well....planning to sleep soon....keke^^:D:P
yupz......
sooo worried about jo....i really hope that she won't go back to old habbits. old habbits may die hard, but they don't mean they don't die. sighs. if you snap, i'll tape you back!!!! i mean, that may sound funny, but i'm serious...if you snap....i'll tape you back......i won't let you snap to utter humpty dumpty phase....i just won't let you....i just can't watch and do nothing.....
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
city hunter "nina"
wow.....i love that song......i have that on a cd somewhere....keke^^:D:P
yeah......for some reason, i just saw it on like brian's account......and i just totally remember i have that song! keke^^:D:P
oh how fun!!!!
sighs sighs......
i just don't know...
i'm sooo damned confused...
how the hell could you do that? blah.....oh wellz....i'll get over it.....eventually....blah...just let me have some time to contemplate.....
yeah......for some reason, i just saw it on like brian's account......and i just totally remember i have that song! keke^^:D:P
oh how fun!!!!
sighs sighs......
i just don't know...
i'm sooo damned confused...
how the hell could you do that? blah.....oh wellz....i'll get over it.....eventually....blah...just let me have some time to contemplate.....
oh, how fun!
well i wasn't planning to go out tonight, and i did.....but it caused sooo many problems. sighs, jordan paid for sooo much gas money....keke^^:D:P not laughing about that she paid for gas, but i left a bit of my skills somewhere.....yupz yupz. hope she won't notice.
well the first part of our nite wasn't tooo bad. from one drink to the other......first we went to timmy's....we got a coffee...then i said let's go to br.....and i got my taro milk tea with bubbles....and jordan got the oreo milk tea with bubbles. yeah......thanx for the suggestion cat.....it tasted great!!! yupz yupz. that part of the night was pretty good......
and then....things went drastically bad.....when we called val to and asked where the hell she was....
sighs......i feel sooo bad.....
sighs sighs....well n e whoo.....val was feeling antisocial.....but she didn't tell us this till the whole night was pretty much over.....args..... sighs......it didn't even sound like she wanted to be with us to begin with. she was supposed to call before she was leaving the house. but she never even called us. args args. we were sooo confused and worried when we kept on calling and no one picked up. val never does that.
and then finally, when she does call.....she makes everything sound like nothing's happened. sighs sighs. she didn't only just ditch us, it sounded like she completely forgot about us. args.
val's never done this, but she's pulled a ray.....but the thing is.....ray actually apologized for the entire thing and it sounded sincere. val on the other hand....made it sound like it was a joke. sighs.....to me, val doing this is no big deal, i'm rather used to being ditched. i just feel sooo bad for jo. i mean, she normally only works two days a week and she got today off just to go to screemers. but she didn't go because i didn't go....and val never ended up going.....so yeah.... you see how upset she is?
sighs..... i can't even start to fathom how upset jo is.....because i know getting ditched is a totally big thing for her. and i feel sooo bad on her behalf.
it's not the ditching that's all that bad.....it's the unable to give an explanation that makes it all the worst.
i do care that you feel bad because it's close to a certain date that you'd rather forget, but the thing is.....why the hell didn't you just tell us before all this to tell us you were feeling anti social.....but what i don't get is how the hell do you feel antisocial and hang out with a guy. it seems like you are ditching us for a guy.....emotionally i can kinda relate cause i've been feeling all antisocial lately...you will never understand how antisocial.....but the fact is....you left us for a guy, didn't bother to call...and when we called you, you didn't seem like you even cared.
sighs val.....you ditched us for a guy whether you see it that way or not. you did and that's the end of the story. the main key....you ditched us....not for your mom, not for your brother, but for a damned guy that i met once and called a sweetie....and i still think he is....but he brought such a side of you that i've never seen before val. you ditched us, didn't call us, left us worrying for the whole night and you didn't give us a pausable explanation. yeah, you were feeling antisocial, so was i, i've been feeling anti social for like a whole week and a half now....but i didn't go run off to be with a guy.....i wanted to spend the weekend with friends knowing that hanging out with friends would keep me sane.....but i didn't ditch you or at least didn't want to....
you've just left me confused and lost for words. this whole time i thought your cell ran out of batteries and that's why you never called....but i guess that just wasn't it. when you told me that you did absolutely jack shit with mark, aka kram, i got sooo much more confused because you didn't even THINK to call us.....or so it seems.....give me a shout when you feel like telling me the whole long story. right now, i'm just sooo confused...
