約定

還記得當天旅館的門牌
還留住笑著離開的神態
當天整個城市　那樣輕快
沿路一起走半里長街

還記得街燈照出一臉黃
還燃亮那份微暖的便當
剪影的你輪廓太好看
凝住眼淚才敢細看

＊忘掉天地　彷彿也想不起自己
仍未忘想約看漫天黃葉遠飛
就算會與你分離　凄絕的戲
要決心忘記我便記不起

＃明日天地　只恐怕認不出自己
仍未忘跟你約定假如沒有死
就算你壯闊胸膛　不敵天氣
兩鬢班白都可認得你

還記得當天結他的和弦
還明白每段旋律的伏線
當天街角流過你聲音
沿路旅程如歌褪變

重唱　＊,＃

就算你壯闊胸膛　不敵天氣
兩鬢班白都可認得你

finally, after sooo long, i find the cantonese lyrics to this song....phew. and i thought i was going crazy because this song is sung by faye wong.....but that wasn't the version i wanted....but i finally found it after a while of searching...yeah yeah

昨遲人

遲了聽你細訴
你曾迷途和那理想跟前途　多麼糊塗
遲了半秒
約你晚飯漫步在那海濱公園一雙足印
如同共舞　這戀愛的信徒
再一次失去愛神憐憫
一次要被遺下在半途

遲了送上雨傘　雨仍毛毛
誰與你竟早潛逃　終於徒勞
遲了愛你替你抹掉問號
遲了抱緊雙手差點經已同行共老
這戀愛的旅途
我想要得到卻未拾到
多麼糟可給我為你填補

＊昨日像得到　遲來無去路
　給你與某人在長夜共抱
　只懂得安慰或時候未到
　天未亮都需要為你虛耗
　(當日或今日亦一樣殘酷)

　陪我細訴　和我抱抱
　為何天空一個城堡
　仰望卻無法觸到　蓋著被鋪
　彷似終得到安土
　笑著投入你(的)懷抱＊

遲了吻你兩片軟唇紅紅而那眼睛都紅紅
心中重重
遲了疼你與你抱著做夢直到昨天分手
只懂一個呆呆目送
今天我一個人　再一次失去愛神護蔭
今天他當天你如何殘忍

REPEAT＊

我在昨日為何遲未說出
心中想告訴你那些話
那份說話為何留待了他
細心聽他講一百遍
但已醜化　心已火化

REPEAT＊

我會祝福你安好　快樂投入那些懷抱

hm....

asian youths....hm???

let's see...there are two categorizations?

category one.....there are those that feel tramendously attatched to their home land, but yet when they go back and experience it, they feel they no longer belong. but yet they don't belong where they are now. they want a bit more of home land here where they are. but then no other person around them seems to want to understand that need.

and category two.....they don't understand the home land and critisize everything about it. they know it's part of who they are, but they don't willing admit that it is. they try and deny the true facts at face value. they don't want to be part of the home land and find that they do fit in where they are now and find no need to want to fit in n e where else.

this is why you'd have classifications and haveing the cb whatevers hating the "fobs" and the "fobs" hating the cb whatevers.

i dunno, whenever i talk about stuff about immigration and whatever......i alwas ask this question.....if there were to be a war between your home country and the one you reside in now, which one would you defend? homeland or your residence? or would you be tooo disconnected from both to fight at all?

when it happens, which side would you choose?

another grouch

if you are afraid of my frown, don't make me pissed. if you are afraid of my tears, then don't make me sad. if you don't want me to worry, don't cause me to have something to worry about you about. if you don't want me around, sure, just kick me in the ass a few times and i'll get the picture.

if you use me once, shame on me. but if you use me twice, shame on me.

don't come running back because everyone else seems to be repulsed by you. don't...because i won't accept. in the beginning i may, but don't....

it's not the time you are together....it's the quality of how you spend time with each other. but not many understand. but whatever....

have you ever heard about eternity feeling like a second? or a second feeling like eternity?

meh....dunno....

have you ever had the feeling that it's like you've known me your whole life, but yet still know nothing about me? maybe that's because you've never really asked. maybe you've never really listened. maybe you've never taken my information to your heart. whatever...

it's not important now. the important thing is, i'm living here and now. i'm happy and i'm satisfied. things may not go my way. stress may make me have pains all over, but then there are ways to let go of all of it.

