sighs sighs. i'm not in a good mood today. i want to get out of the house. i have the car....but....i don't really wanna drive n e where by myself. sighs sighs. i almost got into a car accident today. so yeah. that just tells you how foul a mood i really am in. sighs sighs. jenny's not picking up her house line. maybe she isn't home. sighs sighs. i don't know if i shall call val and see what she's up to. i know she's probably busy. jo's working and i don't think i should bug her at work. i just need to get out of my house. all i do is read...and it's really getting me down.
sighs....well other things have been on my mind lately. and i suppose it's that time of the month again when everything just seems to get me down. sighs sighs. yeah....the song that i'm listening to now is called the bloom of snow....sooo cute...but sooo depressing....should find better music. sighs sighs....
everyone's busy.....everyone has plans...it's my fault....sighs sighs....i wish that i felt more of a connection with my fellowship. i don't understand why even though they are very warm and friendly to me, i still don't like to spend time with them. they all still feel sooo unfamiliar even though i've known them all for a very long time. sighs sighs.