jo, i'm sooo sorry for your half-assed night. i'll make it up to you some way or another.... i didn't mean for it to turn out like this for you....i'm sooo sorry.....*hugs and kisses*
well the first part of our nite wasn't tooo bad. from one drink to the other......first we went to timmy's....we got a coffee...then i said let's go to br.....and i got my taro milk tea with bubbles....and jordan got the oreo milk tea with bubbles. yeah......thanx for the suggestion cat.....it tasted great!!! yupz yupz. that part of the night was pretty good......
and then....things went drastically bad.....when we called val to and asked where the hell she was....
sighs......i feel sooo bad.....
sighs sighs....well n e whoo.....val was feeling antisocial.....but she didn't tell us this till the whole night was pretty much over.....args..... sighs......it didn't even sound like she wanted to be with us to begin with. she was supposed to call before she was leaving the house. but she never even called us. args args. we were sooo confused and worried when we kept on calling and no one picked up. val never does that.
and then finally, when she does call.....she makes everything sound like nothing's happened. sighs sighs. she didn't only just ditch us, it sounded like she completely forgot about us. args.
val's never done this, but she's pulled a ray.....but the thing is.....ray actually apologized for the entire thing and it sounded sincere. val on the other hand....made it sound like it was a joke. sighs.....to me, val doing this is no big deal, i'm rather used to being ditched. i just feel sooo bad for jo. i mean, she normally only works two days a week and she got today off just to go to screemers. but she didn't go because i didn't go....and val never ended up going.....so yeah.... you see how upset she is?
sighs..... i can't even start to fathom how upset jo is.....because i know getting ditched is a totally big thing for her. and i feel sooo bad on her behalf.
it's not the ditching that's all that bad.....it's the unable to give an explanation that makes it all the worst.
i do care that you feel bad because it's close to a certain date that you'd rather forget, but the thing is.....why the hell didn't you just tell us before all this to tell us you were feeling anti social.....but what i don't get is how the hell do you feel antisocial and hang out with a guy. it seems like you are ditching us for a guy.....emotionally i can kinda relate cause i've been feeling all antisocial lately...you will never understand how antisocial.....but the fact is....you left us for a guy, didn't bother to call...and when we called you, you didn't seem like you even cared.
sighs val.....you ditched us for a guy whether you see it that way or not. you did and that's the end of the story. the main key....you ditched us....not for your mom, not for your brother, but for a damned guy that i met once and called a sweetie....and i still think he is....but he brought such a side of you that i've never seen before val. you ditched us, didn't call us, left us worrying for the whole night and you didn't give us a pausable explanation. yeah, you were feeling antisocial, so was i, i've been feeling anti social for like a whole week and a half now....but i didn't go run off to be with a guy.....i wanted to spend the weekend with friends knowing that hanging out with friends would keep me sane.....but i didn't ditch you or at least didn't want to....
you've just left me confused and lost for words. this whole time i thought your cell ran out of batteries and that's why you never called....but i guess that just wasn't it. when you told me that you did absolutely jack shit with mark, aka kram, i got sooo much more confused because you didn't even THINK to call us.....or so it seems.....give me a shout when you feel like telling me the whole long story. right now, i'm just sooo confused...
jo, i'm sooo sorry for your half-assed night. i'll make it up to you some way or another.... i didn't mean for it to turn out like this for you....i'm sooo sorry.....*hugs and kisses*
depression....
shit.....took one of those medical quizzes for those that actually study depression. fuck it.....they are like i'm high at risk for depression. either that or i am in depression at current....sighs sighs....
blah blah.....either that or bipolar mood disorder.
yo......do i seem to be moody lately? do i seem to have up and downs every so rapidly? do i seem to be occasionallyhappy and then all of a sudden completely angry or upset? do i keep to myself very often and then have outbursts of "talking fits"?
blah......those are typical signs of having bipolar mood disorder......and they are normally triggered by genes and hormones......egh.....bipolar mood disorder is genetic and so is depression.....weird huh? been doing a bit of research for myself.....it's like the only thing that kinda keeps me happy....blah......going out at five...or at least hope to n e ways.....
grrrr....
blah blah.....either that or bipolar mood disorder.
yo......do i seem to be moody lately? do i seem to have up and downs every so rapidly? do i seem to be occasionallyhappy and then all of a sudden completely angry or upset? do i keep to myself very often and then have outbursts of "talking fits"?
blah......those are typical signs of having bipolar mood disorder......and they are normally triggered by genes and hormones......egh.....bipolar mood disorder is genetic and so is depression.....weird huh? been doing a bit of research for myself.....it's like the only thing that kinda keeps me happy....blah......going out at five...or at least hope to n e ways.....
grrrr....
selective mutism
what is it?