you still make me smile. you still make me cry. you still make me mad. you still make me feel like i'm the only one in this world.

i fell hard...and that's because i didn't try to make it feel softer...i never tried to get up after breaking a bone or two along the way. i never tried to climb. but now i have, don't drag me back down there.

the people that you are around

a bit and a bit more of the way the people you chill around will affect you. whether or not you notice it, it does happen.

if you don't understand, then well you know, i'm not gonna explain because i just don't feel like explaining myself.

there are many people out there that would want me dead because i add another pointless exsistance and waste of oxygen to this world. meh. but i'm not asking to die. i'm just saying whether or not you have the guts to kill. judgement isn't for me to give. judgement isn't for me to say n e thing.

songs bringing up old feelings towards people.

you say you know me, you know shit about me. you know nothing. you say you do only to please. but i find you know squat. you want to make me happy because it breaks your heart to see me sad. thanks, but if you don't want me to be sad, then don't take your anger out on me. i'm not a punching post or punching bag.

being myself may or may not be someone that you like.

all the places i go to, i don't see you, maybe that's for the better. i'm happy. i suppose. l8a l8a l8a...

why?

why is it that when i stand besides you, you make me smell so bad in the end? why is it that you say all this trash about me behind my back and think i don't know? just because a person seems to care less about the situation it doesn't mean that they are unaware of the situation. about all the stuff you say, only 70 percent if even is spoken about the truth. yes. about the truth, not the truth. you don't even know who i really am. nor do i, but that's my fault. every word even if i meant it to be some compliment can be twisted. every motive can be turned to being negative. yes, i'm pessimistic? wanna shoot me? go ahead, there's more similar to me out there. you can't shoot everyone. i'm the lucky one that knows this. i'm the lucky one that acknowleges that i need to change. but....through all this, i don't wanna. i need to be myself. for the benefit of myself, i need to be myself. i must please and satisfy myself. i a not to satisfy you, not you or you. you think i'm rude, you think i'm trash, you think i'm shit, then you know what? it doesn't seem like i matter to you n e ways. thanks but no thanks. if i am the can for your trash, then you know what? you are the dumpster where my garbage goes.

don't wanna only rely on myself because independance is a strong point and weakness. if you never say yes to favours, no one will say yes to your requests. but when people do favours and isn't to the expectation of you, don't yell at em. don't sound like an ungrateful person. at least say thanks and then maybe suggest that there's more that you want that you will add. don't just say it's crap.

no this world is a lonely place because every only relies on self. it is a man eat man world out there. but you know what? for all i care, come...eat me.....and see if i cause you indigestion. muhahah. i'll kill you with stomache acidXPXP

well n e whoo....back to a happier sounding feeling...l8a l8a

幸運的我

你都唔知其實我都冇法子
日日做餐死我都好似你得果幾舊水
可以頂到禮拜尾 不過我都仍然同你打個比
拿　譬如行行企企就要小心d
睇住唔好踩到佢條尾　出去蒲bar時
小心d有冇女企o係隔離　
唔覺意　high一high
就會嗌非禮　其實只係high到果塊皮
我想死xx　係呢個娛樂圈要企硬自己
無端端雜誌話我拖住女係迪士尼　hey
做咩叫我名　發覺你個希
係hey緊你個frd　但係唔怕認
而家出街真係有d驚　有d驚　覺得自己有d知訂
無諗過俾人泵　我諗我係公眾人物　
點解　為乜為乜為乜　我d朋友咁現實
起碼而家知道成件事係點既事實
幸運的我　o係度俾你放大我　o係度俾你折磨我
我 幸運的我　

*我幸運地 幸運的我 俾你講到我衰到貼地
我幸運地 要靠自己 俾你地班友處處o羅我比
我幸運地 你想我死 你地日日夜夜o羅我黎比
幸運地我 幸運地我 點都做返自己*

點解d記者咁口花當我好似耶穌釘我係個十字架
話我成日黑口黑面　如果係黑面　都依然係我嘴面
討厭　好厭　你地d狗仔相機閃閃　依然唔明白
你未遇過一個人　點解你會咁清楚呢個人既每一個事情況
點解　你由出面　睇返入面咁清楚
點解　要講到我咁燸　困住住我塔左個鎖
感覺上　好似好多人好想我死　
住低　問自己　我有無咁差　要媾女　(去網bar)
女朋友　(大把)　性格 (蝦蝦霸霸)
bilibilibilibilibalabala
你地講既野　大約七成都假
呢d咪係入左娛樂圈既代價　希望聽完個rap
你會喜歡我嗎　我　只可以向上帝
向佢求　向佢"哎"　我既仔女　唔好夢想做明星仔 (做明星仔)
repeat *

