why?

why is it that when i stand besides you, you make me smell so bad in the end? why is it that you say all this trash about me behind my back and think i don't know? just because a person seems to care less about the situation it doesn't mean that they are unaware of the situation. about all the stuff you say, only 70 percent if even is spoken about the truth. yes. about the truth, not the truth. you don't even know who i really am. nor do i, but that's my fault. every word even if i meant it to be some compliment can be twisted. every motive can be turned to being negative. yes, i'm pessimistic? wanna shoot me? go ahead, there's more similar to me out there. you can't shoot everyone. i'm the lucky one that knows this. i'm the lucky one that acknowleges that i need to change. but....through all this, i don't wanna. i need to be myself. for the benefit of myself, i need to be myself. i must please and satisfy myself. i a not to satisfy you, not you or you. you think i'm rude, you think i'm trash, you think i'm shit, then you know what? it doesn't seem like i matter to you n e ways. thanks but no thanks. if i am the can for your trash, then you know what? you are the dumpster where my garbage goes.

don't wanna only rely on myself because independance is a strong point and weakness. if you never say yes to favours, no one will say yes to your requests. but when people do favours and isn't to the expectation of you, don't yell at em. don't sound like an ungrateful person. at least say thanks and then maybe suggest that there's more that you want that you will add. don't just say it's crap.

no this world is a lonely place because every only relies on self. it is a man eat man world out there. but you know what? for all i care, come...eat me.....and see if i cause you indigestion. muhahah. i'll kill you with stomache acidXPXP

well n e whoo....back to a happier sounding feeling...l8a l8a