This is when a child does not talk while in certain places, but is completely capable of speech and communication.
signs
excessive shyness, fear of social embarrassment, social isolation and withdrawal
it affects less than 1% of those being treated in mental health facilities. it is normally more common in females than in males.
This is when a child does not talk while in certain places, but is completely capable of speech and communication.
signs
excessive shyness, fear of social embarrassment, social isolation and withdrawal
it affects less than 1% of those being treated in mental health facilities. it is normally more common in females than in males.
social phobia
what is it?
Social anxiety is the fear of social situations that involve interaction with other people. Put another way, social anxiety is the fear and anxiety of being judged and evaluated by other people. If a person usually becomes anxious in social situations, but seems fine when they are alone, then "social anxiety" may be the problem.^hey...doesn't that sound familiar? about 7% of the world's population has it. but social phobia in more serious cases can lead to long term problems.
signs
People with social anxiety are many times seen by others as being shy, quiet, backward, withdrawn, inhibited, unfriendly, nervous, aloof, and disinterested. People with social anxiety want to be "normal" socially, they want to make friends and they want to be involved and engaged in social interactions.
symptoms
anxiety, intense fear, nervousness, automatic negative thinking cycles, racing heart, blushing, excessive sweating, dry throat and mouth, trembling, and muscle twitches.
people with it
know that their anxiety is irrational and does not make logical sense. Nevertheless, thoughts and feelings of anxiety persist and show no signs of going away, without appropriate treatment.
Social anxiety is the fear of social situations that involve interaction with other people. Put another way, social anxiety is the fear and anxiety of being judged and evaluated by other people. If a person usually becomes anxious in social situations, but seems fine when they are alone, then "social anxiety" may be the problem.^hey...doesn't that sound familiar? about 7% of the world's population has it. but social phobia in more serious cases can lead to long term problems.
signs
People with social anxiety are many times seen by others as being shy, quiet, backward, withdrawn, inhibited, unfriendly, nervous, aloof, and disinterested. People with social anxiety want to be "normal" socially, they want to make friends and they want to be involved and engaged in social interactions.
symptoms
anxiety, intense fear, nervousness, automatic negative thinking cycles, racing heart, blushing, excessive sweating, dry throat and mouth, trembling, and muscle twitches.
people with it
know that their anxiety is irrational and does not make logical sense. Nevertheless, thoughts and feelings of anxiety persist and show no signs of going away, without appropriate treatment.
stats....
95% of people have said they wanted to be a doctor, teacher, actor/actress, astronaut, or singer at one time or other in their life
90% of the people that say they are joking are actually saying what they think
85% of the people that say good-bye actually didn't want to talk to you to begin with
60% of the people that say "i love you" actually mean it
55% of the people that say "sure" after a question actually mean no, or not really
45% of the people that say "uh-huh, yeah, sure" on the phone are actually listening
35% of the people that say they have enemies don't
10% of the people that say they don't have enemies actually do
i don't know......i really think that some of these statistics are like totally rounded up. like how can every %age end in 5 or 0?!?!? blah....but maybe some people are just pulling digits outta their ass. meh....maybe.....i wouldn't know. there are are more statistics, but i can't think of all of the ones that i've heard over the years....those are some of the more recent ones that i remember. blah.....keke^^:d:P so yeah....me gonna go now....funny how these stats work out sooo funnily.....i noe...it's not an actually word. so what are you gonna do? kill me?