最近　我買左隻新錶　其實都唔係乜野
但係你地係度吠 有錢仔o係度曬命俾人睇
喂 唔係卦　今次著到冇咁隆重喇好嗎
今次見到我著t-shirt　短褲　人字拖
無錶無面　帶住頂帽　好普通　好似d前人出黎睇皇室堡　
今次又點　係度彈我無尊重　失禮　衰仔
冇哂計　簡直爛泥　呀希　你點惰　
失左幾步下你點樣知我滿意到　唉　繼續做　
如果提起女性朋友　你問我　我都自己坐左係度"r"哂頭　
大部分d女　今時今日　唔單止個口個心地都好醜
更加慘係如果　遇到一個女性想同佢發展一段感情
佢會對我有d偏見 (喂 你唔係好掂喎)
係咁既事件入邊　我依然知我o係邊　我仲未點變
repeat *

幸運的我　要靠自己　你想我死　幸運的我

february the 2nd

muhahah...

let's go through all the events of yesterday. hm....

woke up early yesterday....the day i slept at around 1ish....woke up at 7...and tried to sleep and officially got up at 9.

was to call val at around 10ish...and so i called her at 9:58ish.....bu she didn't pick up...called her three more times after that.....didn't pick up....so i waited about 5 to 8ish minutes for the next call.....so i called at 10:05ish....muhahha. didn't pick up...hadd call three more times till she picked up. so yes....muhahah...

she called me, i walked out of the house, totally she was checking out for hot moving van boys and missed me at the bottom of my street=.= so yesh.....grrr...

went to pick up jo...muhahaha. hit up the pmall...eventful....a yelling spree from vals mom to insanely happy. hm....it's great. bought my mommy's "leen zhi" muhahaha....

wanted to buy a top for ten dollars alot...but val wanted it too, so i just let her buy it...it's alrights. no big deal...."sui jor yut geen sam doe ng wui sai geh" so it's all good... i just don't have a halter so i wanted to buy one. but whateve. no big deals....always a next time i suppose.

hm...oh wellz...

was supposed to buy some starburst....forgot to...hm....went to markville after....."hey, the ttc's pretty efficient." but n e whoooo...jo got everything that she wanted except a pair of shoes. oh wellz.

met kosta....should have figured he was greek from the name....but it didn't strike me as n e thing foreign. i dunno....he likes to feel alcohol to people. good sign ma? hm. "but gee doe la...." oh wellz. all over val? just a bit...but well meh....i wasn't even introduced to kosta which is funnay. muhahaha.

yes....met marco...yes, officially met marco....with a handshake and everything...
"gong chow ouh hor" and "yune yueng fan" muhahah. it's all good. hey.....about 8ish dollars per dish considering there was tax. thanx val for paying for me. whether or not you noticed, you paid. muhahah. thanx thanx.

went for coffee after wards....inhalation of major time ziggies...oh wellz.....already have a second hand smoke lung to begin with. oh wellz. no big deals i suppose. sighs sighs...

an eventful day on many levels i suppose. meh....too many little funny things happen to actually describe.....so that's the jists of last night...and today...me sit here boring my bum bum off...sighs sighs....and valawee is probably at home sleeping it all off....

dunno whether or not i wanna visit tomorrow or saturday....was supposed to go to shane's bday.....was looking forward to it, but if jo is iffy about driving so far, it's alrights...we won't go......sighs.....

and so my weekend is gonna suck becuase my sister is coming home so there's gonna be a whole lot of yelling everytime my mother comes home from work. sighs sighs....

oh...what a great weekend this is gonna be=.=

sighs sighs....

hello

muhaha muahaha

back to my old sweet blog. *hugs*

dunno, just couldn't live with the guilt of having blog sooo long and not using it. args....

i have a blog, livejournal, xanga, and msn space. =.= sux....sooo conflicted of which to use....but it's alrights.

muhaha...meh=hungee hungeee....

but.....let's see.....muhahaha....didn't eat tooo muchie yesterday. drank alot of tea though. muhahaha muhahaha