every so often people say i think too much. and that i agree on. but i would rather think than to be idle for life. it's weird. some people take the time and read my thoughts. but i suppose this is just like ajournal to me so that i don't focus too hard. it's my way out of things. SUPRESSING EVERYTHING THAT GOES AROUND MENtally and emotionally sometimes just does work. thta's why some people say i need a shrink cause even expressing to friends doesn't help. but i suppose i understand where they are coming from. hm. sighs sighs.

some people are really nice to me, and some people are really cruel to me. args.....sleeping soon....head is spinning like 20 miles per hour. args args.......

am i stable or unstable? is that for you to judge or not?

hm.....i have no clue. sighs sighs. everyone is going through hard times. it's kinda funny when i come to think of it. when one friend that you keep contact with and is willing to talk to you about their problems, you will be naturally affected. and i suppose that goes for everyone. it's weird that way. i suppose that's what happens when people say you are too understanding. so understanding to the point that you would give the world for their problems would go away. but that is just a very selfish way of looking at it i suppose. hm.... but there are many things that someone doesn't need to say only to observe will let you understand enuff to creat pain at you. but then again.....not many people want to take the time and see the problems

keke^^ learning to cope is the nature of man. you can't survive if you don't allow yourself to accept and adapt. keke^^ one thing that i have learnt from being a friend to many guys and girls is this, it's all about the amount you can accept to be yours. if you do not accept the way a person is, the more dislike will be in the whole relationship. keke^^ so yeah....it's weird that way. i like to keep all my friends close....and my best friends even closer......and the closest being GOD, but my enimies will be in my heart next closest to them. people ask me why i always say i love them when a problem arises. there is a reason behind this. because i see two solutions when you tell someone you love them. they either pull further apart from you, or they return that love back. when i tell you i love you, will you return your love towards me only through mere words or even through actions?

when i say i love you, will you run away and hide?