90% of the people that say they are joking are actually saying what they think
85% of the people that say good-bye actually didn't want to talk to you to begin with
60% of the people that say "i love you" actually mean it
55% of the people that say "sure" after a question actually mean no, or not really
45% of the people that say "uh-huh, yeah, sure" on the phone are actually listening
35% of the people that say they have enemies don't
10% of the people that say they don't have enemies actually do
i don't know......i really think that some of these statistics are like totally rounded up. like how can every %age end in 5 or 0?!?!? blah....but maybe some people are just pulling digits outta their ass. meh....maybe.....i wouldn't know. there are are more statistics, but i can't think of all of the ones that i've heard over the years....those are some of the more recent ones that i remember. blah.....keke^^:d:P so yeah....me gonna go now....funny how these stats work out sooo funnily.....i noe...it's not an actually word. so what are you gonna do? kill me?
my voice
i wanna be a singer. but i hate this media. i hate this life. and if i were to become a singer, i'd have nothing new to bring to this world. i'd just be another singer that sings about brokenheartedness. i'd sing about love. i'd sing about hate. i'd sing about depression. i'd sing about renewal and crap like that. blah....my voice is nothing new to this world. blah......
so it would mean nothing to try because i'd fail. so yeah......plus....i haven't even sang for such a long time. i don't even know if it's unaffected.
one of these days, i'll wake up to a horrible finding that i can't sing, i can't speak. the world would be sooo happy because they always tell me to shut up and be quiet. so yeah. yeah, but most of them haven't even noticed that i've become alot less loud and very quiet. they still bring up the past saying i'm always loud. blah.....i hate all this....
so it would mean nothing to try because i'd fail. so yeah......plus....i haven't even sang for such a long time. i don't even know if it's unaffected.
one of these days, i'll wake up to a horrible finding that i can't sing, i can't speak. the world would be sooo happy because they always tell me to shut up and be quiet. so yeah. yeah, but most of them haven't even noticed that i've become alot less loud and very quiet. they still bring up the past saying i'm always loud. blah.....i hate all this....
life changes....
well yeah, i have come to the conclusion that i want human interaction in my life. but the problem is......there is a part of me that just doesn't want it at all.
it feels sooo familiar to hurt. it feels sooo familiar to understand. it feels sooo familiar to be the only one in the corner because no one would talk to me even though i tried to talk. it feels sooo familiar to sing to myself just to know i exsist. it feels sooo familiar crying to sleep. it feels sooo familiar to be frustrated because it seems no one cares. but, this feeling of anti-socialness feels different. this feeling of being anti-social isn't something i've ever remember turning to. i don't remember when i have ever been anti-social. the only feeling that's familiar to all this is my sense of loosing my motivation and lacking a heart to progress.
blah.....it was rather weird......if i hadn't mistaken in what i heard the other day in class, we were having presentations....and the my teacher says, "i'm not really worried about the presentations right now, i'm worried about sabine." yeah. my teacher calls me sabine...i really hate that....but meh......if that's what she wants to call me cause sabina is harder to call than sabine...whateve. blah....never been one to fight authority. so yeah. she probably thought i was falling asleep no doubt. but i wasn't sleeping. i was taking my notes like i was supposed to be. i just had a hood over my head and started covering my face.
no one in the class noes cept me, but i started breaking down in class. i started crying for no apparent reason. i just felt sooo helpless and hopeless. i felt sooo hurt. i felt sooo alone. i felt sooo unappreciated. i felt sooo hated. i felt like the world was against me. but then again, jo was sitting right there besides me. and i know she was worried because i was all gloomy looking the whole day.
i know she wanted me to go to screemers with her and val today......but really.....i don't feel like doing n e thing n e more. plus....my parents don't even want me going because i have a research essay thing that i should be working on. blah.....
jay chou's songs are playing....and they are all the same. i hate is voice now....it's because it reminds me of happy memories turned bad. blah......*cries*
fears....fears....fears....all these doubts and fears are turning me away from all that i worked for.....
it feels sooo familiar to hurt. it feels sooo familiar to understand. it feels sooo familiar to be the only one in the corner because no one would talk to me even though i tried to talk. it feels sooo familiar to sing to myself just to know i exsist. it feels sooo familiar crying to sleep. it feels sooo familiar to be frustrated because it seems no one cares. but, this feeling of anti-socialness feels different. this feeling of being anti-social isn't something i've ever remember turning to. i don't remember when i have ever been anti-social. the only feeling that's familiar to all this is my sense of loosing my motivation and lacking a heart to progress.
blah.....it was rather weird......if i hadn't mistaken in what i heard the other day in class, we were having presentations....and the my teacher says, "i'm not really worried about the presentations right now, i'm worried about sabine." yeah. my teacher calls me sabine...i really hate that....but meh......if that's what she wants to call me cause sabina is harder to call than sabine...whateve. blah....never been one to fight authority. so yeah. she probably thought i was falling asleep no doubt. but i wasn't sleeping. i was taking my notes like i was supposed to be. i just had a hood over my head and started covering my face.
