
After the rain
Perhaps you may stumble
Perhaps even fall
But God's always there
To help you through it all


kekeke^^ yeah....christian....proud of it....

no one reads my thoughts...maybe it's cause i don't really give out my like thought pagie out muchie....but meh.....i could care less....

args.....on an average day when i feel like crap....i post like 15 entries...why the hell? hm....on an average week.....i post 12 thoughts a day....hm...that's like 1.2 a day. hm.....weirded out. hm. my profanity level is rizing. sighs sighs. i can only pray that my chemistry project works for me.... hm...don't call me, i won't talk to you. i just don't feel like talking to people that i know so very well. i just don't feel like talking period. sighs sighs. i really really miss you people....but who do i miss? hm. see.....i haven't remained friends with many people that i know....i just can't help it i suppose.....emeh....

why do all you darned people drinking soo muchie? why the hell do you fucking like to drink sooo muchie? oh my goodness....i haven't sworn for sooo long....oh shittaz.....args....

hm....gotsta go take a shower now....sihg sighs...gotsta study for a physics test...sighs sighs...
not velly happy....super hungee....

sighs sighs....if you live this way at this age...does it mean when you are a parent that you will stay this war or become more like your parents? hm......

sighs......gotsta study....

sighs......gotsta study....

sighs.....i'm sooo hungee.....

hm.....people want to help me. some genuinely care. but then there are those that sick of helping because they think that i'm just a waste of time. so basically....if people say i'm a waste of time....should i just not help them too? see.....i might do that subconsiously......but i try not to and i try to help everyone that wants my help.......but as i say....people try to avioud me....they try not to come near me. they think my emotions are some sort of disease......sighs sighs....

hm.....people want to help me. some genuinely care. but then there are those that sick of helping because they think that i'm just a waste of time. so basically....if people say i'm a waste of time....should i just not help them too? see.....i might do that subconsiously......but i try not to and i try to help everyone that wants my help.......but as i say....people try to avioud me....they try not to come near me. they think my emotions are some sort of disease......sighs sighs....

hm.....people want to help me. some genuinely care. but then there are those that sick of helping because they think that i'm just a waste of time. so basically....if people say i'm a waste of time....should i just not help them too? see.....i might do that subconsiously......but i try not to and i try to help everyone that wants my help.......but as i say....people try to avioud me....they try not to come near me. they think my emotions are some sort of disease......sighs sighs....

hm.....people want to help me. some genuinely care. but then there are those that sick of helping because they think that i'm just a waste of time. so basically....if people say i'm a waste of time....should i just not help them too? see.....i might do that subconsiously......but i try not to and i try to help everyone that wants my help.......but as i say....people try to avioud me....they try not to come near me. they think my emotions are some sort of disease......sighs sighs....

my pc sucks...args args....oh wellz....i'm hungee....so velly hungee.....but i have nothing to eat...sighssighs. why don't my legs tan? args args....so velly annoying. sighs sighs....i really miss life....sighs sighs. why ain't i happy? why does no one care? but then again.....there are alot of people that care about me. hm....i suppose i'm a depressing person. i depress people when they are around me. sighs sighs. they think that my thoughts are despicable. sighs sighs.

sighs......why does my head hurt soo muchie. i wanna job....but then again....do i need one? args.....i'm sooo hungee.....args args.....why am i sooo hungeE???? sighs....feeling sooo singo again....oh wellz....where's my buddies? but then again.....i've been avoiding everything and everyone.....those that i hang with prolly don't notice this....but i normally tag along in the back or walk super fast trying to avoid all the things that people are saying and try to ignore everything else going around. i dont' know why i feel sooo crummy....but i do. i had the weirdest dream again. it was so weird....but then again....i've been having bad dreams for a long time. hm....what does loosing teeth mean for a dream? hm. what does chasing something mean in a dream? what does it mean to fall in a dark black pit? i really believe that i am trying to tell myself something that i just can't figure out. sighs sighs.

why do my legs look so prickly even though you can't feel it???