Sunday, May 16, 2004

well you know....calling me in the middle of the nowhere made my day....cheered me up alot....since i thought no one remembered that i would be at home boring my bum bum off. keke^^ thanx thanx you there. kekek^^ oh wellz. what can i say??? you are truly a friend....keke^^
you know, sometimes in life.....GOD puts certain people in your life so that you will be reminded of different times so that you do not hope for too much or too less, but always fully looking toward the HEAVENS for an answer from GOD.
kekek^^ bri boi.....you know me way too well!!! kekek^^ you knew i was going to respond....and you bloody well wanted me to didn't you? keke^^ cause you knew either way that i would respond....but stating that i would....makes me wanna even more now. keke^^ well n e ways...not dwelling on the fact that you like totally wanted me to reply....but then you know what i'm going to say to you then don't you? well first and formost....thanx for cheering up my day.....cause well....i had a crummy churchie day....but reading that...made me feel seeeepecial.

okayz...on to the being happy thing. well i think forcing happiness is not good. but to an extent, if you do not make yourself happy, you learn to loose that skill. yes, i think being happy is a skill. well more like a gift than it is a skill, but either way....closely ralated to each other in some way or another. also happiness is closely related to rejoicing and praise in my opinion. if you do look happy, you prolly are supposed to be like that and you also want to see others happy. if you were made so that you rejoice and praise GOD, then in my opinion, GOD made you to be happy. there is no greater motivator than the motivated.....others are motivated to smile because of others in their life, then knowing this....one may and will be happy. which would you rather see, a world full of gloom, or a world full of smiles....even though knowing they may be fake?plus....something that seems to be fake doesn't mean that it necessarily is. you can't make the world happy, but you can make those around you who are in the world happy.

if you try to be happy, there are two things that may happen. 1) you become more miserable because you feel more and more artificial. or 2) you feel better because those around you are happy because it seems that you are happy. but i learnt this.....you must go through both reactions to truly feel happy. for one thing....the stages of life before acceptance is always denial, anger, depression, relization, acceptance. or at least something similar to that.

this is the way of life, what you do not want to do, don't do. what you want to do, do. but in living life like this, know that there are consequences and GOD is in complete control over you in the very end. He has just given you the choice to enjoy here without if you choose, but you pay that with a price too high. as long as your thoughts and your actions of what you choose to do or to be does not sin, then you will be fine.