no one in the class noes cept me, but i started breaking down in class. i started crying for no apparent reason. i just felt sooo helpless and hopeless. i felt sooo hurt. i felt sooo alone. i felt sooo unappreciated. i felt sooo hated. i felt like the world was against me. but then again, jo was sitting right there besides me. and i know she was worried because i was all gloomy looking the whole day.
i know she wanted me to go to screemers with her and val today......but really.....i don't feel like doing n e thing n e more. plus....my parents don't even want me going because i have a research essay thing that i should be working on. blah.....
jay chou's songs are playing....and they are all the same. i hate is voice now....it's because it reminds me of happy memories turned bad. blah......*cries*
fears....fears....fears....all these doubts and fears are turning me away from all that i worked for.....
funny...
for some reason....on a typical saturday, i post sooo many entries that talk about nothing.
most of my saturday is sitting in front of a pc and thinking, watching tv, thinking some more, eating, going to the gym, sleeping, reading, eating, surfing the net. that's bout it aye. sad ain't it?
but then again, when i do have plans, it's either i want to go and i can't or i don't want to go and reject the offer or i just can't cause everything has the $$$ issue which i don't have the $$$. so yeah
wanna get a job, parents say that it'll affect my school work. it probably will too no doubt. sighs sighs. oh wellz. it would be fun trying to live up to it. blah......gotsta start doing scholarship stuff. blah....i can't get osap. blah....=.= crap....evil. i think i will go to guelph after all. but then again......i really don't wanna be where my sister is. but then again, it would be nice to have someone to look after me. but then again, i know it would be bad cause i don't become independant....blah...
most of my saturday is sitting in front of a pc and thinking, watching tv, thinking some more, eating, going to the gym, sleeping, reading, eating, surfing the net. that's bout it aye. sad ain't it?
but then again, when i do have plans, it's either i want to go and i can't or i don't want to go and reject the offer or i just can't cause everything has the $$$ issue which i don't have the $$$. so yeah
wanna get a job, parents say that it'll affect my school work. it probably will too no doubt. sighs sighs. oh wellz. it would be fun trying to live up to it. blah......gotsta start doing scholarship stuff. blah....i can't get osap. blah....=.= crap....evil. i think i will go to guelph after all. but then again......i really don't wanna be where my sister is. but then again, it would be nice to have someone to look after me. but then again, i know it would be bad cause i don't become independant....blah...
music
did you ever notice that the sort of music you listen to that you become like it? i don't know....normally people listen to a certain type of music and start hating or disliking other types of music. blah....but then again, the most influential thing to gets someone's attention is music. but i don't know....it's werid i suppose...
i mean, i don't like to listen to english music....honestely......if it weren't for cat, val, and jo....i wouldn't be listening to like english music at all. plus, ray listens to gino beats.....and i already like that type of music. so yeah....keke^^:D:P
but that doesn't matter....
i don't know.....i'm just weird......i'll just haveta do a study.
i'll prolly end up being one of those people that like study for the rest of their life and writing a thesis statement that drives me for the rest of my life. bleh....me no noe....
blah.....it would be cool to be successful for once....=.=
i mean, i don't like to listen to english music....honestely......if it weren't for cat, val, and jo....i wouldn't be listening to like english music at all. plus, ray listens to gino beats.....and i already like that type of music. so yeah....keke^^:D:P
but that doesn't matter....
i don't know.....i'm just weird......i'll just haveta do a study.
i'll prolly end up being one of those people that like study for the rest of their life and writing a thesis statement that drives me for the rest of my life. bleh....me no noe....
blah.....it would be cool to be successful for once....=.=
odd woman
blah....i'm an odd child, and i'd prolly grow up to be an odd woman too.....not that i ain't one now. so meh.
you know what makes me happy?!?!? frozen vanilla yogurt....no, not frozen yogurt that has the texture of icecream, but litterly the cartoons of yogurt and just put those in the freezers. it makes me happy. me like vanilla! keke^^:D:P actually, i love vanilla! keke^^:D:P but then again, i'm seeepecial. keke^^:D:P i started a fad in stupid bubble of ot once......everyone in the atrium or at least the girls sprayed like vanilla. this was because i was on the volleyball team and i always smelt like vanilla. they thought it smelt nice and stole my scent. oh wellz.....that's their fault....keke^^:D:P
well i think i need to buy new track pants. blah......need gym clothes...whatever.....don't really care....
