marriage...

yeah....been thinking about relationships for the past hour. rather sad. why? dunno....just am. hahaha. well yeah....then i began thinking about my grandparents. and then i started thinking about the romantic love complex. hahaha.

well now....if marriage was basically funded upon romantic love complex, then what about marriages that were arranged? i mean, my grand mother was dating another guy and my grandfather was with another girl before they got married. but even though they were dating other people, they married each other. so would someone that says that their marriage was a mistake? would you not call it a marraige because it's not funded upon the romantic love complex? well i was doing some on line research for myself....and romantic love complex revolves around these things

1) Intrusive thoughts about the object of passionate desire (the “limerent object” or LO)
2) Acute longing for reciprocation
3) Mood becomes dependent on the LO’s actions
4) Inability to react limerently towards more than one person at the same time (except when limerence is at low ebb)
5) Unsettling shyness and fear of rejection when in the presence of the LO
6) Intensification through adversity (up to a certain point)
7) Acute sensitivity to any act or condition that could be interpreted as favorable
8) An aching of the “heart” (a palpable heavy sensation in the front of the chest)
9) Buoyancy (a feeling of “walking on air”)
10) An intensity of feeling that leaves other concerns in the background
11) A remarkable ability to emphasize the positive traits of the LO, while rendering the LO’s negative traits as “endearing” to the point where it is perceived to be another positive trait.

my grandparents strictly was duty. duty for procreation. duty. though they were married, i would never say they loved each other...but i would say that they very much respect each other. through times, they may still hate each other, but they both are very respectful of each others needs and wants.

then looking at my parents...sometimes, i see that they "love" each other...and then at times, they simply hate each other's guts. my mom is intrusive on my dad's opinion. they don't have much respect, but i know deep down inside, they love each other very much. and in a way, my sister and i hold this family together, because they love us more than they love each other and themselves. they don't communicate very well. they argue alot. they have respect, but not much respect, but they love each other alot.

and then my generation...what will happen with me? which family would you rather live in? my grandparents which they are civil with each other and they don't argue much because they talk everything out and end up doing things their own way. or, would you live in my family now that they love each other and seem to not be very civilized with each other when they speak much.....

dunno...much rather create my own future and own past....but would it work? wonder how well....

english nerding around...

hahahaha. well now....second week in a row....but matt's over at my house again...and eventaully...ben'll come....hahahaha. but oh wellz. all very very good. hahahaha.

wow....according to my daddy.....i was talking in my sleep for sucha long time last night. hahahaha. but in my dream, i was talking on the phone...with someone la. hahahah. muhahahaha. all good. all very very good. hahaha.

ben won't be coming over till around sixish...hahaha.....matt has time to burn and waste.....hahahaha.

well matt now wants to read all my thoughts just to find out which guy i talk about in my blog alot...hahaha. what a joker. hahaha. i dun think he gets it yet....but...hahahaha. it's all good i suppose.

funnay funnay funnay. i told him to read the book now...hahaha. so he actually is....to get a better understanding for king lear. hahaha. sabina should be b.s.ing lor.....as i always do. args.....it's all good. hahaha. i just want a hug:( but i doubt n e one's gonna give me a hug.....