lucky

This is the story about a girl named Lucky.

Early morning
She wakes up
Knock, knock, knock on the door

It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for

Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl

And they say..
She's so Lucky
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning and she keeps on winning
But tell me, what happens when it stops

Baby

Isn't she lovely?
This Hollywood girl

And they say..
She's so lucky
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothign missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

Isn't she lovely?
This Hollywood girl

She's soo lucky
But why does she cry?
If there is nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?

And they say..
She's so lucky,
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

She's so lucky.
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

caring

caring and the lack of caring is the root to every problem. you either car tooo much or care tooo little. you are either tooo sensitive to matters or not sensitive enough to understand. blah....all this shit running through my head...

my morals....are raised within me since i was a kid. there is no alternating that. and with that....so are many fears and habbits that are instilled within me.

stupid phobias....really need some serious talk therapy with people i don't know. people that know me give me advice knowing what i will do and what i won't do. i haveta have a therapist that will just make me do whatever it is....

sickened

sickened by my own nasty state of emotion.

take me away from my pathetic exsistence.

emotions run rampid

tears flowing again.

i think it's the lack of food that i put down in my stomach.

i am not fat....even though i feel that all my fat is going to my thighs. sighs sighs. going to the gym tomorrow.

sighs sighs. i totally ran off and ruined jojo's day. sighs sighs. i will somehow make it up to her. keke^^:D:P hm.....

saw victor today...keke^^:D:P then jojo came...yaya!!! kept me keeping it short....but victor is a good guy?.....went to egh.....watch bj...not blow job for all you sick minded people......brigette jones...whakakaka!!!! great great....keke^^:d:P sooo hillarious!!!!

i don't talk

i wish i was created poorly. i wish i were deaf. i wish i were mute. i wish i were blind.

i pray that i could be something different. maybe being a tree would be more beneficial to man than the form i take on now. i just wanna find a peaceful spot in my soul and just stay there in the serenity and peacefulness of the whole situation. or maybe yet, find a spot, stay like this forever and ever, whether bad or good. it doesn't matter how i feel, it doesn't matter what i know. nothing matters in this world of chaos. nothing.

people can feel like shit in a time that should be the happiest moment in their life. people can feel completely happy at a time when everything seems to be going sooo wrong.

maybe there was never an old me, maybe the whole me has been covered over with layers and layers of stuff that i had never really cleaned off. i don't know, and i don't want to know anymore.

i'm running away from reality. running away from everything. my morals haven't changed, but mentally, my thoughts have.

i don't want to be here. i just wanna be gone. i wanna disappear from the ends of the earth. i just wanna be gone.....but it won't ever happen. i wanna leave and never come back. just wanna be taken away.....taken away and be kept safe for ever and ever.

misinterpretation

blah, i wasn't talking about you in my thoughts. but i suppose that's what you assumed. i was talking about something else that was on my mind. but then again, i'm being misinterpreted.

blah, maybe it's better if i had never learnt to drive.

it is my fault because i'm distancing myself from everyone.

honestly, i wasn't talking about you.....even though most of my thoughts are written about people at school or things that have gone on in school....but it wasn't it. i won't retaliate to what you said about me, because i accept all that you have said.....

if it sounded that i was talking to you, i wasn't....i was talking about what was on my mind, not a reply of anger with your entries. but no matter how i say it, you probably won't believe me. and there's nothing i can say back to make you believe. you can only believe what you want.....

lilo and stitch

holy crap.....when did abc come out with a show with lilo and stitch in it?!?!? why why?!?!?! why didn't i know?!?!? kkeke^^:D:P i love stitch!!!! he's sucha cutie pie. keke^^:DP