not oging to screemers tonight. not oging to the bar tonight......not hanging out with n e one tonight. not doing n e thing tonight. so yeah, me a loner in the basement tonight with my pc and tv. how lovely......it's how i suppose i like to spend the best of my saturdays i suppose. it's become sooo routinely for me that i've grown accustomed to having nothing to look forward to later on in the night. how pathetic aye? well jean's got her g2 now....sooo happy for her...keke^^:D:P that actually means that she can actually drive now!!!! not that she couldn't before...keke^^:D:P
well keep safe everyone......for i'm signing off and i don't plan on coming back all that often n e more. see, after that experiment, going on line hasn't become a necessity for me and i can live without it.
you know what makes me happy?!?!? frozen vanilla yogurt....no, not frozen yogurt that has the texture of icecream, but litterly the cartoons of yogurt and just put those in the freezers. it makes me happy. me like vanilla! keke^^:D:P actually, i love vanilla! keke^^:D:P but then again, i'm seeepecial. keke^^:D:P i started a fad in stupid bubble of ot once......everyone in the atrium or at least the girls sprayed like vanilla. this was because i was on the volleyball team and i always smelt like vanilla. they thought it smelt nice and stole my scent. oh wellz.....that's their fault....keke^^:D:P
well i think i need to buy new track pants. blah......need gym clothes...whatever.....don't really care....
not oging to screemers tonight. not oging to the bar tonight......not hanging out with n e one tonight. not doing n e thing tonight. so yeah, me a loner in the basement tonight with my pc and tv. how lovely......it's how i suppose i like to spend the best of my saturdays i suppose. it's become sooo routinely for me that i've grown accustomed to having nothing to look forward to later on in the night. how pathetic aye? well jean's got her g2 now....sooo happy for her...keke^^:D:P that actually means that she can actually drive now!!!! not that she couldn't before...keke^^:D:P
well keep safe everyone......for i'm signing off and i don't plan on coming back all that often n e more. see, after that experiment, going on line hasn't become a necessity for me and i can live without it.
me a weirdo...
bleh.....
grad note......should i put inside jokes? or shud i just cuss everyone off and say "fuck you too"? keke^^:D:P yeah....even saying that is an inside joke in itself....keke^^:D:P
here's all the inside jokes that only a bunch of us will understand....
"you a weena, hahaha!!!!"
"turn left here, no, not that left, the other left!!!!"
"I'm scottish, and i'm married" keke^^:D:P that's a funny one that only a few that had class with me would get! keke^^:D:P
since i can't type profanity, there's no point in me typing fuck you too. but i could try typing it up like....f*** ya'll too. keke^^:D:P yeah.....val....that ones for you...since it's my only comeback to everything....keke^^:D:P so yeah....i'm pathetic when it comes down to like thinking about combacks now.....keke^^:D:P but then again, i don't try...
then there's this odd one that i thought would be funny to include..........
"do like dori, and just keep swimming!"
i could prolly keep it short i suppose. so yeah....no inside jokes....*boooo* oh wellz....
meh....i'll decide to fix it up......
grad note......should i put inside jokes? or shud i just cuss everyone off and say "fuck you too"? keke^^:D:P yeah....even saying that is an inside joke in itself....keke^^:D:P
here's all the inside jokes that only a bunch of us will understand....
"you a weena, hahaha!!!!"
"turn left here, no, not that left, the other left!!!!"
"I'm scottish, and i'm married" keke^^:D:P that's a funny one that only a few that had class with me would get! keke^^:D:P
since i can't type profanity, there's no point in me typing fuck you too. but i could try typing it up like....f*** ya'll too. keke^^:D:P yeah.....val....that ones for you...since it's my only comeback to everything....keke^^:D:P so yeah....i'm pathetic when it comes down to like thinking about combacks now.....keke^^:D:P but then again, i don't try...
then there's this odd one that i thought would be funny to include..........
"do like dori, and just keep swimming!"
i could prolly keep it short i suppose. so yeah....no inside jokes....*boooo* oh wellz....
meh....i'll decide to fix it up......
me a weeeena!!!! hahaha!!!!
yupz yupz.....calling cat like totally made my day!!!
well at least cat's stalkerish friend doesn't know my pagie....keke^^:D:P i'd prolly scare her. keke^^:D:P
args args....i left my yogurt sitting in the freezer over night.....*boo whooo* it's now like ice instead of a slushy material.....*booo whoo*....but it still tastes good.
yeah.....since i can't open the page for that test thingy.....i'll just steal the colour i am from cat's pagie.....holy crap.....i'm like exactly 50%blue....keke^^:D:P 16% red, 23% white and 11 percent yellow....keke^^:D:P
Blues
Blues are motivated by altruism. Blues love to do nice things for others. They look for opportunities to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. Selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Many Blues are uncomfortable doing things solely for themselves. They hold doors for people, offer rides when someone's car breaks down, contribute to charity, even devote their whole lives to helping others.
Blues crave intimacy. More than anything else, Blues want to love and be loved. A Blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Once considered a female characteristic, this nurturing is more accurately understood as a Blue personality trait.
Blues are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. They are notorious for revealing their inadequacies because they value being known and understood so much. In the eyes of a Blue, being vulnerable is small price to pay for the chance to be close. Blues may have their hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love.
Blues expend such great effort in making the world a better place that sometimes they need to be told how wonderful they are. They need to be thanked and specifically remembered for their good deeds. They need sincere gratitude. They delight in being remembered on birthdays and other special days, especially if the remembrance is personal - a homemade anniversary card, a welcome home party, a special day that isn't on the calendar. Blues need tender loving care.
Blues are directed by a strong moral conscience. Blues are motivated to behave in a proper, appropriate manner. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgments, even their leisure time. Blues enjoy being "good". Of all the personality colors, Blues come equipped with the strongest sense of integrity. A Blue would rather lose than cheat. Blues are trustworthy. Blues are the people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.
well n e whoo....i would have posted up like the other colours....but the answers that are on the utm site....doesn't seem to be opening...and i think the utm server at at the present moment has some difficulties because it;s not even opening the home page for it.....so yeah.....but i'll post it some other time.....
wow.....i'm blue, wite, red, yellow.......egh....weird.....
well at least cat's stalkerish friend doesn't know my pagie....keke^^:D:P i'd prolly scare her. keke^^:D:P
args args....i left my yogurt sitting in the freezer over night.....*boo whooo* it's now like ice instead of a slushy material.....*booo whoo*....but it still tastes good.
yeah.....since i can't open the page for that test thingy.....i'll just steal the colour i am from cat's pagie.....holy crap.....i'm like exactly 50%blue....keke^^:D:P 16% red, 23% white and 11 percent yellow....keke^^:D:P
Blues
Blues are motivated by altruism. Blues love to do nice things for others. They look for opportunities to give up something in order to bring another person happiness. Selflessness rather than selfishness is their guiding philosophy. Many Blues are uncomfortable doing things solely for themselves. They hold doors for people, offer rides when someone's car breaks down, contribute to charity, even devote their whole lives to helping others.
Blues crave intimacy. More than anything else, Blues want to love and be loved. A Blue will sacrifice a successful career to improve an important relationship. Once considered a female characteristic, this nurturing is more accurately understood as a Blue personality trait.
Blues are gratified when they are listened to, when they feel understood and appreciated. They are notorious for revealing their inadequacies because they value being known and understood so much. In the eyes of a Blue, being vulnerable is small price to pay for the chance to be close. Blues may have their hearts broken more than most people, but they also spend much more time in love.
Blues expend such great effort in making the world a better place that sometimes they need to be told how wonderful they are. They need to be thanked and specifically remembered for their good deeds. They need sincere gratitude. They delight in being remembered on birthdays and other special days, especially if the remembrance is personal - a homemade anniversary card, a welcome home party, a special day that isn't on the calendar. Blues need tender loving care.
Blues are directed by a strong moral conscience. Blues are motivated to behave in a proper, appropriate manner. They have a moral code that guides them in their decision making, their value judgments, even their leisure time. Blues enjoy being "good". Of all the personality colors, Blues come equipped with the strongest sense of integrity. A Blue would rather lose than cheat. Blues are trustworthy. Blues are the people who should be in positions of power, but seldom are.
well n e whoo....i would have posted up like the other colours....but the answers that are on the utm site....doesn't seem to be opening...and i think the utm server at at the present moment has some difficulties because it;s not even opening the home page for it.....so yeah.....but i'll post it some other time.....
wow.....i'm blue, wite, red, yellow.......egh....weird.....
blind faith aye?
how i wish i had the courage to like say i just want to believe and forget about all the stupid things i are happening and not happening in my life.
but i can't. time and time again, church after church, every one that i attend shatters and due to human errors, breaks and becomes a church not worth attending for me any more. each and every time, i loose friends. the only reason being is because i live sooo far, it's rather difficult to see each other. then when i don't really see them much, i don't really wish to talk to them.....with only one friend for that exception. but then again, i suppose i left a mark in their hearts just a lil wee bit i suppose. but then, maybe i didn't mean n e thing to them except and image of just another friend. sighs.
through all this, i see that whenever you have people gathering together, there will always be problems. each and everyone's personality will clash. i have no faith in church n e more. i do not dare say i have no faith in GOD, because i will always know that he is my Saviour, Lord and Master. There's no denying that, and if i started denying that.....well then life just wouldn't be worth living. since i have no meaning to live for myself now n e ways, but i know that God does. and his purpose will be my purpose. yeah.......to all those athiest that will ask me why i let God control me......well you know what?!?! i'd rather live a life in fear knowing that there is a GOd than to live as if there is none, making all the mistakes that could either make me or break me in the afterlife. and to those that will ask me how i know......i don't...but i put faith ahead of my own skepticism and my narrow mind. therefore i believe like a race where i can't see the finish line. but that all doesn't matter.
through all this, i have not lost my faith in GOD. i admit that at times it's much like a roller coaster where my faith goes up and down and does 360 degree turns, but........i always end back up to the platform that i started off at. blah...stupid sentence rules and never ending with prepositions......blah..... but n e whoo.....all this has done to me is lost faith in all human kind.
but i see that this loosing of faith in the human kind is costing my happiness some how. i'm loosing my trust for everyone. i question each and everyone's actions/motives.....i simply just don't trust. and i suppose that's why i'm sooo afraid of strangers. this is why i'm afraid of a being in a crowd with many many people. sighs. but i see that i'm starting to push each and everyone of my friends away.
hurt and confused in a way that i don't think i'll ever heal......the question is.....for what reason am i hurting and being all confused for?
but i can't. time and time again, church after church, every one that i attend shatters and due to human errors, breaks and becomes a church not worth attending for me any more. each and every time, i loose friends. the only reason being is because i live sooo far, it's rather difficult to see each other. then when i don't really see them much, i don't really wish to talk to them.....with only one friend for that exception. but then again, i suppose i left a mark in their hearts just a lil wee bit i suppose. but then, maybe i didn't mean n e thing to them except and image of just another friend. sighs.
through all this, i see that whenever you have people gathering together, there will always be problems. each and everyone's personality will clash. i have no faith in church n e more. i do not dare say i have no faith in GOD, because i will always know that he is my Saviour, Lord and Master. There's no denying that, and if i started denying that.....well then life just wouldn't be worth living. since i have no meaning to live for myself now n e ways, but i know that God does. and his purpose will be my purpose. yeah.......to all those athiest that will ask me why i let God control me......well you know what?!?! i'd rather live a life in fear knowing that there is a GOd than to live as if there is none, making all the mistakes that could either make me or break me in the afterlife. and to those that will ask me how i know......i don't...but i put faith ahead of my own skepticism and my narrow mind. therefore i believe like a race where i can't see the finish line. but that all doesn't matter.
through all this, i have not lost my faith in GOD. i admit that at times it's much like a roller coaster where my faith goes up and down and does 360 degree turns, but........i always end back up to the platform that i started off at. blah...stupid sentence rules and never ending with prepositions......blah..... but n e whoo.....all this has done to me is lost faith in all human kind.
but i see that this loosing of faith in the human kind is costing my happiness some how. i'm loosing my trust for everyone. i question each and everyone's actions/motives.....i simply just don't trust. and i suppose that's why i'm sooo afraid of strangers. this is why i'm afraid of a being in a crowd with many many people. sighs. but i see that i'm starting to push each and everyone of my friends away.
hurt and confused in a way that i don't think i'll ever heal......the question is.....for what reason am i hurting and being all confused for?
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